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So.... go to here to check it out!!!
I will update regulary from now on.
(i will try to keep to my word on this)

My room stinks.
Literally.

Ok, this is not the best ways to start of a post on this almost dead and at nearly under 7 feet of dirt. Nearly, it is more like six feet when i finally decided to get to work and start writing. Though i have no idea how long this determination of mine will last.
But oh well.

well, back to the stinking.
ok
what happened was that i went to get mos burger this afternoon.
this does not explain it but wait..
i brought it home
i went to my room
i ate three quarters of it
i threw it into the dusbin
in my toilet
roam around for an hour
went for dinner
back 2 hours later
stink bomb
boom
the onions in the burger
was causing this horrible smell
smelt like body odour
so then
i decided to clear the dusbin
but the smell wil not go away
now i am 'perfuming' the house.

heh

the end.

lol, i got back from the cruise yesterday!
omg
the Singapore american school was having a trip on the cruise.
A trip man! a fun trip. Not educational. just fun peace joy and laughter.
lucky people
rich people
dang those people
never mind
i have anime
i shall enjoy anime

oh, this webbie that i always download anime from
they have put more anime on their site already
but
BUT
the server has gotten so freaking slow now.
downloads for an ep takes 11 hours
fifty percent of the time the downloads are corrupted.
and then have to re download
dang man... dang... :P so tired.
and there is no way to download faster.
last time the servers were faster in the morning... now it is just slow non stop. T_T
"somebody saaaaaaveeeee meeeeee....."

ah..oh...hmm... ouran rocks!!!!!
lol
ok... end of this post.
ciao
till next time
i need to lose weight.
getting fatter and fatter
dang
hate that word
shall start to exercise
maybe
who knows
ciao
.

heyhey, another vid for you guys, well, whoever you guys are, or is it is?


click here

yupyup, today it is about, pretty much nothing.
i am still waiting for my RK dvd, so hopefully i can expect it soon.
ASAP

Well, then, i needa to gota to-a tolieta

ciao!hehe

Todays choice,

EMMYS and WORLDCUP

MY POV

I am learning how to use the oom's programmes bit by bit but i am loving it! It is so fun! hehehe, lalalala....

Hi everyone!
Ok, todays topic choice:

Fantasy VS Reality

This hit me while i was in the loo reading Archie Comics and Jughead was dreaming about being a Billionaire .
I wondered. There was always this warning phrase of how one should never confuse fantasy with reality.
And does that mean that dreams are not real?
Which makes me wonder, just how real is real and what is real?

Basically, what i am trying to say is that, are dreams real?

I mean, what if one was caught up in a fantasy and never wants to leave or can never leave?
Say, one is in a coma that is inescapable.
Does that fantasy then becomes a reality?
If that is so, arn't dreams the same, it is just that it takes up lesser time then real life only.
What if,
Just what if,
the reality that we live in, is infact a dream.
And that dreams are reality.

The only difference between reality and fantasy is that reality continues like a epic novel, but fantasy is something like a short story book which sometimes is longer and has more parts but sometimes it ends after one episode.

Dreams are no less real.
How many times have we woke up tearing because what we dreamt was too scary?
Just like how many times have we tried to escape form this reality by sleeping it away.

Maybe i am just filled with theories that are worthless,
but then, this is something i have always wondered about.

We barely have control of what happens in both worlds.
We have as much control in reality as we do in dreams.
Sometimes, we can control things, sometimes we cant.

I had a really great dream last night, kinda, for the most part of it it was good.

Dreams are affected by things in reality sometimes, just like how reality is sometimes affected by our dreams.

We dream and react towards complishing those dreams.
We get traumatized and we end up having nightmares in the nights.

Eveything is connected in this world.

So instead of saying that there is a fine line between dreams and reality.
What I want to know is that, is there even a line?
If there is, then do we even know which line is it?
Do we keep dreams out of reality, or
Do we keep reality out of our dreams.

----

ok, end of that discussion, today i had received an email from ratty regarding the rurouni kenshin DVDs that i purchased from her/him on ebay.
I am not sure which is which still.
Anyway, i should be expecting it in 2-4 working days.
Which makes it appx. Tuesday to Thursday, worst come to worst, Friday.
Hehehehehe
YAY!!
Yaadaa!!

Ok, true to my word, i am making an effort to post.
Maybe next time i will think of an interesting video to put into the next entry.
Till next time! Ciao~

-Sara out!-

Hi everyone!
Ok, todays topic choice:

Fantasy VS Reality



This hit me while i was in the loo reading Archie Comics and Jughead was dreaming about being a Billionaire .
I wondered. There was always this warning phrase of how one should never confuse fantasy with reality.
And does that mean that dreams are not real?
Which makes me wonder, just how real is real and what is real?

Basically, what i am trying to say is that, are dreams real?

I mean, what if one was caught up in a fantasy and never wants to leave or can never leave?
Say, one is in a coma that is inescapable.
Does that fantasy then becomes a reality?
If that is so, arn't dreams the same, it is just that it takes up lesser time then real life only.
What if,
Just what if,
the reality that we live in, is infact a dream.
And that dreams are reality.

The only difference between reality and fantasy is that reality continues like a epic novel, but fantasy is something like a short story book which sometimes is longer and has more parts but sometimes it ends after one episode.

Dreams are no less real.
How many times have we woke up tearing because what we dreamt was too scary?
Just like how many times have we tried to escape form this reality by sleeping it away.

Maybe i am just filled with theories that are worthless,
but then, this is something i have always wondered about.

We barely have control of what happens in both worlds.
We have as much control in reality as we do in dreams.
Sometimes, we can control things, sometimes we cant.

I had a really great dream last night, kinda, for the most part of it it was good.

Dreams are affected by things in reality sometimes, just like how reality is sometimes affected by our dreams.

We dream and react towards complishing those dreams.
We get traumatized and we end up having nightmares in the nights.

Eveything is connect in this world.

So instead of saying that there is a fine line between dreams and reality.
What I want to know is that, is there even a line?
If there is, then do we even know which line is it?
Do we keep dreams out of reality, or
Do we keep reality out of our dreams.

----

ok, end of that discussion, today i had received an email from ratty regarding the rurouni kenshin DVDs that i purchased from her/him on ebay.
I am not sure which is which still.
Anyway, i should be expecting it in 2-4 working days.
Which makes it appx. Tuesday to Thursday, worst come to worst, Friday.
Hehehehehe
YAY!!
Yaadaa!!

Ok, true to my word, i am making an effort to post.
Maybe next time i will think of an interesting video to put into the next entry.
Till next time! Ciao~

-Sara out!-

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i got a mac!! mac bk pro.
so happy, a new com in ... 4 to 5 years.
my desktop is dying plus i need, so i am happy!
i am going to blog more often, due to the lack of stuff to do and cos i love my mac!!!

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hahaha
ok anyway, i just dropped my razr mouse into the water, OMG, i hope it is fine though, shall leave it to dry. It was not plugged in soo.. * fingers crossed *
I learnt how to use a new thing, my imovie. hahahaha...
yea!

hmmm, as for the rest of the stuff, nth is happening in life. same old same old. happy sad, angry at peace.

oh, i have been watching Anime and i got the season 3 of LnC from Singapore today!! so happy.
I ordered a Rurouni kenshin Dvd set from ebay so hopefully it will arrive.
yupyup.

as for other stuff, i am just bored out of my mind so here i am.

Dear pals, please call me if u have anything u wanna say AT ALL. Or if u too are bored. We can always chat and have fun!

Well, thats about it for now. Cya soon.
And i mean it. haha, time for a blog revamp.
Shall do it soon. i am thinking, white and orange.. or... smth else.. see how. yupyup, ciao!

As fate has it, it'd be in a lan studio where i will post my first entry in months.

Haha, wanted to play o2 jam, but luck would say "as ta la visa~!" if it could speak.
2 coms i used and bth lack songs, thre were only 3 songs in teh whole system, which were at levels that i cant play. thus, viola, i end up blogging.
The same thing happened at home too, one moment the whole o2 just failed on me.
ahwell, fated not to play the game.

Blog blog blog,
well, tmr i am going to watch She's the Man with candice and jon at lido,
Then going for driving lessons
Then, going to help yuying with the fliming.

Shall not release details about that yet.

Should be quite fun.
Afterall, anything beats mom and pop shouting all day at home non stop.
One is saying "you never learn to change"
The other one is implying "you never learn to change!"

basically, being the bystander, BOTH had never learnt to change.
Thus bth are at fault
And bth are so thick headed words cant get through

My prayer - LORD! Send me a Pretender (just like the one from the show The Pretender) to help me stop this home war _ (lost count)!
I need a genius who can help make BOTH of them understand.
thank you!
Oh, and i wish for world peace too!

---

But seriously,
i am getting fustrated.
Anyway, peace shall be restored on saturday when my bro and dad go to KL.
Yea!

Which brings me to the trip to KL that i made with my dad last monday.

It was so superb.
At any moment you can die.
You know?
Car flips, or skids, whichever.
The point is that we were going so fast it was amazing!
We went there in teh morning, got home at night.

We also went to the sempang track to drive.
OMG!
Scared the heck out of me.
i was being thrown around! non stop!
We were going so fast that the car skid, and then the anti skiding device locked in and we were safe.
But it was so fun to sit the lambo.
I sat in the car till i had a backache.
And i could notfall asleep even when my eyes were trying to close.
so fun!
Exciting!
Dangeruous.



wahahahha

well, gtg
ciao pals!
Or whoever actually reads this
take care ya'll

Hey, just a quick post at 3.08am in the morning.
I just checked out the stuff on LnC Message board and it just reminds me time and time again why i love being a Friend of Lois and Clark.
Such nice people there, such great pals i've made, such a great people(excluding the occassional freaky fans).
Overall, i feel happy being a FoLC.
Well then, that's all to this post. Ciao and take care my dear pals.

-Sara signing out-

It has been such a loooooong time since i updated. Wahaha..

Well, first up, i've got 6 tix to the 20th May concert - 5566 will be there. Held by Best World Products.
Sharon, Vannessa, Yuying, Me and maybe candice (have yet to ask her) would be going.

As for other stuff. On a even lighter note..

My mom's beauty spa just opened at the beginning of the month. Now i have to help her out with stuff etc etc. But these past few days i have not been in the store, soooo...yup, better get my ass back to work.

I just watched finish ZJZD - top of fobbiden city. NICE! The dancing rox!

As for other stuff.. well, nth much is really going on, been going out with gong quite often the past few days and with sharon of course. hahaha, what is one without the other.

Oh! I went to K BOX with candice that day, we sang chinese songs for like 5and a half hours!!!!!!!!
SO SHIOK!
Even had buffet there, sushi and other stuff as well. rock man!

Well, i am going to learn to play a simple plan song now. c'yall around!

Someone help me sleep early!

As in, not in the morning (which is what i am doing now, slept at 6+am yesterday) but rather when it is still night!
ahhhh... sigh... life is so... i dont know... empty right now.

Nothing to do

Nothing to look forward to

No motivation for anything

Aimless

One Big Question Mark.

?

Well, on saturday I am going to be meeting the fans of Joe Cheng Yuan Chang (actor from the show er zhuo ju zhi wen (it started with a kiss)) then we are going to flim a video saying happy birthday and sending our well wishes to the guy etc etc. They are getting fans from all over the world to do it. Europe, Canada, America, Asia etc.

Wanna know the funny thing? I just think that that guy is interesting, i am not even like a big fan of the guy.
So you wonder why i am going?
BOREDOM.
Simple as A B C. Repeat afterme (see, i am so kind to give you smth to do)
Say
A
B
C
there you go!

Well then, i have no idea what to do now.

I have been sitting from midnight till now doing nothing having no idea what to do.
Time now, 4.20am.
Watched finished the show i bought yesterday.

I want to get the Simple Plan Live in HardRock Cafe - MegaFan pack edition DVD.
Consist their songs sang live and a video of their live performances. Plus a color book and some patch and some other things.

Ladeeda.. can someone talk to me?
SOMEONE TALK TO ME ON MSN! PLEEEEEEEASEEEE??

awell, that is if you have the time.
Everyone is busy these days.
Oh, i even wrote a song just now.
As in the lyrics.
Wanted to put some guitar chords to it but since i have zero music talent i could not come up with anything nice.
Besides, i cant sing, so then it would be pointless trying to sing the song to see whether it sounds nice if i cant sing right? ladeedum ladeeda. haha o well.

Take care my friends!

Oh, and a GOOD MORNING TO ya'll!

heyall!

Yesterday was totally fun!
Well, not really, but it was pretty fun.

Woke up, went with Nick and Kevin to American Club, played pool, table tennis, ate pizza, bowled (i learned how to bowl! lol) and then drank choco milkshake! It was great! Oh, and but before buying the milkshake, we went to the squash courts. There, we saw this good looking guy, actually, he was above average but not say very good looking or anything like that. Did i mention he is caucasian? haha, the guy was probably 6 feet 2 or smth like that, he played a warm up round with Kevin and Kevin was up to his shoulder only. The guy's body was really nicely shaped. haha, totally hot guy! Tall, and handsome. Oh and friendly!
Nick and i were sitting down and he asked us whether we had a lighter or a sissors (he wanted to take the pricetag off his new sports shoes) he told us he got it from isetan for 50+bucks.. "ok la, not bad" <-- that was what he said in reference to the price. he spoke in a Singlish tone ^^! o.O!
I think he must have stayed in Singapore for quite some time already. His accent was fluctuating.
Anyway, the squash courts was the best thing of the afternoon.

at night..

Went with my mom to BRIX club at Hyatt. The band there totally rocked!!!!! OMG! They were great! they were so cool and funny! and their singing was good too.

The band name - absence of colors (so cool)

Artistes they sang their songs from - Boyz II Men, Craig David, Nelly, Ciara, Eric Clapton, Usher etc. etc.

Who they are - A group consisting of approx. 7 african americans. (that is why i think their band name is cool) .

I highly recommend people to go there. But they are only in Singapore for 3 mths before they leave for another country. so sad..

ok, TODAY.

went to parkway, bought 'sad love story' vcd and Eminem's curtain call. nice.).
Then yuying and sharon came by to pass me my vcds that sharon borrowed.
Yuying drove her mazda here, so cool man! haha, then she also let me drive the car. NICE!! we drove the car opened top. wahahahhaa. After that they stayed awhile longer to watch final destination and ate ice cream. ^^ after that they went home and i went to bathe and here i am blogging. bored. listening to Eminem. going to watch show soon, maybe.

Something i thought about today :

What is the meaing of our existence.

Plants gives life to us by providing oxygen.
Animals are a source of food for humans and they help control the plant growth etc.
What do we do?
We help one another that is true.
But do we provide something neccessary to other species?
Do we really?
If not, then what is the value of existence?
to live just to live?
is it/
is that it?
maybe
i hope not.
someone tell me.
thanks.

-sara out-

heyall~!!!!!!!

ok, well, lets see.

current state - bored and feel like puking
reason - bored cos i am bored. feel like puking cos i must have at least seen 100 GIRLS profile and so many of them of girls with braces. I feel like a gay pervert.
Reason behind action - helping 2 people find 'Time' the girl with no name and shall thus remained nicknamed time.

Well, today i bought a Jay Chow DVD, contains 13 of his MVs and a 20+min highlight of his Hong Kong concert. I do not like Jay Chow, but neither do i hate him.
Positive -He can produce nice songs and he can sing.
Negative - He mumbles(drives me nuts) and he is not goodlooking (average looking)

I also bought Final Destination 1 vcd. ^^

I am contemplating whether to buy an ipod vid. But it is expensive and i am almost broke.
I want to go overseas to study. Melbourne. Monash Uni. If i go i would end up in Clayton Campus (i think that is what the lady said)

Ok, my timetable till i go overseas. (or if i go)

TIMETABLE

Help my mom start up her shop and her her at the shop.
Then apply to teach at KC or KCP.
Complete and obtain driving license before going overseas.
STAY HAPPY!

ok, end of post.

I for one cant understand how anyone can make a timetable of their life.
Its not really possible. Cos if that is teh case then we would be predicting the future right?

Well, night all and ciao!!!!! take care my dear butties!

Why is the world filled with so much rubbish?
BolaBola or however it is 'spose to be spelt.
It means rubbish right? Utter trash.
Useless.
Hopeless.
I just want to throw myself into a hole right now and just forget.
Forget about what life is
Forget what i am being reminded everyday
Forget the worries
Forget it all
Just stay in a dream
Leave the world for the strong and rubbish filled people to hold it up.
Afterall, if you are not filled with rubbish, you probably would not be alive.
Forget what i just said. All rubbish.

Why?
Why cant life just be perfect?
Worries free?
Happy.
I feel like crying.
I just want to scream and run away.
Just hide.
I dont mind hiding my head in a hole like an animal with my body sticking out. As long as i dont have to face the world face the pain.
Sounds over dramatic right?
Maybe that is what life is, a big huge drama.

I want things to be simple.
To eat, to feel, to live, and then be happy.
To just be happy.
Maybe it is too much to ask for.
We all want to be happy.
We can't.

Right.
One thing right.
At the very least.

Might as well stab me.
At least when i am dead the pain will dissapear.
At least i hope.

So many people have lost their direction as to what is right to do and what is wrong.
Well, there is no right or wrong, just whether we hurt people in the process.
I dont know.

The only reason i am writing in here is cos i have no one to talk to right now.
I just want to write everything. But i cant.
I might not even finish what i write if i write.

Who cares whether things are broken.
As in the pieces can still fit together.
But to miss one piece,
that is..
i dont know what it is!
i dont know!!
I DONT!
i freaking dont know what i am trying to say.
The pieces are all broken, they still fit, they dont fit, they what the f**k man!

3 things that i pray for all the time.
3 same things i wish for all the time.
3 things that i consider most important in life.

Happiness
Love
Good Health

It can all be summarised into what i think is most important. Happiness.
As long as the people around us are happy we tend to end up feeling happy too.
As long as everything is ok, thats fine.

H.A.P.P.I.N.E.S.S

Not just happiness for myself.
But happiness for everyone.
How can anyone feel happy if there are people around you who are sad?
Is it even possible?

I just want to hide.
To forget.
I DONT KNOW ANYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

h . i . d . e . . . . . . . . . . .....
in a hole of happines only.. dreaming.. maybe that is why i look forward to sleep everytime. At least the happiness felt in dreams may feel real for that moment even if i have to wake up at the end of it

Everytime i blog i am forced to realise how futile my day has been.
So when my friend asked why i dont blog so often, this is the reply.

Ok, what mth is it...march..
the month for closure and new beginnings
A chance to start a new and realise that what the hell is going on around here.

I think this month is the month for dreams
to think
to sleep
to free

Ok, went to the cruise over the weekend.
Was quite fun. I learnt a new game - bridge.
The trip was interesting, alot of stuff happening.
But, one thing that i regret is that i did not take the time.
I regret not spending time just staring at the stars, and enjoying the wind. I think the best part of the cruise is to be able to feel free. To feel like there are no boundaries.
I like to stare at the sky, look at the stars, enjoy the wind.
But i totally forgot this time, nvm, at least i had fun.

A note to mr. myles : u should really watch ur drinking or u might end up getting addicted to it.

Oh, one interesting thing happened today, donn and kevin suddenly went chasing after time. Do you feel lost? Well i did at first until i found out 'Time' was a girl. haha, a girl who always asked for the time. But unfortunately, we ran out of time to find out who time is. So they are now searching friendster for that girl. Goodluck!

Candice is watching Full House, i personally dont really fancy rain but this is just my opinion.
Nicholas is watch It Started With A Kiss, it is a nice show. Funny and interesting.
Yuying just got back from Ubin after taking so much nice picts. goodjob!
JeyJey is in Aussie looking for mail order brides so till he comes back with one i am left without a crapping partner. note to jeyjey: season 4 and 5 is the last season of viva la bam!! T_T oh and ashley, take pictures of any hot guys on the campus there!

As for me, i may go to melbourne to study.
I will try to apply for NTU ADM and then for Parsons, they sent me a email saying that application is not closed yet. So i am going to give it a shot for fun. You never know till u try. Dont want to regret.

well, thats about it, take care my dear fools!

A level results will be out on 1st of march and i am as scared as ever. Nightmares, my imgaination running wild plus the fear of it all is starting to get to me.
I wonder if life is just this big crazy journey that brings you happiness so that it can take it away for you to feel sadness only to give it back to you so that you know at the very least, you have a heart and the life to even feel.

This post is going to be very personal, i am going to write about what i feel and how i feel each day. So if you dont want to know, i'd advise you to stop reading the rest of the post.

Loneliness.

A single word.

It kinda speaks for itself. Something that everyone feels at least in one point of time in their life.
I feel it. I feel it right now, every single minute when i start to think. That is why id rather occupy myself.
I think i am crazy. Or at least partially.
I have no idea who i am, as in who i really am. I am aimless.
I have no thoughts of the future, i am stuck in the past. That the best thing, the past is gone now. Sometimes i wonder if it was all just a dream. A happy one. When i close my eyes to remmeber the past, to remember what it felt like to have people around me, i feel happy. But the instant my eyes opens up, i see a wall that does not want to move.
I keep telling myself, leave the past get on with life. I mean, whats to say that i cant have both?

One way that i end up dealing with the loneliness and fear is to talk to myself. To convince myself, i end up arguing with myself. So much so that i get so angry that i just want to stop thinking all together and forget.
Why do i like to watch shows?
Not course they are just interesting but so that i can imagine them to be real, feel what the characters are feeling and to forget who i am.
It keeps my company.
I'd rather imagine than to realise how much i hate myself at times.
I am a bunch of contradictions.
I am crazy to say the least.

Do you know something?
At night, when my dad goes out, i would enjoy myself, but then the fear would start to settle in. My eyes would keep checking the time every 15 minutes, anticipating him coming home. But before he does, i would make sure my door is locked so stop him from coming in. Anutie fe is asleep on the floor, the lights are off cept for my nightlight.
And then when i hear my dad's footsteps outside near my room, i would be absolutely silent. I would go onto the bed and sit, my knees to my chest. And just pull the blanket over my head, off my bedside light and just wait. Wait for him to fall asleep. Sometimes i dare not even breathe.
You know how that feels?
Maybe you do.
The fear.
The loneliness.
The funny thing is that, get this, he cannot see through the door and would not be able to hear me breathing so why am i so afraid?
My maid is in the room so how can i feel lonely?
Questions and answers. Isn't that just the fun part of life.
I am afraid of my dad cos he comes back drunk. He will not hit us or anything, but he is like a timebomb.
Everytime i am with him, i end up having to be so careful of what i say.
I must make sure
no. 1) it is positive
2) that no matter how he sees it it is a good thing
3) i have to think and then pick out any errors in what i am about to say
4) make sure it is relevant no rubbish
5) no rude words
6) understand my dad and think like he does to know what he would reply and feel like.

It is tiring.

Like playing this game.
I love my dad, but sometimes it is just so tiring that i want to say that i give up talking to him.
Even the songs that we hear must be stuff that he likes, or else we will get a scolding.
When he is in a bad mood i make sure the music in the car is soothing so as not to make him angry.
Even the surrounding has to be right or else he will blow up easily.
tired.
but my dad is a lonely guy cos of this.

I have this habit of copying others.
Not get the stuff that they get but more like, act like the way they act.
Sometimes i try to get into the mind of a kid, i pretend to eat like them.
Getting food all over my mouth while eating cos afterall, babies cant eat all that well and properly.
I do that cos it is fun, nice to know that i can pretend to be a kid again, and u know what? eating that way makes the food taste sweeter somehow.
You should try it.
P.S: dont try it if u are hungry cos babies eat real slow and in very very small spoons.
It took my half an hour to eat a bowl of porridge that way. fun though! haha

I like to pick the interesting points that they have, for instance the way they speak. i would then speak that way after finding the basic pathern. of course i cant *be* them, i just *try* to.
I copy the way they walk to see why they walk that way.
I see them eat some stuff and then i will end up wanting to eat it too and finally when i eat it, i try to eat it the way they did. haha, crazy right?
but it is all a big game to me.
keep me busy.

One thing that i remember from being a toddler was that i loved the feel of the net against my skin in the playpen. i would stick my face in it then stick my tongue out (gross i know) or i would just push my hand against the net.
i can just imagine the smell now, smell of safety ( and the stinky net ^^)

btw, one more weird thing i did last time, i saw a dog drinking water from a bowl on tv and i tried doing that, i poured water in a bowl then drank it. got my face partially wet, but the experince was really entertaining. the view of the water so close made it really relaxing. and kinda fustrating cos it takes forever to drink and i end up being so thirsty at the end of it all. haha

Well, that is just what i do to keep myself company.
that's just plain old weird me.
but i guess you probably do it to. i'd like to know that i am not the only one. haha
btw, even when i am working at the jewellery store, i pretend that i am working at coffee bean or smth, then make drinks the way i see it. it is so fun!! go try it. the spoon and all. hahahaha.

Now all i have to do is choose what i really want to study.
Businees or Visual Arts related stuff?

Oh one more thing, dont you like the feeling of not being alone, the warmth you feel and the happiness. hope? to be able to trust someone with urself so fully. would be great.
Well i would imagine that it would be that way.
But the thing about imagining it, at the end of the day you cant touch it. it is not real, it is like a temporary sedative. That is why i like to fall asleep. Dreams would be more real that way. I can close my eyes and just imagine what i want. Of course when i really sleep i cant control my thoughts anymore, but giving the jumpstart for the thoughts is good enough.

p.s.: just me typing like u are there talking to you even refering to you though i have no idea who you are is nuts in my opinion. but being nuts makes me human cos we akk are. lol.

well then, writing in this blog made me feel a whole lot better, at least i know that i am not alone.
nighty night peeps! and sweetest dreams!

Entrace from overseas college application ended on feb 1st.
what date is it today? Feb 12th
have i even applied yet? N-O!
am i screwed you ask? Y-E-S!

I am aimless.
Simple as that.
i am as confused as ever, i hate making a decision that i would have to live with for the rest of my life.
I know that we have to live with every decision we make, but the point is that, this is big!
Actually, it is only as big as we want it to be.
But still!!
I can't decide.
Do arts, or do business.
Choose safe--- leading to -----> somewhat happiness,
or,
Choose happy--- leading to ------> uncertainty?

Choices choices choices, why? and why not..

i have to go eat dinner, bbl.

To the rare 1/4,

Hey all!!

I had managed to watch my very first football match. Mind you, football, not soccer.

Ok, to soccer fans, no offense, the game is nice and all, i like the parts where goals are scored or almost goals are scored. Those are really fun times. I'll even watch a soccer match if i am bored. but... it is a gentleman's game. safe, well, safer.

I have no idea why Singapore is not really on about football but yea. O well.
Ok, i woke up at 10am, turned on the tv and switch to the ESPN channel where the football match started. I was thinking " i probably wont like watching it, hell i am already feeling partial to soccer and football would be boring cos i dun understand the game" hell, till now i still dont. but.. after 10mins, i was hooked.
The quarterback had made such a great pass and the guy had caught the ball beautifully and made a touchdown. SPLENDID!! totally graceful. and it all happened in a matter of seconds. oh my!

Ok, for those who were dead to the world.
It was the SUPERBOWL XL that i was watching. Totally great, it is almost like watching the worldcup. the only diff is that world cup is once in 4 years so the anticipation is higher for that. but.. if the world cup was yearly. The superbowl beats it hands down.

I shall spoilt the results for those who dont know.
But i am sure anyone who is interested in football would have known by now who the winners are. i mean, it *is* the superbowl afterall.
Well, the Pittsburgh Steelers won!!! 21 to 10~!! they totally trashed the other team.

The aftermath of the game was so fun to watch too.
The coach got dunked with drinks and the water from the cooler.
You could see the love for one another the players had.
It was so cool!
The most valuable player for that superbowl season had gotten a brand new 2006 car. Man! It looked beautiful. but i have noide whether it is good or not.
It was black and well, like a van thingy. lol. i have no idea how to describe it.

Too bad they did not show us how the superbowl rings looked like.
I would love to see how one looks like.

I am not sure whether the english are as pumped up about the whole winning thing as the americans are or do they just shake hands(though i am sure they definatly do more than that (i am not being sarcastic))

Anyway, when the guy( i forgot if he was the president of the superbowl or smthing else) anywya, when the guy walked down the field carrying the cup, everyone wanted a feel of it. you can see it in their eyes that it was a glory to even touch that cup. then they went on stage and had words and etc.

Ok, one main reason for liking football more than soccer.
more action.
i wont fall asleep that much.
Sometimes there wont even be a goal in the whole football match.
And i am pretty much sich about how soccer keeps getting so much attention as compared to football.
Sigh.
I am watch soccer so easily, but trying to catch a football match took me forever.
I have been wanting to see a match for months ya'kown?!
Finally got to see one.


Ok, nuff said bout football. haha
down to the dvds.
i have watched finish the pretender!
totally great series! love it!!!
as for viva la bam, it saddens me to say that season 4,5 is their last season! T_T
but bam did a great job of drilling a big hole for a sunroof on his gallardo! lol, and can u believe it? he did not even patch the hole up, it was there till the end of the season. cool stuff though.
Oh, and then there is the fact that bam had a race, his lambo against ryan dunn's limo. lol, dunn had went to add nitro and got his whole car fitted up.
During the race, ryan was actually winning the gallardo until his car engine went up in smoke.
So close yet so far.
Oh, and it was so fun to see Mike Vallely(apparently that is the way his name is spelt, interesting) trashing the bam's hummer.
during the seasons, more cars were trashed.
more houses destroyes.
clothes fed to alligators.
and don vito getting bullied.
they even brought the brazillian jungle to west chester! lol
Oh and rabb himself went searching russia for his wife whom he saw for 1.5hrs before she ran away cos of the way vito treated her. hahahahaha... funny!!

ok, nuff.
3/4 of u probably have no idea what i am saying or what i have said.
so, good night and sweet dreams.

oh, btw, DEAN CAIN ROCKS!! SO DOES LOIS AND CLARK!! LOVE 'EM ALL!

ok, i'l skip the hi's and go straight to the happy new year. well, chinese new year
ok, now that that is done, i will update on recent happenings and discoveries.

i'll be quiting work next week.
the dog is cute but does not know where to shit.

now to the bigger stuff
i got my pretender discs. and i found out that the lois and clark fans are arranging to have an online chat with dean cain.
they already have permission but only the time is not set.
cant wait to see that happen!

as for the pretender.
i love it
and i am loving it even more as the seasons passes
it is so funny and dark and secretive and suspense filled
i cant wait for next season

ok, now down to more interesting stuff
The pretender was founded based on the real life happenings of a man
a man named "Ferdinand Demara Jr., a genius with an eidetic memory, who could master any skill just by reading a book about it."
sounds so cool right?
he is a genius who can really become anyone he wants to be.
he finally got caught at the end cos he did bad stuff with his gift and was hunted down by the police.
but it is cool to know that 'the pretender', though fictional, was seeded by this man who really existed.
It is interesting to know that someone so smart really exists
And i guess he is the superhero without any powers cept for his brain which all of us have.

I guess that is why i love the pretender.
hell, i love any show with guys that have superpowers or extrodinarty gifts and has to hide his identity.
i find it so interesting

thus that is why the english series that i love ended up being those with men who live secret lives and have extrodinary gifts.
lol
LnC, The Pretender
I guess these are the 2 that i really like alot and follow even after so long.
but lnc is definatly first!

well that's all for now!
nite all!
and take care!

Yoyo!

Ok, i shall start to blog.. hmm
wat happened ar? i cant remember anyhooz, i shall blog bout what happened on saturday evening till morning till sunday. lol

Ok, after work i met gong and sharon and they came over to my house! When they came my mom started talking bout my survivor kit etc etc, (if u guys ever bring it up u are soooo dead) then tried on clothes and finally found a set that i like. After that, my mom and dad drove the lamborghini to Ministry of Sound(MOS) and gong, sharon and i took a cab there. We waited and met Jerry. LOL. actually it is my uncle jerry but there i cannot call anyone auntie or uncle or even my mom and dad mom and dad cos they wanna be young. lol, call them irene etc. hahahah nutty ppl. I met my mom's cousin and he is actually quite cute and good looking. which is a big surprise.
Anyway, we got the Sky Lounge stamp at the VIP queue so we all managed to escape the queue.
Oh, i forgot to mention the fact that i met pheobe and terry for the first time ever and we started acting like good pals lol. ok, i brought them to see the place first cos i have been there once before so i roughly know where the rooms are. then we went to the sky lounge. hahahahha

Over there, Ms Baby (Brunei princess) was there chit chatting with my mom. haha, she is a nice lady and definatly what i did NOT expect a princess to be. haha totally cool man!
then, we ordered drinks.
dun tell my dad but i drank half a glass of long island ice tea. ^^ it was not bad, the alcohol taste was not so strong.
Then we ordered graveyard. i took 2 sips and wanted to die, so horrible! apparently it is really strong too. lol, my dad was scolding me about even ordering that drink for my friend, he said that the name is graveyard cos if you take it to will go to the grave fast.
So u guys gotta keep my secret bout me drinking alittle k?
hahaha

Then we went to the RnB room where uncle jerry, ahem, i mean JERRY had a table for 25 ppl there. haha, there was only like 5 of us and it was kinda crowded. We talked to the guy who was standing guard by the table and said that we just wanted to sit for awhile then leave. We asked whether he can continue to hold the table for us and he said that it was hard but he said he could try. which was good enough for us. we sat and listen for some music then went away and told the guy to hold the table for us. damn funny. we felt so important. lol, madness.

anyway, we went walking and then went back to the RnB but when we went back it was totally packed man! they were not letting ppl in. we squeeze and squeeze and then bargain. finally got in. haha. we could not walk around at all!!! so pack! then we squeeze till our table. the place for the table was big so we felt really spacious. everyone sqyeezing all over but they cannot come into our area. haha.
after awhile uncle jerry came and sat with his pals and all, they had came in through the back door. ^^ cool eh? back door. hahahaha

afterwards, we went dancing!!!!!!! omg! so funy man! we went into the wire area which was worst than a sardine can and dance for like 10 mins then went back to the table. Then nice music came on and we started to dance but could not be bothered to go to the wire cos we would have to squeeze so we danced at the table area. we moved the table to the sides and danced. hahaha, terry pheobe, gong sharon, and i danced totally happy. No, i was not high, i did not drink much and the long island did not have an effect of me. I did not even feel warm, cept when we went into the RnB room cos that was a given, so many ppl, bound to feel warm.

We left at 1.30am or smth ard there.
my mom and dad left earlier and went to buy snacks.
sharon, gong and i went back by cab and pheobe and terry came over alittle bit later cos they were queueing for their bags at the bag drop area.
We ate supper and they stayed over for the night.
Sharon had to go home cos her mom was nagging already.
Yuying was totally drunk. well, maybe not, but definately high!! hahahaha
gong is damn cute la. wanna pinch her cheek those type of cute. lol
"gong! see i said u are cute, so shouldn't you treat me to play drums for a day?"

the next morn we woke up and went to PS. Pheobe and tetry had to go to church leaving me and gong to play drums! we played for an hour and then left. gong went home to sleep i went for work. hahaa, playing drums at 10.30 in the morning after sleeping at 4am the previous night. i am totally tired right now.

slept 4 hours that day(MOS night) and last nigth i was watching a korean show till 3am so i slept for like 5 hrs last night. wanna sleep. yawn.

i just watched greenforest. so funny and nice.

Hmm, lnc season 2 out on dvd tmr.

hmm, oh ya, my family got a dog. shih-tzu aka shitzu

hhahah, cute. but i think it will be alittle troublesome.
it should be coming tmr. see how bah.

oh, tmr is catherine's bday (one of the person at the place where i work) and the boss is ordering a stripper for her. hahaha
shall let oyu guys know more about it next day . i think it should be interesting. *snicker*
p.s.: i was the one who found the stripper service place!! so proud! haha, i found in the yellow pages under escorts. lol, the kuram guy has like 2 companies. and bout doing stripping. i shall explain if i remember to next day. too tired. night!
going to eat pineapple tarts that Mirage Hotel, Las Vegas sent over. lol. nice flower looking ones. yum. night
my survivor kit is going to grow bigger!! haha. mad-en-ess