i have just really in dept what the sentence "things are never what they seem to be" i really understand it now. Hmmm, will not elaborate, just you ppl, go think about it.

After days of lacking updates, i feel that it is in due time that i write something in here, and leave my print.

School at CJC started off weird, i mean, i felt weird, had to stick with people whom i never knew (KC ppl) eventhough we did bump into one another in school previously with just a slight wave of a hand or a simple "hi" to end and start the oversation. It never did get far, but with the sudden change of surroundings and enviroment, i felt that change may be good, it bonded us together, but it was like a big mass of groups, st nicks with st nicks, kc with kc, zebras with zebras and leopards with leopards, i am sure you get the idea. - my brain is currently not functioning properly and due to malfunctions forgive me if i have already wrote in here about the first day of school.

Second day was no better, i found out that i got the class that i like, "Good!" don't misinterpret me, i am happy, just that it is really weird to be introduced to a new place, and i guess sometimes, what better way to hide then to be brave. To pretend to act like all is alright and 'cool' eventhough everthing stank and my stomach was in knots, people moving in and out in just one flick of the hand.

Third day was the 'bonding' day, i guess i felt that it worked, that it was really useful, ppl were actually communicating! ok, i apologise for sounding spastic, but still, i mean, think about it, from a group who barely knew one another, much less "bonded" to a group who worked together and gave it their best regardless of the end result. Though tiring, i felt it was worth it, and with the small group that we have, the faster we became friends and started working together. Some ppl felt out i guess, but then again, they did not. Who knew what went on in the sick twisted mind of people.

Due to the continous movement of people in our class in and out, appeals comming through for some, and fell abit low for others, we have so far Bernadette, Livia, Lervina, Candy, Charissa, Daniel, Donavan, David, James, Jeremy, Jonathan. sorry for mispelled names or to those whom i may have forgotten due to my 'dory' like memory that i have been comfortably sliping into to my dismay.

*happy sigh* finally have a day to relax, tomorrow is good saturday! haha, i have officially named it good saturday, cos it is a brillantly great day to sleep in. To regain my much needed stregth and my lack of dreams. The subj. combo Lit Math Econs seem fun, but i wish i could have done a science with it. Might have seemed more fruitful. What is done is done and i have no regrets. Like i wish to believe what i say " once its done its done" you can't do anything about it if you live a life of regret it will make you even more miserable(not sad, sad it too light) and you will be leading a life of regret. That is why i wish i could just do what i say, haha. I LIKE MY COMBi!!!!! i really do. I mean it, i love math, i love lit, and i love econs cos it will be useful in business. Science, was never my fav subject, just that i realise it is a important sub.

Anyways, mother came to fetch me from school today and she talked to the canteen auntie's whilst waiting for me, i told here i will finish at 6pm but it delayed till 6.30. Anyways, my mother say CJC got not good looking tall guys. LoL!!!!!! hahaha, like i care, ok, i mean it matters, alittle eye candy will not hurt, but still...... that is not the reason why you have a school with bth genders. It is to prepare you for the working life. Cos at work regardles of whether it is girl or guy, you still have to work with them. So this helps us to deal with anyone and everyone. ppl of all sorts as some may say.

Anyways, i shall stop ,with my post here, or else everyone will start to get bored with my gramma errors and my long windedness or my lack of sense. haha, ciao!

-dC- aka -SaRa-

Okaaay, back from CJC. And from a tortured day at that 'blue eyed' place. Why 'blue eyed' you may ask? They love blue, so many, i see blue people walking around, i am going mad. Okay, did you know that some people act as though Boys are from outer space, and "no." I am not refering to "men are from mars and women are from venus" sentence. Well, i op-ted for the Lit-Math-Econs combi. wish that i can get it. Cos i love it. Anyways, orientation was ok, fun yet boring, shy yet amusing. Hmm, i think i want to join the Drama club, what are your personal comments?

Does anyone know whether the Zhou Chuan Xiong dubbing cd is nice? Cos i may want to buy it. need feedback please, thanks!
Anyways, i am quite tired and sleepy now, can't think properly. Bye
ooo, and for people who want to know, i updated the LnC section with brillant picts, go check it out folks.

-dC-
==@mBrose==

Its only the beginning of the day here, but i have decided to blog anyways. JC starts tomorrow, so i shall wallow in self pity. O how i will miss the holidays those late nights. long sleep, horrible dreams, and @mBros3 shows. It is not like it would be over just because school start. But, it will not be the same, no more slacking without a care in the world. Even if you were to relax your muscles you still got to think about school work. Needless to say, since i have missed out on the first 3 mths, it would be even more crucial for me to concentrate on studies. Something i am not fond of.

Now back to happy thoughts. Shall freeze this moment in my memory and engrave it in gold. The Kerth chat room is open. Or still open. I missed the awards, but it is a once in a long time thing for me to attend the kerth awards and meet my favourite writers. the best fanfiction writers that i know of. With their brillant plots and the efforts that are put into their stories. All their time and dedication.

Anyways, the people there are lovely, warm and fun to chat with. I mean, it is like one big family.
-gone-
-back-
Well, just got back from lunch. A hot and spicy lunch if i might add. Like i said, tomorrow is the beginning of school and i am starting to freak out. Anyways, i don't know where to go when i reach school, and i dunno anyone there. Shikes. I will envy those people who still have holidays. Tomorrow i got to wake up at 5.30am bathe and etc, (like as though got exam, so early) then leave the house by 6.30 and then be in school by 7.30. Well, hope all works out okay, cos i am sure it will be boring. What time will it end? I may want to go with candice to appeal for fun.
got to go and bathe. bye!

-dC-
==@mBros3==
:-=-: ra :-=-:

I am watching Lavender again, i just love that show, i guess the more you watch it the nicer it becomes? Hmmmm, why o why are some so lucky and some not.

Well, this is a short post. I collected my retainer, and it is transparent and i only wear it at night. I also got posted to CJC. I am ok with it, but my mother is not, she even thinks that i purposely put CJC as my first choice, i told her no. I mean, come on, i did what she said AJC in first ACJC as second, 3rd i put CJC la. (cut away part)

Shh, dun anyone say anything. I mean it. Wait i think i better edit this post, i do not trust anyone.
If someone know that i am making use of someone else just for my benifit, they might go to that person and tell him/her. So i shall keep it quiet. See, it is great to make use of a person, as long as you know that it is not wrong. Haha, cos it aint, not your fault they trust you. Besides, that person is someone i hate but am not allow to hate due to blood relation. So, what better way to use a person then to use them without them knowing. Life is great. And sweet. Like my cousin wrote in her blog, Blood is not exactly thicker than water. So i am telling my cousin, i know that. Cos you see, if blood was so thick, i would not even make use of that person without feeling guilty. So that is the way the river flows. =)

Hmmmm, i just realise what a dog eat dog world it is out there, so do not always underestimate me just like that person.(the one i am making use of) I am not that dumb, if anyone is dumb or blind, it is you(refering that person). Cos sometimes, thinking you are so great or that you are brillant and flawless, means that you made a big mistake to look at yourself in such a high level. No one is perfect. To be perfect you got to be a insane. And when you are insane, you are not perfect. Besides, who is there to decided what is perfect, each has their own expectations.

I know that maybe i should not over analyse things, but it beats believing all the time. Acting dumb beats being dumb. Acting dumb beats acting smart and geting proved that you are dumb. So to all the Xiao Mei Mei and Di Di. Trust no one. Sometimes, not even yourself. When you finally trust, make sure you are sure.

I sound like a sociopath rite? Not a psychopath. Hmmm, actually, you need not be that bad to be a sociopath you just need to know what is right and what is wrong and not care and don't bother, that would make you are sociopath.
dun mind my spelling errors.

I also added a comment section. So please comment. p.s.:not the tag board

-dC-
==@mBros3==
:-=-: ra :-=-:

At 2am, with Days of Our Lives airing on Channel 5, here i am sitting in my room, all alone, tired of watching Lavender 6 times or maybe more. Lost count of it already. My mind is blank. Ok, not so blank. But still, with all these weird emotions flooding through me like an open dam, i really feel numb and thus blank.

Current emotions. Scared due to the show incredible tales that was on tv 3 days ago. Sad cos of the Lavender show. Pain cos my fingers hurt from playing the guitar. Happy cos tml i will noe which school i will go, yet not that happy cos i am afraid i will end up in a JC that i dun want. Awake cos of the late nights those past few times so i can't sleep now. Sleepy due to the lack of sleep. Tired cos my mind is blank and i have to think abt what to write in here..... Heehee.

Ok, now the only thing working in my mind is all those lovey dovey stuff. B4 anyone jumps to conclusions. NO! I AM NOT IN LOVE OR WHAT SO EVER, Just that i wanna think of smth not so tiring or not so upseting. =) I mean, come on, the good part abt love is that it is great. The bad part is that it hurts. O well, but what thing in life does not have a bad part to it? Rhetorical question.

*sigh* Lala, i wanna listen to Ambrose latest cd, nicer then the first one, the lavender OST songs are good. Sandra bullock is so cool! I mean, the show miss congeniality(sp?) is great! I wanna watch it again. I have the sudden urge to drawn a picture of the comic version of Leo.( character frm Lavender) Hmm, should i? Not sure.

Just rambling in here as a way out of boredom, maybe i should draw myself to sleep and then grab the much needed shut eye and try to set my sleeping schedeuls back to normal, or whatever normal used to be for me.

Done! I just drew finish an ugly picture of LEo and i am sleepy but the worst timing is that LnC is on Channel 5 now. WHY?~! WHY now out of all times, when i am so tired. HAha, nice ep oso. Shit! Arh, shall stay up then.

-dC-

Sigh, I have watched Lavender a grand total or 4 times so far. I shall see whether it can beat A.D.B in the amt of times i watch. Haha, anyways, i am quite sure this interest no one, so i shall skip on to what happened in my day. F.Y.I - The show is nicer to watch the second time round, not so sad, so wun have such a heavy heart. HAha

Okies, i took out my braces!!!! And they fixed a retainer. EcKs! But that one is for the bottom jaw only. They Glued a piece of wire to the inside of my teeth, i still have to go back on Sat to get the retainer for the top, so i guess you can't see it.(for the bottom)

Hmm, might go and cut my hair tml, to shoulder length, and i am gonna dye my hair back to black, school starts on MONDAY! YES! MONDAY! *Jaw drops!!* @_@ How?! My aunt is lending me another Ambrose show, haha, he is a Hip Hop dancer in this one. The plot not that nice, but the dancing is good <---- or so my aunt says. I shall be the one to grade it. LoL. (Btw dC rocks better! I mean, such a smart person and cute and tall and dark and all. Cept too old. Shit!) My aunt and mum wants me to Rebond my hair again! i told them no and put my foot down. This time round.

Erm, i am wondering, can we wear anytype of shoes to school? How about socks? What time school starts? Man! I have so many qn that remains unanswered. I get tongue-tied/Finger-tied when i want to ask the qn, thus resulting in me having this dilema. YucK! Smallville advert is on now. Shit, what rubbish. Lana and Clark are not soulmates. To make it clear, Lois should be there instead. On second thought, lucky Lois is not there, who would want a Clark like that, horrible i tell ya. Lucky for Lois. Heng.
............Trip down memory lane...................
Haha, 'HENG HENG"<-- inside joke, ppl who went to the Heng Heng Cruise Dinner Invitation only will noe what i mean. It was terrible. Everyone shouting "Heng! Heng!"X4 very irritating and funny.
.......................present................................
Hmm, i think i will watch Lavender agian, since i like charmaine is suffering from isonomia(sp?). Ciao all. Shall let you noe more abt my daily uninteresting, weird, yet totally normal, boring, not so informative, highly rotting life. Man, where's my soul mate!? (Nvm, i can wait, at least got smth to live for.)

Ciao!
-dC-

Who wants to know what Lavender is about. I am bored. The show is better, in a certain sense, then At Dolphin bay. Hmmm, but nth much, i see finish my heart like very heavy, hard to breathe, cos so sad. Cannot tahan. Sesh, DOLPHIN BAY is better. I will not go into details. I might fall asleep.

Ok, now, for my life. Hmmm, i listened to the Lavender song (the ones that Abrose sang) before sleeping. So hard to sleep. i tell you, can die man, the show is too sad for its own good, plus the cd is sorta spoilt so i have to go and exchange it, cos they sold be a set of spoilt VCDs, go figure, i have such "good" luck. Haha, but i enjoyed the show.

Erm, i think i dreamt but i cannot seem to get a hold on what my dream was. It is fustrating. None the less, better than having a scary dream, so i shall not complain. Haha, i just hate it when i know something is at the tip of my tongue but i just can't get a grip of it. Sigh. Some horrible noise woke me up. Sounded like my insane brother blowing his duno-what-you-call-it. Haha, but it was not, someone upstairs was busy moving stuff and the screeching noise was unbearable.

I am going to bath now, it is 5pm and i have not bath. Bleah. Can die, must go and bath NOW. bye!
-dC-

Ok, i am now back at home, in the saftey of my room. however, security has breach, my brother and my maid were here, watching a chinese show. Argh!!!! ok, shall cool down. *take deep breaths* Hmm, now that i am all calmed down, i am racking my brains on where to go, how if i can't even make it into JC cos of my bad judgemental moves? Shit! Hope it does not happen and i do get into a JC.

I went to Take with my mother today, it was tiring. We went to Armarni Xchange and then went for lunch, did not manage to do much after that, went to Coldstorage and time flew by us, it was already 6 before i knew it. I bought the TeenPeople magazine from Kino. Hmmm, could not find the Bliss mag, apparently the issue is not in yet. O well, can't wait for next mths cosmo and Bliss mag. Cute little mags with a hell lot of information, much more than those normal mags eg. Lime, Teens, Teenage etc. I guess, they say the small ones pack a hell of a punch. I mean, Dynamites comes in small packages. Haha

I bought the Lavender CD! Finally, can't wait to watch it. Ambrose is in it. In case you guys did not know. WooHoo!

Going to watch it now, Ciao
-dC-

I just read my friends blog and i kinda realise, that long ramblings are boring, i prefer them in more paragraphs. Not cos it looks longer or what, but, just more organise. So i shall practice that from now on.

Ok, now, lets see. Hmmm, it need not be new year to make a revolution. Agree? Well for this year. I will study harder(like i say all the time and never fufill) Man my internet connection is laggy. I can chat to a person without realising they already went offline. Wasted my energy.

Just went to Freddy's erm Froggy's blog. LoL. I find all those music irritating. Use to love them, but now, bleah. Noisy. All those noise. Hurts my ear drums. OuChiE. Now, my cousin apparently recommends butterfly effect all who reads her journal. Maybe i *should* check it out. I think i will, if i am free. Anyone one to watch with me?

I read that Butterfly effect is getting like, 3 stars out of 5. Hmm, and Out of Time got higher! At least in First mag. I mean, OoT got 3.5 stars. Haha, not much of an improvement eh?

I failed to talk about my day with candice and sitting through that awful show Something's Gotta Give. I honestly do not recommend it unless you are stuck at home and have nth better to do and would not mind watching 2 old people making out or a younger hunk (Keanu) and Diane Keaton(i think) making out. O boy. I smell disaster. O well. Hmm, Dc was fighting with KR for that role on Something's gotta give. Hmm, i was dun like that show, leaves a weird taste in my mouth, it was like entering a cinema with a buch of ppl who were high on hormones watching a NC16 show( though it was PG13). Or seeing a bunch of elderly people making out like high school student. NO no. A big NONO.

Bleah. Ok, so now i am thinking of getting a bigger hard drive, so i can store my lnc show. Or else i really have no place. sigh, but how much will it cost?!?~! I need to know how much. And if i were to insert a new hard drive, do i have to go and what's-that-word reboot? No, erm, something like wiping your computer. Fragment smth? Erm, no. My brain been dying durin the last few days.

Well, someone tell me what to do with my brain. Shall go see whether there are new fan fics updated in the archive. C'ya. My dad may be home soon and thus i may hav to sleep soon too.
-dC-

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Oh MY god OH MY GOD! I just won smth. A 20 dollars FnB and Mercandise for Hardrock Cafe. for writing a letter to mediacorp about your fav show or what you like or dislike. Etc, man!!!!! I was really sappy. Shit, i tot i would not win, i did and i am really embaressed. Shit! Ahhh!!!! ok, click this link to see it.
*-runs away before anyone can reads it-*
-dC-

Hello, just did my blog, i am sure you can tell. Well, i may have found a new way to download LnC eps, without the q and all, but it is still in the testing period. Haha, hmm, went through alot of trouble, i hope that it was not for no use. Anyways, last night had a weird dream. A weird weird one. Ah gong was being chased by a witch and the grp were helping her out. Haha, cept Pj. PJ was not in the grp. Dunnoe why. Anyhoz, candice stopped working at that horrendous place. -i'm glad she did.- cos from the sound of the place, it really did not sound like a good place. What nut will pay you only at the end of the month, even after you quit already. Usually is you quit or get fired and get paid on the spot. O whatever. I shall update later. Been experiencing mild cramps so i could not accomplish much today, suppose to download songs, but never got to doing so. I have to go and buy dinner soon.
My mum was suppose to bring me out, but could not, she decided to sleep the whole day, even now (7pm) she is still sleeping. I played the guitar a few times today, was bored you see, had a grp chat yada yada yada. Gtg, my bro is finishing his class soon and i got to go to parkway with auntie fe to buy stuff oso. Ciao for now.
-dC-

YozA, ok, did anyone every wonder the significance of a dream. What were the hidden meanings, or why they keep repeating, or how come sometimes it is just beyond our control. YuP, i wonder about that, alot. Especially the past few days. Dreamt about death. Ok, along with the death part, there is this like, short, 5 minutes scene of something dirty. Do't ask me, i am embarrassed about it as well. I mean, how can i. Hmm, the worst part is that it is not about DC or any one i can remember for that matter. I shall skip the details and go onto my day. Today is.....well.....weird..... i did something i cannot believe i actually did.
I made a smallville fanart. There, i said it! I made a smallville fanart. I am not a fan to begin with. I am a...a.....whats the word, i forgot. I HATE that show, to say the least. So i shall stop there.
Watched LnC episodes and fell in love with the show all over again. I mean, it is a classic, i love that show! It is one of the best. It is a timeless story. As someone said before, "That is what makes your story so timeless, why people never tire of hearing it. Not stupid. Blind, especially by that one great love that blinds us all." H.G Wells to Lois in Tempus Fugitive. That was the reply she got when she ask him whether she was galactically stupid to not realise Clark=Superman. I guess, some of us only wish to be that blinded by love. If you can find that great love, that would be such a blessing, but i know that it is only to those few luck blessed people out of so many others that finds their soul mate.
Well, shall leave my print here, and leave. Got to go and chill and dream about.... "love" ,man, that is a nice word of thinking of DC etc will be good too. Hmm, hope no more death dreams, love dreams would be good for a change.gtg ciao-left-
-return 5 mins later cos forgot to add smth-Did I mention, that i found another good show on Channel 5? It is caleld John Doe. So appropriate. (tempus=John Doe in LnC) But this show is diff, about an person who has amesia, some what like The Pretender. Ya, something like that, smart person, person searching for family, for identity. O well, T.P(the pretender) is still better cos got the helping the weak and innocent ppl part. Haha, i am a sucker for sentimental and love and power(ppl with power, mental or physical) show. U noe what i mean? Esp, those soul mates show. Hmmm, did i ever say that Days or Our Lives is also quite an interesting show? The guy Alec(actor's name, not screen name) in there, you see, he acts in Dark Angel. Go figure, but i never made the connection till i was looking up the profiles of Dark Angel Cast. Ok gtg. For real this time, ciao!
-dC-

this post is continued from the below one. Ok, sigh, the below content if best read with parental permission. For people who do not like ramblings without ends and beep words then the following dialogue is not for you to read.

FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! I HATE FOX NETWORK! they cancelled the Dark Angel show to produce a show called what?! Firefly. An insect. Shesh! They are suffering right now and so am i. They decided to cancel the show cos they had not enough $$ to make 2 sci fi show that needed alot of Money for effects and all. But then the Firefly show was a flunk. It did not pan out. Their gamble cost them money and TiME! AND A BLOODY good show. The worst part was, yesterday's ep was the one that got me totally hooked. I only watched it today cos i taped it. And ARGHH!!!!!! HOW CAN THEY!!!!! shit. Somemore it is a cliff hanger. If it was'nt it would be slightly better. BUT HORRIBLY EXRUCIATING none the less. SHIT!!! FUCK!!!!! BLOODY BASTARDS! I HATE FOX I HATE TNT I HATE TBS. They make so shitty mistakes. I dun hate TNT that much, LnC was losing viewers so i guess it was ok, afterall, it was not that big a cliff hanger. But TBS CANCELLED THEIR TOP show in the USA - ripley's believe it or not! SHIT! I like that show also. But maybe the silver lining is that DC might work on more movies and shows to pay his bill. But there is no silver lining for Dark Angel. SHIT! FUCK! how can they!!?~?!?~! ArgH!!!!!! NO WAY MAN!

Ok that rambling is over. And i am pissed. gonna do some fanart work with Photoshop to work my anger off. Best time to do art. Got emotions. BYE~! @.@
(!=.=)
whAAAaaaYYYYYYYY?~!? WHYYYYYaaaAYYYY??! -.-
-dC- <3

Boreed. Fiona is on the phone with me now. So long never talk.
You know, she is one of my longest friends in secondary schoo, along with candice and rachel r.. Eventhough i am not as close to rachel r. anymore. Yesterday, ahgong helped me alot by telling me about the US/Canada system of marking and etc, like about the SAT and all, and about what GPA means. I hope i can go to the USA to study, i know it is not that great a place, but it is not my fault that i like that place so much. People say that UK and Assuie is better, but i find that when you say Aussie, it sounds tame, and just, peaceful. UK sounds fun but, just not that exciting as well. OK, my monitor is not working properly, it is blowing hot and cold on me, shall make this quick and end soon before my screen blacks out. Sigh, just need feedback on which is a better place. UK sounds great but you need the $$ no matter whether it is UK, USA or Aussie. I have friends in Aussie but she is in perth. And if i go to Aus i will most likely be in Melbourne. I have a cousin there. Hmm, dunno la, just see how first But i got to hurry up and apply soon. Shall leave now. Bye
-dC- gone to fix the monitor wiring.

A little fluff piece for you to read. Cute and interesting.

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away. Think about this. You may not realize it, but it's 100% true.

1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.

4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.

5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

6. You mean the world to someone.

7. If not for you, someone may not be living.

8. You are special and unique.

9. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you trust the Spirit to do what's best, and wait on It's time, probably, sooner or later, you will get it or something better.

10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good can still come from it.

11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.

12. Someone that you don't even know exists, loves you.

13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.

14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know and you'll both be happy.

15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.
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Ok, then i shall take the time to thank all my friends for being there for me. Through thick or thin. And thanks for just simply being you and not changing. Last but not least, thank you for being my friend. =)
-dC-

*sniff* feel sick, maybe cos i am sick.sob. Throat is pain, like got a tooth pick stuck in my throat.
Ok, i realise that i know this person who is manipulative and sly and able to make use of people by decieving them. It is not that i just realise this, i mean, i knew it, just that i want ppl to know that it ppl like him/her are real. So beware. Haha, i am starting to sound like a police officer. Talking to Candice now and Smallville is on now. Yuck. Shit! horrible. their line for their advert was ... " In a place . where anything can happen...." ::LoL:: Tell me about it. Smallville is the only place stupid things like that can happen. Chole having state of the art technology incognito, and Clark-Future Superman (though i highly doubt it). Well, dun noe why i bother watching it, i guess it is just very interesting, something to shout and laugh at cos of how stupid it is. ::lol::
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Lana: Its okay clark, I am willing to wait for as long as you want.
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Doesn't she get the hint? Clark does not want you. (at least his brain tells him that.) haha, and now my brother just stormed in to ask me a math question.

Sigh, tired, shall sleep after i take my medicine. I swear the doctor is insane. ask me to take 2 tablet of the same kind for 2 different medicine, and ask me to digest some bitter syrup. Sesh, i end up eating 5 tablets and 1 tablespoon of cough syrup. Some pink bitter thingy that is so called cough syrup. I rather that the other one. Taste nicer.
-dC-

continuation from previous post|sigh, just read ah gong's blog. Seriously, i did not think it would be that bad to be overseas, away from your parents. But i guess the pros comes with the cons like one big family package. It just seemed like yesterday, where the whole family would just hang around and enjoy ourselves. Singing and laughing, making a fool of ourselves, guess the reality of the situation has yet to settle into my head. I guess i should be frank with myself. It will not be the same, no more doning the blue uniform after10 years, that old ugly traditional uniform kinda grows on you, just like your friends. I have been seeing a whole lot of my friends during the holidays, and that is what kept me from admitting and giving into real life. We are'nt classmates anymore, we will grow apart with the years to come, i am fairly certain of that, the Fires withing Fires play, and all the other occasions where we just hang ard doing nth, basically, just hanging around and chilling out, those were the days.I kinda miss carrying all those heavy things , metal bars and getting angry over nth. Those ghost stories about the Victoria theatre where we would just sit in the back stage room and just be scared together. The 'Sally doll' story, you remember them guys?
Just besically good old fashion fun. I can feel the tears starting to sting my eyes alittle, i guess basically, it comes down to just this, it is the little things in life that we will miss the most, the small details, like the way we would talk, or the nick names, or the little games we use to play, and the way we sang and serenated the teachers, these will probably be the things that i will miss the most, not how much we owe one another, or how expensive was our things. These materialistic things, just don't that the setiments of what the smaller details have.
I remember the endless hours we spent in the art gallery, naming it 'ah gong's home'(cos she alwats held the keys to the gallery) we would just sit around and chill, go to 7/11 , throw wet tissue paper at one another, and having to clean the floor cos we messed it up. Helping yuying(ah gong) with the wall, and those extra meaningles words that were painted on the wall just to fill up the space eg. choc (suppose to be chocolate,but it got cut off cos it went out of the "canvas") the way charmaine would sit down on the floor like a grave keeper killing the ants and stacking them up, haha, sick. :p It looked like a tiny mole hill of ants from the top of the ladder. *Sigh* the arguements that each one of us had, the times where we bonded by crying due to the destruction of the cow from FWF. I guess that was the way we grew close, by just being ourselves, not being afraid to let our inner self be known by others, no afriad that they will think we were mad, cos on the whole, the whole gang seemed like a bunch of mad loonies to others. *smile/laughing* the weird look Miss Gammar would shoot us sometimes, the look that said ' huh?-what-is-going-on-with-them ' I still remember the time Miss Gammar asked Yuying, "Yuying,why so short?" hahaha.
Do you remember the english essay Miss devi Made us write, about what we want to be, or to just pick any topic? Many of my friends picked "Ambitions" where as i picked Greed, and miss devi thought i was saying Green, she say" It is Greeeeeed, not Greed. Greeeeeeeed." I mean, i did say Greed, but i guess i did not hold onto the 'E' long enough. Well, this flash back is starting to take and emotional toll on my turmoiled mind, shall relax for a minute and conitue later.
-dC-

Ahhh!!!!!! i just came back from the cruise, and.....i have no voice, i sound like a vibrating spoilt horn. My mother say wait for me to get posted to a JC then i can start to apply for overseas school. guess i know where i will be going, AUSsie! but one thing's for sure, i will have to be extra independent, imagine, if i were sick, i can't just sit at home and pretend nth is wrong, or not take medicine or not see the doctor cos i am lazy, i would have to look after my self, and that afterthought is leaving a bad taste in my mouth. -maybe it is the cough mixture that i just took.
Well, i am bored right now, i actually wanted to blog my blog later, but since i am bored, i shall blog it now. Does my page take a long time to load? sigh, maybe i will just go and take sm stuff away, i mean, i wonder what is making my blog so hard to load, it is all cocked up, smth is terribly wrong with it lor.
tired, guess the cough mixture is starting to take a toll on my body, getting sleepy, my eyes are getting heavier. *head falls on the table* "bang" =.=zzZzZZ
-dC-

Just changed my background. Again. How is it? Is it ok? Anyways, i am sick. Coughing and with a sore throat. o well. Today was not fruitful, nth to do, stay at home, went to parkway for no reason. I meet the gang at the last few minutes of Sheril's birthday. Ate a choco coated banana from Swensen's. Cold. Brr. Damn hard. ( If simmie is reading this, do not laugh cos it is not suppose to be implied in a sick way.) For those who wondering what a Simmie is, it is a sick minded 24 hr hotline, erm...erm..... hamster? j/k it is a dirty minded human.
Well, who can blame her eh? I mean, she was born with that sick mind. *snicker* (no offense. J/K only) Anyways, my hands are almost numb, cos of the air con being too cold in my room. And i am sitting in my seat typing away my life for the whole world to see. Just now i watched ' The Price is Right' . Man, that show is oooooolld. I mean, it is still airing, just looong. Airing for god noes how many years. I am starting to feel like a old woman, sitting infront of the tv, watching the price is right cos it is the best thing on tv at that time, with a blue jacket (too bad it ain't a sweater, or else i would really be a old lady) Watching so intently as though as it were about to hand me 50 000 bucks.(i wish!)
*Snaping out of dream world*
fast forward to present. Decided to watch At the Dolphin bay cd agian. i have lost count as to how many hours i have wasted/killed watching this show. Don't get me wrong, it is a good show or else i would not have even contemplated watching it again. As good as it is, LnC is still better. K, shall go now, my fingers are feeling like it was going to get frost bite soon. Ciao!
-dC-


Morpheus


?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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Continuation from previous post.
I just did a test(smth like that, using your b'dae), apparently, i express myself better through art, writing, and etc then i do through verbal expressions. Now, i will not wrong that, i mean, maybe at times i do express one's self better through words. Yet, the part stating that i 'dillusional' about life really stinks. Do they think i do not know life. Well, if i am angry over that, i really do not know life. Or if i am angry that this QUiz is accusing me of smth, then, i am naive. But i am not, just surprised. Maybe it is just a quiz, i should not mind the content too much. I just could not bother to bring myself to continue reading it to the end. =)
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I want to go to L.A!!!!!! DC will be there!!!! Oh my. *faints* sigh. I want to sign up for the crowd scenes, then can see DC. Argh! Why must it always be USA?
Maybe i should just go to USA to study eh? haha, nah, too ex. At least i think it would be ex. Cos it is futher. But who noes, might turn out to be another Vancouver. Aparently, ah gong(yuying) told me that it cost 5000 for a year of studies there, to study high sch.

Till next time, bye!
-dC-

lalala,in british council now. Simmie sitting here, laughing at me cos i do not noe how to spell council.(I KNOW!) :P Don't mind her, she is just maaaddddd as usual. Maybe she wants to write something in here eh? Lets see....

"You wanna write?"
"No, its your blog."
"Com'on!!"
"Ya Ma? You mean Lama dun you?"
"Ya Da. Yeeeeeaaada"
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Just now the stupid lady at the british council came, so cannot continue, so shall update it now. Well, Anyways, she was no help , the US education Centre was even lesser help. I think i want to go to Aussie. I mean, it is the best way to go about it.
Get your diploma within 16mths, then you enter Year two of University after that, after 2 years of Uni, you get your Honours. You will be 20 by then, then by 23 you will have you PHD if you want to take it. But the catch is that, well, it is erm, you got to excel, cos for banking and finace alot of ppl take that course, so you must be one of the top.

That's all for now Folks! ciao!
-dC-

-Anger- The one thing that can make a person snap. It boils within you, and with a swift move of your hands, time freezes yet you feel nothing, people plead, but the victim just continues to shout back. You blood boils, you cannot think straight, nothing matters, just REVENGE, pure simple revenge. Well, this particular anger is aimed towards my friend. Or supposily Brother. Well, the word family lost its meaning where he is concern. I shall not elaborate on the details, or i may just blow up before i can cool down.

Well, talking to a friend sure helps, cool you down, (define cool down) but the process is easier when your focus is not on the core of the anger.
Today i watched ' Wan Tuan Yu Le '. Zhan Shao Han was the guest star. cool rite? Talk about beginnings luck. I saw alittle of Xu Shao Yang and alittle of Huo Jian Hua. So that brighten up my day alittle.
I seem to be coming down with something, sore throat i think, guess that is lifeee. O well, man! I need to shit.(and you did not need to noe that) have not shited in like 2 days. - just something to lighten up my mood if not yours.
Well, shall update this post late.(maybe) Ciao!
-dC-

I just read Yuying's post about her thoughts on overseas study. *sigh* just reading it seems so sad, she probably feels a whole lot worst. I can say, "Cheer up!" but, i have a feeling that will do not good.
What she said is true, you are alone overseas. *sigh* Well, hope she noes that everyone can't wait to get her to come back to Singapore, and we can celebrate!!!! Haha, one whole day of outing, how does that sound?

I guess that is life eh? It gives you something, something that you will love, and then take it away from you. Making the suffering worst than if it was nothing of high value. It leaves you empty with a hole, feeling incomplete i guess. O well, life's like that, so to all who are depressed about their results and what nots, just remember, no matter how empty that deep hole in your soul is or how down in the pits you feel ( so down until you cannot see light anymore) there is always another way to patch that wound, and make it better, quote:" The more you do not want to touch the wound, the worst with will remain, and the more painful it will be." So, face it, accept it, and make the best out of life....... so here is a hard wake up call.....

SNAP OUT OF IT!!!
-dC-