i apologise to marissa and david as i probably got them real pissed in my previous post. If they do read it. But i am not going to delete it, cos i feel that this is where i should write what i feel. Nyways, sigh, sorry guys. was angry at that moment.

Today is terrible, my take on today:

David was so irritating laughing and making so much noise. Really piss me off. Just can't stand it. Then he pulled marissa's chair away just as he was about to sit down. You can guess what happened to marissa. She fell. After she fell, i dont know what happen but i know that he burst into class room like a bloody mouse scared of marissa. Sesh. He want to do something to her, then he better not be afriad of the consequences.
Marissa decided to put ice cream in David's pocket as retribution. But the classroom ended up being at the victim. I mean, if marissa wants to do whatever to david it is not my problem, but i am sure as hell i do not want a classroom full of ants and insects. "You dirty it, you better clean it up" i just wanted to tell her that. I am sure she wiped the wooden partition properly. But what about the floor, the ice cream was picked up (I picked it up) but she did not use water or a wet tissue to clean it. They should have just stayed in the canteen to solve the problem. I am not even happy that marissa bother about taking revenge, simply said, it is really not that good a thing, "an eye for an eye and the whole world goes blind". " Tell miss nathan bout it or something man, let the ppl who have the power to take care of things do the dirty work not you, dun put yourself down to such a standard that you should get ur hands dirty. "

This above words are there not to make anyone happy or angry with me. I am just stating what i feel, that is what you should do in a journal. And if you don't like it, no one asked you to read it. Live with it and forget about it. Can't be bothered to write what ppl want to hear, i am going to write what i want to say. I have already cut down alot on everthing else that i wanted to write.

I cannot stand miss nathan, she was teaching lit, then she took the fact that the boy in the story was actually masterbating with a wooden rocking horse. I mean, nothing much, no big deal. Hell, ppl all over the world do it with pens and objects and god knows what else. So what is so shocking until she have to over react and laugh so much. If that is what the author of the story wanted to imply, then there is no wrong in that.

Shockingly the rest of the day was okay, cept for the cold that i think i am going to catch. Stupid winter sonata. The scenery too nice and real liao until i sit in my room sneezing my head off, and even after i cover my self with a blanket, i am still cold. But the show was nice, a tad too long winded, but no biggie, the scenery made up for its long windedness. I have not watched the whole show yet, and i cant cos my mother wants to bring it to the cruise to rewatch it.

BTW, to my PW group, i am probably going to interview the 'billy bong' guy from living with lydia, Samuel chong if i am not wrong. If possible i will do it tml, if not then it will be within the month.

ciao!
-dC-

did not update for some time already. Sooo..... i have decided to update today! haha, lame. Okay, anyways, yesterday. Hmmm, i forgot what it was abt. Lol, on tuesday i slept late cos....cos...i have no idea, slept at 1 am, then woke up at 4 but could not go back to sleep, so laid down, anyways,i am soo tired.

Yesterday i had drama, lovely! Enjoyed drama, got the drama t-shirt! Woohoo!!! and then i went to raffles city to get my hair done(did not know i was going to get my hair styled) then rushed home , only to leave an hour later to go and watch a drama perfomance. The dinner was okay, but the chocolate moouse? mouse? mhoose? LMAO, okay what ever, the creamy choco thingy, is like nice. Then the performance started. It was really enjoyable, a great eveining, and the way the thing was carried out was really brillant, perfect to say the least. a really funny comedy.

Today miss nathan is successful in making me hate her more, but i will still respect her. No choice. Damn, character flaw. O well, sigh, can't be a sociopath no more. Nvm, talking rubbish, this is all that happened today i guess. PE was terrible as usual. But hearing what gong has to say bout what she would have to do- run 200km, some other day, forgot when.

I am watching fear factor and winter sonata as well, WS is not bad, but not that great, have only watched a few, so i guess cannot comment yet. However, the music is BRILLANT!!! lala, i am going to learn how to play the theme song on the piano. Rach, if you want the piano notes, i can show you the webpage.

Thats all, tuloo(sp?)
-dC-

Firstly, i would like to apologise to all whom i have made angry this afternoon when i chased them out of class. SORRY!!!! My dad would really have my head if i were late, he would nag and nag, thus me rushing you all out, feel bad bout it. Sorry.

Secondly, i have golf tonight and i got a lit test tml, you know what that means?! Yes~ it means where the hell am i going to find time to read the whole god damn book, (note the missing words 'all over again') I shall read it tonight, or later, i am really tired now, sigh, zZzZzZz..*yawn*

Well got to go now, too sleepy to type, plus the insert key is not working here, what i time gets erase when i add smth.

Candice: By now you would have been using ur new com? Is it nice? Well all the best with it~
Marlz and the rest: MISS YOU ALL!!!!
PJ: When you wanna go out?
Rach: so long never talk to you......haha reply me on msn leh.....:P

Okay to everyone: LOVE YOU ALL LOADS DUDES AND DUDETTES (i am mad, thus my current state of mind) haha

-dC-

More on today, I HATE MISS SOONG, what cute, ya right, she is ugly alright, but definatly not adorable, epescially when she made me stay back till 4.30 and waste what could have been great fanfiction reading time to do her econs homework. I dun mind staying back to do, that is the not the problem. The cold fact is that she made sure we were there at 4.30 regardless of whether we finished it earlier. I mean, sure you got to give her credit, we did not do our homework, but still? She need not make sure we were there at 4.30 lor. F* her okok, shall change my word to a not so vulgar word, stupid pig. heeehee, anyways, the good thing is that i manage to see the Charity Care walkaton t-shirt designs. They were nice, hmmm, maybe i should have done one up, may have stand a chance. Who noes.Ciao

-dC-

How many of us only call a person a hero when they are gone. When they have left us, when they are no longer there on this plane of existence?

Heroes are branded when they are gone, firemen who lost their lives, people who died for their country, workers go get killed.
When will we ever learn to appreciate what we have?

Call them heroes before they are gone, call them legends before they are so far away that they cant hear us, cant reach out to us , to continue being heroes?

Nicoll highway collasped. I am sure many know about this by now, if you do not, then now you do. We talk about things that are bad, not things that are good, good things dont sell newpapers, don't bring in ratings, they dont make much of news substance, when we read about a killing, a murder, a terrorist act, a collapse somewhere in the world, we will bother to pick up that newpaper that is layed spawn on the floor. If there was nothing bad going on, like one LnC character once said "3000 channels with nothing on" .

No one wil bother, you see something good happens, you read it, you forget about it soon enough, how many people remember those kidnaps those terrorist acts. They get imprinted into your brain and stays there for a long time to come. T
he search for a worker under the debris (sp?) from the N H collaspes was given up hope on.

Gone.

And then he is called a hero. You see a construction worker on the street doing all the hard work, yet you dont call them a hero, it is about time we realise that a hero is someone who is still alive and still sacrifice his fear of death for us. He does not need to be dead. It is like us, we only realise what is important and treasure it when it is gone. I just want to put a final statement, this world needs a superman, someone to help, and someone to help these Heroes and protect them.

There is this quote i carry around in my wallet that says " a world full of heroes has nothing to fear" We do not need a superman, if we realise that everyone is a hero, but until then, only a superman can show us how strong we can really be...

read previous entry first:
tip to all, never brand your day good till it is over.

Hello~~~~ ^^
LAST NIGHT WAS THE BOMB!~ WOOHOO! I mean, i had one helluva night at yuying's house, thanks for the great night gong! and tell your parents thank you too. I mean, that best time i have had this year. And i am sure this would be the best time in the year, regardless of whether there would be another renunion again. *hint*hint* heehee.

Okay, i shall start from yesterday. Yesterday, i rushed down to meet Vickie and we caught the 3pm Hellboy show, it was really nice! so go catch it ya'll!!! I went to see the show with a unbais mind can came out supporting the show all the way, haha, it is an action comedy show, it is like, right smack in the action, there is a comedy, and that is really cool and funny. Vic and i then headed towards Kino-at-Taka. She bought a couple of comic books then we headed to meet up with the rest. We took an MRT to clementi to where Yuying brought us to her house. We stayed in her room playing the guitar and chit chatting, just chilling out while waiting for the last 3 ppl to arrive before we ate. Then later we started eating and we all gobled down our food, it was really nice! We then roasted Marshmallow and guess what? Vic over roasted on of her's and it because all overgrown and brown. LOLs!!!! The chicken the made had made was also really nice, good stuff! good stuff! Haha, and then we headed towards the living room where we sat singing the Karaokae like mad ppl, mainly i was mad, like i was high on something, haha, i seranated everyone in the living room, singing all the love song (mainly cos the DVD only had love songs). But honestly, i really love you all! (love as in good buddies/friends way) later we went upstairs to ahgong's room and fiddled with her computer, Tawn had made a video and it made my eye sting wanted to cry there and then, was really touching and nice, a video on our years and times together, the Lanterns, and the Aussie trip and in the class room. The music was a jap music by X-Japan. What's the tittle of that song? I want to know. Then later we all zoomed down towards yuying's kitchen to get IceCREAM! haha, we took 2 pines on Chocolate icecream and then one box of oreo icecream, and one box of Mars icecream. There were only 7 of us eating it mind you, haha, one box of mars icecream has 6 pieces of icecream, and one box of oreo's had 4 big oreo's icecream, niceeeee. i splattered some icecream on gong's face. Haha, sorry gong! Could not resist. Then we sat and chat and played truth or dare.

Have to go and do CIP now, bleah, all the way there(Jurong) to become slaves to the community, might i say, the Singpore community. Jurong is like all the way to the other side of singapore. BEtter faster rush home to watch John Doe, nothing can spoil my day! haha, you noe why? Cos i had a great night, when i was awake, and when i was asleep!

Nevermind, i am not going to go already, apparently since i have no transport there.

I am eating the chocolate that gong gave us. It is nice. Really, really, nice.
After playing truth or dare, we sort of went home i think, i mean, we talked for awhile, played songs, then went home. Vic and Simmie and Sharon and i shared a cab. Vic was telling us stories about Xmen and the developments and the pheonex(sP?) triology and other things, like the child Cabby (right?) and apocolyspe(sp?) hahaha.

-dC-

Hello!!!!

Okay for starters, i got a new handphone!!! It is cool! i mean, the screen is nice and all, the shape is really normal, but the camera is so cool, and change whether you want to take the photos in Sepia, BnW, or Negative. Shiok! LoL. The peanut butter MnMs are nice......haha, but god damn fattening, so i shall refrain from gobbling them down tasting the richness of the chocolate and how it melts in your mouth. Damn! *runs to get a chocolate*

-back- I WILL NOT EAT CHOCOLATE! I WILL NOT EAT CHOCOLATE! I will Not eat chocoalate! I will not eat chocolate! I will not eat chocolate. I will not eat chocolate. I will eat chocolate. I WILL EAT CHOCOLATE!!!! BWHAAHHAHA!!!! -i am mad-

Anyhoz, candice is now at the doctors taking a urinal test, ecK! hahahaha, and marlz has not school today, lucky gal. Tomorrow is the long awaited day, there people from all corners of singapore and the world will get together on a hill and smoke can be spoted not far behind loud screams and shouts of laughter, happiness and hope for all. A great aroma will fill the air and smokes thick enough to cover the sky will be sighted at this place. where 10 young hopefulls will reunited and when their powers combine.... I AM CAPTAIN PLANET.j/k. when their powers combine....the GONG FAMILY WILL BE FORMED again!!!! YaY! Gonna watch Hellboy with Vic, then later we will head for the MRT station at Clementi and go to Ahgong's house!!! PArty starts at 7.30 i think, wonder who will stay over, i can't but.... "SIMMIE!!! would you like to share a cab?" Heehee.

I am watching Lois and Clark now just after i have had my lunch, Simmie stil had not answered the question of what a leg job is, so hurry up answer Famo!

I have this goofy smile plastered on my face and i am smiling from ear to ear. HAha, guess what!? MY friend from Aussie said that she sent a e mail requesting for a Signed Dean Cain Postcard and she got it!!!! with his signature!! Oh my GOD~! I just send an email too, hoping to recieve one. Heehee. BwHWAHHAHAHA!!! YAY!!!! YES!!! WoohOO~ Though it would take like 2 mths for it to arrive. But it will be worth the wait. I am not even paying a single cent for it! LalAAL~!!! SO HAPPY! WEEHEEE!!!! YAY!!! *bouncing up and down* YeS! haha, WAY COOL! Thanks Iapetus(my aussie's friend nick) Wahoo!!!

For Angel and Buffy fans, you can get a autographed picture as well!

Angel@studiofanmail.com
Buffy@studiofanmail.com

Dont forget to write your name and address. You can write to them saying you are a fan and that you would like an autographed card.

DC's one is this : deancain@studiofanmail.com

Okies, got to go now. Ciao!
-dC-hyper!-

School was boring today, as usual slept through everything and i think i will suffer if i continue like this, thus i would promise to keep my eyes open during lessons. (Open, never say stay awake) Did the 5 items for PE today and during shuttle run i ran so slow. The first time i ran i fell, and it still hurts. Second time, the block slipped from my hand thus i had to stop. And my foot is sort of falling out of the shoe, the shoe i wore was not meant for running. Econs test was okay, i hope i can get an A for it, since it is only MCQ. At least if i pass it would mean i am not in that deep a shit and my mind is not a total blank, if i can get an A without studying then it means that i am lucky and i should start studying. Makes sense?

Anyways, i am tired, and i have nothing much to talk about, my chinese is screwed, i think i will get 1/20.
*yaWn*

Helmi called btw! He said he missed us and that he wanted us to help out with the EMDD at Victoria Theatre this year again, but he could not reach us. He said that this year's crew is terrible, and he still remembers that he owes us a treat. I wonder if Joanna over there with Helmi? And i wish them the best of luck for the opening night tonight. ( the Gala night is tml )

Recap on the memorable events of last year(sort of) -

Aussie Geog trip: Nov 2002
Fires within Fires: Oct 2002 - March 2003
Evening of Music Dance and Drama: July(?) 2003

-dC-

Dance with My Fater - Luthor Vandross


Back when I was a child, before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high and dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around 'til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved
If I could get another chance, another walk, another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
How I'd love, love, love
To dance with my father again
When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way, I would run from her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me
Then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me
If I could steal one final glance, one final step, one final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
'Cause I'd love, love, love
To dance with my father again
Sometimes I'd listen outside her door
And I'd hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me
I know I'm praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don't do it usually
But dear Lord she's dying
To dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream

*sniff* such a nice song....sigh..... O how the world is full of great songs. Touching songs.

I was suppose to get a new handphone today, but since i want to skip the minor details, i did not get a phone. Some other day. I will most likely be getting the SonyEricsson T630. Guess i decided to try something new. Have always been using Nokia phones and now i have settled on a different brand(at least until i get it). Guess it is something like life, you got to try new things once in awhile, you may actually learn to love it alot more than what you have routinely been doing.

There is PE tomorrow, i dont really care, numb already. If i die due to over exhaustion, so be it.
Guess, anyone of us can drop dead anytime, we should all live each day to the fullest embracing it with a warm smile.

The math test was today and i think i may be able to pass, provided i did not screw it up. There is an Econs test tomorrow, and i have not studied. I just want to keep on listening to sad slow songs, just like last time, for no reason at all. Just hear it, flowing through your veins, soothing what every tense muscle you had in your body. Making you feel all alive, yet tired in the same time. The minor details are the most important details in everything that we may do in life.

4 more days till ahgong comes back. BTw, i have not heard the reply to whether you guys to * for * anot. haha, nevermind, i need to know ASAP. Study hard ya'll, and till friday, i will stay alive awaiting when we can finally see one another as a whole big family again.

I just rewatched The Pretender. What a cool show man! My god. Love it! Haha, Even the sickest and twisted mind has a heart. Okay, maybe all cept the sociopaths. But, way cool. What a god damn smart show it is! BRILLANT! I wonder if there is a 3rd installment to the movie, sure as hell would like to know what happened to Jarod. Someone tell me!

I am doing my Lit homework, no idea whether i should do it, or study my math?Damn, Someone tell me! I have written 2 paragraphs and i am lost now, no idea as to what to write, have been out of touch with Lit for so long that i have forgotten what it is to analyse a prose sort of thing. HOW!? VIC! I NEED YOUR HELP. AH GONG HELP! SIMMIE HELP! EVERYONE HELP!

-dC-

Last night was really fun. Apart from the fact that i was too full to eat the food even if it was a dinner invitation, i had a blast.
Lets start..... the people there would include autie dolly's children, mr kevin, mr yong, mun yen, me bro, and mr B (who arrived last, if i am not wrong.)

I could not believe that there were Swans and turtles at mun yen's basement. My god, they were beautiful, mr b, mun yen, my bro, and i were feeding the swans some bread and they were all fighting over it, poor swans, looks like they don't get much food, or they are really greedy. It was really soothing. To see those animals, kind of like you were on a holiday all over again. *content sigh*. LAter on, mr b ( beverly) and i sat on the swing just chit chatting about everything. Was really nice, first good long chat in awhile face to face with someone. *gtg bathe brb*

*back*Currently watching John Doe. An extra great show, that only lasted a season if i am not wrong. What is it which good shows and a short life span.

Back on last night, Kevin, Genevy(sp?), the guy (sorry, forgot the name) and dunnoe who else were playing mah jong. Mr b then dropped by my house and we listened to "Fuck it" by Eamon, and another song called "Fuck you right back" A reply to the first song by Frankee. Nice! The sad thing is that Mr b will be returning to London soon, so back to before.

Today was ok, did some CIP, waited for the rest to arrive, they were late you see, nvm that, later on, we started to do some gardening, haha, it was really nice, great weather, not too hot, but I was really tired by the end of it all.

Anways, have to do gp homework later, after dinner. Shall stop here.

Check this out:
funny
-dC-

I think, these blogs are sometimes more of a burden then a help. I apologise for anyone i may have insulted/hurt/made-angry. Anyways, today was fun in school and all. School was fun today, no PE! It was okay, miss soong was funny Miss nathan was weird as usual, i gues if you do not set yourself to be prepared for a bad day, the day will not be bad at all.

I realise that i have changed since Sec 1 and 2, not surprising since everyone is going through constant change, but i dont think i changed for the better in a few ways,
I miss those worry free days and those heck care, but not really heck care days, where i was more at peace with myself and when i was more, how to put it, relaxed.
It seemed so distant now, and i think i want to be back there, learn how i behaved and do it all over agian.
I would go to school and with all the problems i had, i still felt the same, maybe naive, but then agian, maybe i decided that i do not want to give in to failure of selfcontrol or maybe i decided that i should not let others upset me, or let situations upset me.

My vow that i will make now is that i will live a happy life and not be so god damn fustrated of nothing at all. OVER NOTHING. haha. Okies. I'll be leaving now.
-dC-

In order to update, i have got to be alive. Well I am! But i am pratically tired to death. Sigh. I was seeing double vision just now, i was the last one doing star jumps and was almost half dead, then Ms Smith asked my classmates to cheer me on.. (...) Then words like "do it for Superman" "do it for Lois and Clark"(smth like that, only heard the Dean Cain part clearly) "do it for DEAN CAIN!" ^^!!! What the...... haha, i really appreciate it, but honestly, damn pai seh leh. I think i dunno how to go sch tml. O well, what ever. DC ROCKS! MUaHaHaha, i love LnC, i like dC. I shall get that straight. So LOIS AND CLARK RULES!

After that, went back to class and sat down slacking, trying to catch my breath. Ms Nathan was her usual dirty self, literally and non literally. Glascow was fun like always, but i was pretty 'out of it' too tired. Sort of slept through the day. I saw a picture of Marissa's bf, cute. They look so good together. "Stay that way!"

Went home, wrote some stuff on checks for my mother. Then got scolding by my dad for a misunderstanding that had nth to do with me. So here i am, sitting down inforn to my com, words flowing non stop, eyes getting heavy, cannot remember what homework we have, i cannot remember much. My mind is a blank. It has been wiped clean. All i know is..."Knowledge is the key to success, it takes one to know one, we don't have a say in certain stuff" See. my mind is going nuts, stuff from Fires (Fires within Fires) is flowing back. Okay, gtg before my old memories take over all the present ones and i will be stuck living in year 2003 all over again.

-dC-

Hold up
Hold on
Don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone

May your smile (may your smile)
Shine on (shine on)
Don't be scared (don't be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm

Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Get up (get up)
Come on (come on)
Why're you scared? (I'm not scared)
You'll never change
What's been and gone

Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

We're all of us stars
We're fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see us some day
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out

By oasis. Really nice song
*****
Anyways, with regards to the previous post, i am going to school, my mother dun allow me to skip school. Shall do econs then.
*****
hola all. Today in school was okay, the highlight of the day is Drama, so fun and cool. though i acted like a fool (nth new). All in all, it was the best time of the day. I have the urge of skipping school tomorrow, hope that my mother allows, then i will just stay at home and fadai. Either that or i will find another way to skip PE.... Bleah PE. Can't live with it, can't leave without it.

Miss (or is it Ms) Nathan manage to successfully annoy loads of people today. *claps* ^^!! Well, i dont hate her, nor do i like her, (for those who know me well, i dun like to hate anyone) just that she can make it rain in the inside.

My life is pretty much the same, James, David, Jeremy, and Livia, got really pissed at ms/miss nathan. I can see the part which Simmie said abt her rear its ugly head. O the birds, O de beez. ..... She said that people (americans non the less) flirted with her when she was teaching in the US *jaw drops*. AMERIcaNS! Simmie, i am sure with your diverse knowledge on the dirty issues you can shed some light as to what 'leg job' means. Apparently she said that last time one of the reasons why china ppl(girls) had small legs was to do leg jobs. TELL ME! i wanna noe, LoL, cos i want to see how dirty ms nathan's mind can get.

I am going to set up a new blog.Cos this one is alittle too public already, cant say all i want to say thus leaving out most of the details. Too many people reading it,and in the process of not wanting to hurt anyone or offend anyone, i have to deminish myself to shuting up.

ciaO!
-dC- P.S: This blog is still VERY ACTIVE. NOT going to abandon it MuahaHAHa.....

see this

Vomit. Puke. Bleah. Regurgitate(sp?). etc.etc
that is my day. Terrible, PE stinks as usual literally and non literally.

I like to think about things, don't you all?
I mean, to sit down, and just think, about why life is like that, or why things happen, or why people over think things, or why people behave the way they are.

I realise, that it is really tiring to wear a facade all day, and only to return to my safe haven (my room) at 4 or later, sometimes earlier. I realise, when i go to school, i am so strained, so bounded, 'cannot do this cannot do tha't, 'if you wanna make friends or at least have accquantances', you just have to turn yourself down notches, sigh. I miss the gong family, where i acted the way i would, like a mad person, haha talking crap all day, we were a bunch of people who laughed at nothing, whether it was singing away out of tuned, or just simply sitting there and staring.

These days, i feel like i am losing my mind, laughing to myself when something reminds me of sec school, or talking to myself, i mean, i always did that, i like to talk to myself to hear things out better, but this is different, it is like talking to myself and only myself without any reason. I guess it is like losing yourself to others, just moving and moving each day, tyring to cope with life. Sure, i made friends with the whole class, sort of, but it does not really matter. I shall just move back to sec one and two. Do you remember those day candice? Just sitting alone, when ppl ask what have i done everyday the ans would be "erm..... i have no idea" and honestly, i did not know what i did, i knew i was infront of the com, but which part of me was really there concentrating.

Maybe that is why i lock myself in my room, the door to my room is constantly locked, the times when they are unlock is when i am not in the room or when i eat, when i am at home i just lock the door and just stay in. Doing anything. Doing nothing. My mind is drawing a blank,

I miss having a friend like candice in school, and the rest. I mean, Candice was someone i could say anything, and i mean anything, to. I am still great (or even better than before) friends with her, but i cannot crap in school, or say what i wanna say. No one will listen anyways, thus me talking to myself again. Need to see a psychatrist soon. Or i will go mad, thus drama is a good outlet for acting mad. Hahaha, feel so relax there, sure it is akward at first, a bunch of people who i have no idea who they where, but then it was better when i made friends with the IJ girls, not from KC, but just IJ girls.

well, shall leave now. BYE!
-dC-

What powers would you wish to have if you could chose?

a) Flight
b) x ray vision
c) invisibility
d) heat vision
e) super strength
f) super speed
g) ability to control the weather
h) read minds
i) move things with ur mind

I would love to have the power of flight and superspeed, so i can break away from all the barriers, a plave where no one can find me, fly in the clouds be up there away from all the problems of life, from the reality of life. To be free without a thing to tell me what to do. To go against all odds. To just break free of all that bounds people to the ground, all the responsibilities. the superspeed can let me go places i have never been before in minutes, let me move so fast everything is standing still, like being able to seperate yourself from others and live in another lonely silent world of your own. To accomplish things faster, to do last minute homework fast! ^^

How about you? tag to let me know.
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I bought the Staind cd.Yay! 14 shades of grey. Nice name for an album. Anyways, today was same old same old, i want to go and do my lit now, but am too lazy to. Tomorrow i have PE and i just dun want to think about it. The funny thing is that, the more you don't want to think about something, it will just keep reapearing in your memory, like an irritating annoying pimple. Lol. no idea where i came up with the pimple thing. So, do you think this background is betTEr?

I also realise that when people are angry they are more vunerable to everything around them.
Listening to the cd right now, shall update some other time to let you know whether it is good or not.

Anyways, i wanna say: "With pain comes happiness, yet with pain comes hurt, so what should you do? With life comes death, like with a start comes an end." something i thought up, hope it makes sense.
=dC=

Just ran 1KM non stop. YAY. Okay, not such a big accomplishment, but then it is a Sunday and i actually decided to go downstairs to the gym and run.

I bought the Blink182 cd, it is ok, not too bad. There are a few good songs, other than that, not sure, have not listen the whole cd yet you see. I should have gotten the Staind cd instead. I regret! Damn, i shall ask me bro to buy it for me tml, (mental note to self, pass the money to nick later)

True to my word, i remembered to buy the deep end of the ocean cd, the sucky thing is that they dun sell it as sembawan and MPH. Sigh, guess next stop will be HMV if i even go there soon. I highly doubt i will be visiting that place soon. I bought pens and post-its some badges, one is a picture of the nazi symbol (dun ask why i bought it.) guess i was thinking of LnC at that time, the ep where the Nazi's invaded the daily planet. Another one has words on it which goes like this " you laugh because i am different, i laugh because you are the same" Inetersting. The last one is alittle hard to describe it will come out wrong.

I have done only one math qn, attempted another one, and gave up on 2, also done1 qn of my econ homework so i shall get back to it. It is already 6pm so i better get on with it.Ciao.

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econs

This web can help ppl who need to know how to do their econs homework. Hope it helps yall.
-dC-

photos have been removed due to complaints

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Lazy to do homework, shall do them tml. Only got MAth and Econ rite? Well, math, i've tried already. Econs shall do it tml.
Today was fun, as you can see from the photos, we were suppose to do flag selling, and the guys slacked most of the time. Half the class went to P.S BK to eat breakfast, took an hour to eat one breakfast, heehee, anyhoz continued to sell flags and it was fun, got loads of Cacasians(sp?) Nyways, then after seeling finish the flash, miss nathan aka Merlion treated us to Pizza Hut, cost her abt 130 bucks. :S Oh my! THANK YOU FOR THE LUNCH! Feel quite bad bullying her behind her back, i mean, with the merlion and all. Later on, went to the old folks home to clean the windows, had alot of cob webs, yuck, i also entertained loads of mosquitos with my legs *scratches legs* Itchy! Stupid insect. :S
Just watched the miss singapore thingy, so ugly ppl, i dunno how the Sandra Chua won it, she has no potential. What is becoming of this world. O well, peace out.
-dC-out- [apologise for blurred pictures]

RYAN MERRIMAN








more of him
more of him2

Cute right? oh those bright blue eyes, quite a change from dC's brown chocolatey eyes, don't y'all think so? I wanna get the 'Deep end of the Ocean' show. I have been looking for that book for some time already, but each time i go to a movie store i forget to look for that show. That movie is damn nice. About a boy who was 'stolen'. I loved that show the first time i watched it, din noe that ryan merriman was acting in it, just makes it a whole lot more wanted. The show 'Smart house' sounds fun too. Ryan acted in 'The Pretender' as young Jarod, and also in a smallville ep called Velocity, could he be the one the msg boards were refering to when they said "there was a cute guy. Probably the best thing in the show". O well, guess that is a must see ep when it does air. :S. Just this once i will make it a must see ep for a smallville show.

Anyways, to recap on last night's dinner. Dinner tasted good. It was real fun to see Beverly and the rest all over again. Mr Yong, Mr i fogot the rest of the Mr's. Hmm, i am Mr Sara. Haha and all the "good stuff, good stuff". Was a real blast. Din noe that bev liked busted, "Candice, you have got a friend to talk to abt busted!". We sat and played the number game and truth or dare to past time. I had to eat something Mr Yong cooked up, "bleah", tasted like crap. He did it to get back at me for that time when they had to do a forfeit and he ate smth i made and he had a stomach ache. I APOLOGISE. But i salute the person for stopping the game at the cost of eating something that he was alergic to.
Mr Quek or was it Mr Kevin, can't remember, beat most/all of my game highscores in my phone.......terrible person. Xp.

I wish it was still holidays so i can go out with everyone, everyone including candice and the gang and everyone. Vic says that she is going to have a chalet to celebrate her birthday. Yuying is comming back in 13 days, as she puts in her nick. The twins are in Thailand on holiday. I am stuck in school. Candice is slacking.

Anyways, i have math econs and etc homework to do, so i need to start on them, shall do only math today, and then slack. Haha, not that i am not slacking now, i mean, it is already 4pm, so there is not much time left. I am screwed, need someone to teach me math, "Any volunteers?!"
*gone*
-dC-

Okay, the new background with me smiling is for Candice my bestest friend(i know that word does not exist). For people who know me, that is saying alot. I do not like to admit having best friends because i strongly believed that there are only friends and good friends. Now i turn it up a notch(sp?), The family are made up of my good friends and candice is my best friend. Simple as that.

Exhausted and tired, a cloud of laziness has been hanging over my head for the whole day, since the time i woke up to the time before i had PE. But nothing can beat PE. i officially died there. Or a part of me died there. I have lost my spirit for exercising.(not that i loved it or anything)

Tonight i will be having a dinner with Beverly and the rest of the Las Vegas kids ;) Can't wait to bond together again. Its been awhile since i saw her and the rest of the people. I need to bathe now cos i smell like shit. Bye.
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Interesting news article :

Texas mom who stoned sons not guilty
Saturday, April 3, 2004 Posted: 8:57 PM EST (0157 GMT)

TYLER, Texas (AP) -- A woman who claimed God ordered her to bash in the heads of her sons was acquitted Saturday of all charges after a jury determined she was legally insane during the killings.

A jury found that Deanna Laney did not know right from wrong May 9 when she killed her two older sons, ages 6 and 8, in the front yard and left the youngest, now 2, maimed in his crib. Laney, 39, was found not guilty by reason of insanity of charges of capital murder and serious injury to a child.

Laney broke into tears as the verdict was read. Her husband, Keith Laney, sat emotionless. A few jurors cried and struggled to maintain their composure.

State law allows Laney to be committed to a maximum security state hospital. Medical evaluations will dictate when she will be released.

In closing arguments earlier Saturday, prosecutors portrayed the killings last Mother's Day weekend as deceptively planned and coldly executed.

"It was graphic, it was horrific and it was brutal," prosecutor Matt Bingham told the jury.

Laney had faced life in prison for the deaths of 8-year-old Joshua and 6-year-old Luke, and the beating of Aaron, now 2.

Bingham pounded his fist in his hand as he recounted Joshua's killing: "He got strike after strike after strike on his head to the point that his brains were coming out of his head like liquid."

Defense attorneys argued that insanity was the only reason why a deeply religious mother who homeschooled her children would kill two of them and maim another without so much as a tear.

All five mental health experts consulted in the case, including two for the prosecution and one for the judge, concluded that a severe mental illness caused Laney to have psychotic delusions that rendered her incapable of knowing right from wrong during the killings -- the standard in Texas for insanity.

Psychiatrists testified that Laney believed she was divinely chosen by God -- just as Mary was chosen to bear Christ -- to kill her children as a test of faith and then serve as a witness after the world ended.

Prosecutors portrayed the killings as deceptively planned and coldly executed. They said that even if Laney believed she was doing right by God, she had to have known she was doing wrong by state law. Her first call, they pointed out, was to 911 to summon authorities.

Go see this

Exhaustion. Suffering. Turmoiled. One must wonder how long the human brain can take these stuff. But, luck for me, i am suffering from only 2 out of 3. Exhaustion and Suffering. You see, my body aches all over, i just discovered muscles that i never knew existed in the human body. The aftermath of a day of mass PE in school is not fun. Tomorrow, the lightning will strike again and i will probably die. It has not been even 2 days to rest my muscles before i exhaust it again.

Drama club was brillant today. It was fun and interesting. Had to act for a small skit that our group was suppose to come up with. I played the robber and was attacked by a dog(not a real one.) haha, was really funny. Had a ball of a time. I am sure i did Vickie proud. LoL, maybe it would have been better if i was not smiling so much. Imagine a smiling robber. O boy.

Anyways, school was fun, living day to day just like the past days. I really missed the 4.1 class, but then i realise, that should close that book and keep it in a place where no one can ever take it away, yet i fear for when my memory fails me.

Lit period was great and i frankly felt that it is cool to be able to analyse into something different. I have to do the merlion (miss nathan's - house tutor(form teacher)) homework. Bye

-dC-out-

Today collected year book. Too exausted from PE to elaborate on anything more. Have still not learnt to study everyday. Must tape smallville for dad later. And i wanna sleep. Had a nice dinner. My anticipated dinner since yesterday. shalll stop here.

A wave of restlessness swept over me. Thus my lack of mood in the studying department. However i would like to take the time to thank Kevin for the chat yesterday, today was a whole lot better in school. Maybe the fact that Andrew Matthews will be giving us a talk tomorrow helped alot. HAha, and his books will be sold tomorrow, no kidding, this time, it is for real. YAY!

The class had an outing today to eat lunch, guess tomorrow they will not be going out. I did not join them, did not feel up to it. Sigh, i mean, it is just burger king, so no point wasting my limited going out days. I must make sure i can go to the bbq thingy that yuying and the rest will be having, thus my saving these days. Candice and I talked till midnight yesterday. It was just blissful. Reminded me of those old days, where we would just sit and girl talk. (yes, girl talk, you did not see wrong famo.) Btw, in case ppl were wondering what a famo was, it is a person, a father mixed mother. Hmmm, interesting race right? i mean, interesting gender right? haha, j/k.

I am going out to eat, yummy! Goose liver, pasta, chocolate deserts. Oh my, yummy yum yum. Okay, i am thristy now, shall go grab a drink *dashes away*.

-back-dAmn. Not going out to eat anymore. *sob* No car so cannot go out, my mother is eating the car, i mean using the car, see la, my head is full of food only. anyways, my dad say tomorrow go out. I still don't see how it is possible, my mother will be using the car as well tomorrow. Stupid car, why must it choke up and go for repair, if not then i will be able to eat my pasta tonight. Wish the insurance company will faster approve the insurance thingy, and get the other car repaired ASAP. I mean, what rubbish , a mersaratti choking up cos the sports car exhaust pipe is lower thus whent there was the "flood" that time the water entered the engine and got it spoilt. Damn the ferrari ppl. take so long to repair a car.

I am sleepy now. Maybe shall take a nap, but i already asked my maid to make bread for me, haha, so what should i do? ok, the bread is here, so now i can eat then go to sleep. Forget about dinner, no mood liao.
-dC-out-

here is the class photo, sort of.
i apologise to those who may be insulted by the photos.Haha, enjoy y'all!


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Just gonna post smth i read from the message boards in the LnC page, so go check it out. Cos it would be quite inappropriate to paste it here.

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i was mad as you can see later on. Was alittle pyschotic posing for photos for the fun of it. LoL. check out my new hair cut:
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Ahhh!!! mad rite? well o well.....

********* early in the day
Only a bored person with nothing much to do would be blogging this early into the day. Go figure. Life is just life these days, living day to day like a machine, you just do things under repeat mode. Everything is just in a loop, everday...except Suday's and Saturdays that it. And it is a Saturday today. Still feeling alittle sick, but just the thought of not going to school makes me feel all better already.

Can't believe that my attitude towards having to go to school changed so much, back to Sec1-3 now, where i always dread having to wake up so early and go to school with nth to look forward to. Dun get me wrong i always hated the early mornings and early nights, but, in Sec 4. at least i knew that when i went to school, it would be fun, it would not be jsut plain old boring work. But it would be an educational experience instead. Maybe that is what school should be. Use to remember going to school and each time, something new will happen, there will be something to laugh about. Haha, something stupid or sad. It depends, but still. it is something new that we experience everyday. You feel like you belong. O well. Gotta stop thinking bout sec4, i aint there anymore. I am not in sec school anymore. No more KC. Must keep it locked up in a safe place and visit there when i feel down and out. Must learn to learn new things. Ok, shall do just that. God, do i really miss those days.

I was suppose to go and get the year book from school today, but it is 2.30 now and i have a feeling school's close by now.
STUPID. Should have just gone earlier. Now i regret it. NVM, on monday, i'll make it a point to go to school.

What's so great about JC? What rubbish it is when someone says "JC is the best 2 years of your life" I am a fool to believe them, should have just went ahead and went overseas, sure, it may be the same there, but at least i would have no regrets.

Regrets, what a nice words, easy to write, but painful when met with. Should have just went to Aussie or if possible US. I hate regrets. This JC life had better be worth it. With each passing day i go to school, the more i feel regretful that i did not make a decision then. Don't get me wrong, it is not that i hate anyone, or hate JC, but it is that, i don't know, just not there? I make no sense right? You know what? I shall take this as a life lesson, see that this is how the real world is, live with it or you will be left behind. Shall live with it. Life is like that, nothing is all good. People change, things change, enviroments change. Shall give it time, and with time i shall learn to accept school in JC.

Okay, enough bout that. I will be cutting my hair later. i will update with more later on.
-dC-

Hmm, i really need to say something in here cos i have no one to talk to. Never talk to candice so often now, cos got no time. I wonder, is the next 2 years without good friends(or friends like those in sec school) the price to pay for the last year of fun and laughter? If it is, then i will not give up last year for anything, even if it means that no good friends like the gong family and candice etc.

You see, i realise that, in JC people wear even more masks then they did back in Secondary school. Hmm, i feel like the ppl in the jc class hates me. (maybe i shall not give myself so much credit as to think they would even bother to hate me.) But, the girls in the class seem so fake. Looks is all they want. Like image means all. That a picture says a thousand words. True, they do, but you are not a picture. I mean, they are human, not art pieces. I feel out, (to put it in the simplest words) sigh, cant wait to go out with the old ppl. Make fools of ourselves, or just forget everything and enjoy. You know? Where image is not ever thing, but having a good time is the best. We can just sit on the floor at suntec by a plant and chat for an hour and laugh without needing anything. If i were to do that with the ppl in my class now, i doubt they would even sit on the floor. They would probably think it is embaressing(sp?) or smth along those lines..

We live in a materialistic world where people are constantly judge, cast into shells that will mould us, but do they not understand that we can change the mould, don't bother too much on what people think about you. I just don't get it. Why the big importance about image. Sure it is important, but it is not everything.

*draws a blank*

-dc-out.
Eh, lets take one day out to meet and watch a movie ppl. <== directed to the gong family.

Okay, have been holding back with my enteries in this blog. Benn busy. /liar/ OkOk, been tired. /pants on fire/ Fine! I have been lazy, /dun you feel better telling the truth?/ Oh shut uP!

Ok, now that i am over and done with my conscience i can update in peace. Hmm, if i have just wrote i was busy, even if it was a lie, would you have believed it? I guess you may have just taken my word for it. I realise that we are to guilable. We believe things to easily, it is a blessing and a curse. I mean, nothing is what it seems, and frankly speaking, sometimes, being guilable(sp?) can cause your downfall. So just a friendly note to all my psychotic readers "Nothing is what it seems."

No, nth happened to me, in case all of you were wondering "how come she so psychotic?" waitaminute, i *am* always like that. Hmm, well, something just made me think abt it la. Enough about what i think, more about what happened in school today.

-New addition to class. James.
-Lit teacher damn cool
-Lit teacher damn nice
-Lit teacher damn funny
-Lit teacher also damn old
::lol:: (I know you ppl, that is why i must state that he is old. Sigh, Simmie simmie, how can you think like that about your Dauson.)
-PE lesson is torture time
-PE lesson is prison.
-PE is smth i hate.
-Nathan was back in school
-She talked alot, lucky got no holy water bless me.
-Nathan very forgetful

Hmm, seems rude to say Nathan right? Shall rephrase myself. Miss Nathan. Someone came by today to check out the house, cos we wanted to redo the interior. I am going to revamp my room, get a new aircon cos mine is spoilt. Get a new bed. Get a new table. New Floor. New Mirror. New wallpaper. New.....oh for heavens sake. Just going to redo my room. Hmmm, but not certain yet. Cos must see how $$ first. Later too ex. WIll be ex, my father is like "I want a sound system in the living room, and it can connect to a speaker in each room, so they can play their music, and the song will come out in that particular room, or a few rooms can listen to radio at the same time. " I am thinking like 'Woah dude. The house is not a palace. The rooms are only so far away dude. Hmm....'

I want a sound system in my room, then got 4 speakers for super effect and all. Power. But the price also very POWERFUL. LoL. shall save up. Provided my room really does get a revamp. Then i wil consider saving for a set of speakers. At least better then saving for clothes. SHIT! cannot! i need to save for 'shopping', lol, PJ rach and me wanna go shop/hangout one day. So from what i know, need at least 70 bucks or 100. Die, must start saving.

Okay, i am still wondering what is the deal with ahgong coming and then going back? Quite weird lor. Ahgong, if you are reading this, "wha?" <---i wannt say to you.
Why come here for JC, then later go back to there for an exam and then come back here. That would mean studying for 2 years straight without a holiday. My god. I mean, (sec 4 till now you still did not have a proper holiday break lor.) Okies, gtg, byeeeeee...

-dC-out.