Exit Music (For A Film)

Wake from your sleep,
the drying of your tears,
Today we escape, we escape.

Pack and get dressed
before your father hears us,
before all hell breaks loose.

Breathe, keep breathing,
don't lose your nerve.
Breathe, keep breathing,
I can't do this alone.

Sing us a song,
a song to keep us warm,
there's such a chill, such a chill.

And you can laugh a spineless laugh,
we hope your rules and wisdom choke you.

And now we are one
in everlasting peace,

we hope that you choke, that you choke,
we hope that you choke, that you choke,
we hope that you choke, that you choke.

-end of song-

Song that was used for FWF exit/sleeping/praying scene.

-dC-

I have just realise something. I have been using alot of singlish in my posts here on the online journal. My new vow: No using singlish anymore.

I have to stop. I have to. Or else soon, i will become some singlish driven mad person. Ahhh!!!!

Ciao
-dC-

You're chocolate. You're the old soul type, people
feel that they have known you their entire
life. Many often open up to you for they view
you as thoughtful and trustworthy. Although
people trust you, you have a hard time trusting
them. You prefer to keep your feelings bottled
up inside, or display them very quietly. It is
alright to open up every once in a while.


Which kind of candy are you?
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I'm CHOCOLATE!!! YAY!!!! CHOCO! LOVE CHOCO!!! CHOCOlATE! woohoo! I did not cheat on the test hor, i am seriously a chocolate! YaY! But, i dun think this quiz is correct. I mean, hmmm, lets see, very few ppl would trust me just the minute they see me. It is hard to find ppl like that in this society. So i think eventhough i like chocolate, it may not be true for this quiz cos only the second half sounds like me.

LalALLAlaLa, this is turning out to be quite a good day.


Fight Club!


What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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"its a world where everyone hates each other"

The first thing that poped into my mind was, how true it it. We tend to hate everyone at one point of time whether it is smth big or small. Guess that is the way life is.


PASSIONATE LOVER. You love to love, always looking
for a relationship. You cannot live without it.
Your lover must be passionate and you want
that you and your partner melt into each other.
He/She should not try to take the domination .
You dont want a relationship without passion,
and the sexuality plays a big part. The first
moment you meet him/her is one of the most
important. There has to be something between
you , you cannot explain. From the first moment
on everything must fix. But when this passion
disappears you disappear to. For you it is
better to leave than to see your love
restrained.

PLEASE VOTE, I want to know what you think about my
quiz, I worked hard on it.You can always
message me or tell me how I can improve that
quiz. Ill sure write back.


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Erm... hmmm....eh..... dun ask me dude! I have no idea where this came from. *runs away* Honestly though, i decided to post this quiz as well cos i can't just post what is good but what is weird has to be posted as well.



Morpheus


?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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Your: Wondering eyes. Your not quite focused and
your quite the day dreamer. Your a bit odd and
as many say "Your head is in the
clouds."


What type of eyes do you have?
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HeY!! My head is not in the clouds!! That is unfair, dont drift away from reality ....okay, maybe sometimes. Okay! I am weird. But i am not a drifter nor a day dreamer, i'm telling you that.



Lonliness dominates you. You can hide it well, but
its there, and your friends can see it. You
constantly feel alone, and need to do things to
fill your time. Your afraid to tell people
this, but sooner or later it gets out in a bad
way, and you think you screwed up everything.
And when you are in love is when you are sad
the most. (Please Vote)


What Emotion Dominates you?
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Well, it has been nice doing all the quizes, but i am starting to stink up. Shall just post alittle....

*****

Dear Tan Jing Hui Sara,

Congratulations! I am pleased to inform you that you will be recieving a Merit Award for your outstanding achievement / contribution in 2003.

*****

YAY! Smth good today! Actually, today has been a good and bad day. Depends on how you see it. Well, the bad part is that i am not suppose to say dC , Dean Cain, Lois and Clark, etc etc. Ya, that is the down part. Up part is that there was drama and i got into their "exco" ( not real one la, just you send proposal then they will choose whether you can get in as a substitute. Real one will be later one then choose. And besides, they chose like 9 ppl, which is the amt of ppl who submitted their proposals). I have a feeling i will not get in, I KNOW i will not get it. Sigh, what to do!!!!

Planned a fairwell party for J2s today. Er, it will be on the 16th of June. At ECP ( not the express way, the park) 6 - 11+ . But, i feel it is a rather early farwell party as they may be leaving the cca in August, or so smone said. Well, wish all of those J2s the best of luck with their studies and outside school.


You have got to see this! Spiderman2 trailer!
it is OMG!

YuP, thats all! =)
-dC-

Just came back frm dinner. The fore gras (sp?) aka duck liver (they do not allow goose in s'pore) was over cooked. It was well, not say hard la, just not soft. Probably the 4th time i am eating it in the last week or last 1 and a half weeks. Bleah, want to puke it liao.


Had gone to try this new spanish restaurante (e is added on purpose) as wanted a change in eating places. Anyways, i asked my dad "you want to donate to the milk foundation?" and guess what he did? He sort of action squeeze his "boobs" haha... LoL, so funny. HAha.... in other news, the dinner was reasonable. The main course ; some rice thingy tasted really nice. YuM!

Have not done econs and it is near 9 alreay. Have to rush it, bye!

-dC-

Just came back frm dinner. The fore gras (sp?) aka duck liver (they do not allow goose in s'pore) was over cooked. It was well, not say hard la, just not soft. Probably the 4th time i am eating it in the last week or last 1 and a half weeks. Bleah, want to puke it liao.


Had gone to try this new spanish restaurante (e is added on purpose) as wanted a change in eating places. Anyways, i asked my dad "you want to donate to the milk foundation?" and guess what he did? He sort of action squeeze his "boobs" haha... LoL, so funny. HAha.... in other news, the dinner was reasonable. The main course ; some rice thingy tasted really nice. YuM!

Have not done econs and it is near 9 alreay. Have to rush it, bye!

-dC-

FinallY! The last PE in the next mth. yAY! Well, i have bruises on my arms due to the incline pull up. Dun ask how. Haha..... Well remember folks print out the fonts for the class t-shirt.

O guess what? I am feeling so 'oh-my-god!' sort of thing. There is this mother who said that her daughter just gave birth to a new baby. Then a few days later, guess what? the daughter posted pictures and announced that her mum had already said that she had given birth but she justed wanted to show everyone the photos. The best part is, it is like an LnC family!!!! wooHoo! The mother has been an LnC fan for so long and now the daughter who is an lnc fan but i did not know they were related just hitted me. WoaH!


That is the ultimate strenght of lnc. It never cease to amaze me.

-dC-

Well, i should be studying for elasticity of demand and supply, yet somehow my gut says, i'm too tired just thinking abt tml's PE.

More on today.
School was okay. Had math after school, had xtra econs lesson, then later nathan said to stay back until 5.10 to have the leadership camp where they just gave us a form and told us the date as to when we will be futher briefed on the issue.


Then went out for dinner with my family, was a blast! Laughed and joked. Tried this new jap place today. Was nice, then my mother asked whether wanted to bet on the price of the dinner, loser will have to pay for the next dinner, so i said sure. I bet 420, my bro said close to 4 ard 390-410, my mum say 320. Haha, guess what was the price? 417 bucks! So i won! My dad paid for the diner, but the next one will be paid by my mum and she will suffer cos my dad will order loads of food and wine. Hahaha, enjoy yourself mum. BwhaaHaHHAHah!

Lovely.

What a lovely day, then got a call from liv saying to tell charissa to call nathan, and she did, but nathan nv scold, which is great! wonder what was nathan high on?

-dC-

You should be an Aries, your Outgoing, smart, and
Strong, but you sometimes can be arrogant,
insecure, and jealous.


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Went to Paragon to eat today. Saw this 2 eurasian(sp?) Chicks. Damn nice looking! and their height! OMG, look so good. I think one of them must have been 175? and the other maybe 180. But anyways, they looked really elagant. And their bodies were really nice looking. Looked like models. Their hairstyle was the best. So fun. Anyways, was there to eat lunch. My dad bought me and my bro a new watch. Love it. Thanks dad!


Slacked the whole day. Wanted to do work, but then i am feeling too "weird?" no idea what word la. Well, got proposal for the drama to do. The essay for the creative writing. And got the wind poem to do, but i have not done cos i can't be bothered.

HOW!? got to have motivation. I have motivation to go to school. But, waitaminute. I just found a reason to do homework. Shall start tml. heehee, wanna enjoy today.

-dC- sorry for not making sense.

I am 24% evil.




I try to stay away from evil deeds but succumb to temptation every once in a while. I'm not quite on my way to hell but I certainly have some explaining to do.


Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com

This is what has been on my mind for the...well... for the whole time i have been in JC. Just did not want to write it out. However, inspiration hit me today.



JC is going to be the best 2 years of my life ( or so i am trying to make myself believe)

But honestly, i think it really is. You see all the different types of people whom you hate in school, and that is a good thing, because futhur on in life, you will meet more people who will hate you, who will be your friend and then use you. That is real life, and that is what JC is abt. At least from my POV.


Long gone are the days of good ol' friend ship. Ahead are the days of hate, turmoil, betrayal, hurt, anger, fear, jealousy, being abandoned, alone. Things like that. It is the best thing for us i guess. It makes me learn how to deal with these type of things. So next time, if i were to work, these are the things that will be there. Do what you can, to achieve the best for yourself.


I speak from my heart. I am not trying to convince myself, because i guess i knew it all along and just decided to deny it. Life is not simple. In fact simple is the understatement of the millenium. You think you can find true friends in JC? Ha! Naive people you all are. You think everyone who is your friend are just friends? How stupid can one be.


One in a dozen of your friends are really friends. One in a million can be considered best friends. It is just that simple. In Secondary school half the time the people who are friends are really friends. Here? Hmmmm, lets see.... 1/100 of the time they are friends. They others? well lets say aquiantances are probably the better word to use.


I mean, sure, friends can be found easily, provided you are a lucky person. Sigh, i guess we got to realise to differentiate the difference for ourselves. Friends are those who do not harm you. They are those whom you know you can trust to keep a secret. Anyways, this is just a tip. Treasure who you have before they change to become true Dogs of Singapore. I am sure my friends won't, will you?


Anyways, going to be playing football tomorrow for the games carnival. The worst( or should i say best?) part is that i am the only one from my class going to play with the J2. How nice. Well, i don't mind playing anything that has got something to do with a ball!!!! FINALLY! Have not touch a got damn ball for so long! I miss BASKETBALL! Sigh. I miss TENNIS! golf...


hMm, and i remember the time our class(4/1) won the floorball competetion don't you guys? the screams of joy from those in the sides and those who were playing. Heehee..... somehow i wish i had great grandma Vanessa to play in tomorrows floorball competetion the class is playing in tomorrow. BTW, vanessa was playing in what level of competetion when she was in Thailand? Erm, she was representing her International school where they won the championship last time. Well like i have been telling myself, life changed. We are not in Sec school no more. Can't keep dwelling can we? sigH.

-dC-

HATE MERLION

-dC-

Faerie:
Faeries are sweet loving beings who love to help
people. They are not held back by reality and
love to dream and fly around. You probably are
very creative and although not the most popular
person in the world you are probably loved by
many for your sweet caring personality.


What Mythological Creature Are You (Many Results and Beautiful Pics)
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Fairy/Sprite Wings


What Kind of Wings are You?
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I really liked one question. What appeals most ..speed....floating....dancing.... spinning.... flying at nigh blah blah. I picked the flying one. I love to have the power to fly. To be removed of all the bonds that tie us down. I would love to be free and feel in control when i want to. I want to feel like i have the whole world(sky)... and i want to feel like i could be free yet not be totally free , if you get what i mean. I want to love the feel of air against my face and soaring through the air. The sky's the boundary.

-dC-

Not a day goes by - Lonestar


Got a picture of you I carry in my heart
Close my eyes to see it when the world gets dark
Got a memory of you I carry in my soul
I wrap it close around me when the nights get cold
If you asked me how I'm doin' I'd say just fine
But the truth is baby, if you could read my mind

Not a day goes by that I don't think of you
After all this time you're still with me it's true
Somehow you remain locked so deep inside
Baby, baby, oh baby, not a day goes by

I still wait for the phone in the middle of the night
Thinkin' you might call me if your dreams don't turn out right
And it still amazes me that I lie here in the dark
Wishin' you were next to me, your head against my heart
If you asked me how I'm doing I'd say just fine
But the truth is baby, if you could read my mind

Not a day goes by that I don't think of you
After all this time you're still with me it's true
Somehow you remain locked so deep inside
Baby, baby, oh baby, not a day goes by

Minutes turn to hours, and the hours to days
Seems it's been forever that I've felt this way

Not a day goes by that I don't think of you
After all this time you're still with me it's true
Somehow you remain locked so deep inside
Baby, baby, oh baby, not a day goes by


-dC-

THEY say that "time assuages",--

Time never did assuage;

An actual suffering strengthens,

As sinews do, with age.

Time is a test of trouble,

But not a remedy.

If such it prove, it prove too

There was no malady.
-anonymous-
-taken frm LnC fanfic-
-dC-

just played the year 300 game. Got as far as 3917... yay!

-dC-

Hello.

Just now, Pel (pelican) a LnC fan sent me the 'bright lights' piano scores. I had posted a message on the boards asking for the scores and she replied (i think it is a she). Anyways, she is frm Norway. So cool. Well, she said that if i needed anymore scores i can just ask her as she may have them. Sigh, i told her that i had to go away from the com and she said that she had to feed the horses too. OMG! she has horses. So good. Wish i had a horse to play with. Haha, ok, gtg eat. Ciao
Dinner time!

-dC-

A quote as to what this person commented on Smallville:

"
This series should be renamed Assumptionville, because everyone assumes Clark has a secret and Loder assumed Pete knows the secret and Lex assumed Pete knows the secret and so on. Why no assumption that Lana knows the secret? Wouldn't he have told the love of his life? The girl who took his breath away during finger-painting in kindergarten? That's why the rest of the episode doesn't have a valid point."

LOL! I agree.... haha, gonna go swimming later. Been sitting down rotting the whole day.

-dC-

I really do wish this....

.: Celine Dion - The Prayer :.

I pray you'll be our eyes
And watch us where we go
And help us to be wise
In times when we don't know

Let this be our prayer
As we go our way
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your Grace
To a place where we'll be safe
La luce che to dai

I pray we'll find your light
Nel cuore restero
And hold it in our hearts
A ricordarchi che
When stars go out each night
L'eterna stella sei
Nella mia preghiera
Let this be our prayer
Quanta fede c'e
When shadows fill our day
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your grace

Give us faith so we'll be safe.
Sognamo un mondo senza piu violenza

Un mondo di giustizia e di speranza
Ognuno dia la mano al suo vicino
Simbolo di pace e di fraternita

La forza che ci dai
We ask that life be kind
E'il desiderio che
And watch us from above
Ognuno trovi amore
We hope each soul will find
Intorno e dentro a se
Another soul to love

Let this be our prayer
Let this be our prayer
Just like every child
Just like every child

Needs to find a place,
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
E la fede che
Hai acceso in noi
Sento che ci salvera

***

Today, the class sang the 'If we hold on' song while we were awaiting the end of PW. My eyes teared up, no one noticed, and i am glad. A solitary tear rolled down my cheeks. And i remember all the times. I remember us singing happily. I remember those happy moments. Those sad moments. Those times where we did not even shed a single tear when we left Secondary school because we know that we will still be friends it did not mark an end, but a beginning. However, with beginning just like end comes tears and loneliness.

I pray that all of you will find hapiness be it in school or at work.
I pray that all of you will find the ones you were meant to love.
I pray that all of you will find someone to love you back the way you were meant to be.
I pray that all of you will reach that point in life where you realise that the whole world is on standstill and you are the only one that mattered. That what you were doing was the most important thing and nothing else mattered even if it was not the most important thing. As, that is when you will realise you do not care, that you will find that silent courage, and hold onto it, brace it with open arms, and be yourself.

Forget those who hated you.
Forget those who hurt you.
Forget those who say bad things about you.

Thank them instead. For their hurtful words made you stronger. Made you all the friends i know. Those years of loneliness made you built up your own character and not follow other's character. Made you uniqe, made you worth cherishing. Made you worth noticing. Made you worthy of your own self. And most of all, made you all, yourself.

This is another song for you guys...

If We Hold On

Don't lose your way with each passing day.

You've come so far,

Don't throw it away!

you all have gone this far in life. 16 years. 17 years. Full of sadness and hapiness. You have found yourself, now hold on.

Live believing dreams are for weaving.

Wonders are waiting to start.

Live your story,

Faith, hope and glory!

I guess all of us have our own destiny eh? Our own life. But like the song says. Live your story. Not others. You do not need to be them to get accepted. I am sure you know that you can be accpeted the way you are.

Hold to the truth in your heart.

If we hold on together.

I know our dreams will never die.

One in JC, one in Poly, one in KC. Big deal? Nah! Cos, it does not matter, we all still know that we want. And that we are going to be friends. So what if we do not talk as much. So what if we do not see one another as much. So what if we forget one another when we grow old and white. As long as right now, we all hold on tightly to our friendship.

Dreams see us through 'till forever,

As clouds roll by

For you and I.

Souls in the wind must learn how to bend.

Seek out a star,

Hold on 'till the end!

Valley, mountain, there is a fountain!

Washes our tears all away

You got to accept change because it happens all the time. So, to say the least, accept it and make it a good worth while change.

Waves are swaying.

Someone is praying, "Please let us come home to stay."

If we hold on together,

I know our dreams will never die.

Dreams see us through 'till forever,

as clouds roll by,

for you and I.

When we are out there in the dark,

we reach up for the light!

In the dark, we'll find the light,

warm our hearts,

ev'ry one.

If we hold on together,

I know our dreams will never die.

Dreams see us through 'till forever!

As high as souls can fly!

The coulds roll by

for you and I!

***

Like the song said. Dreams see us through 'till forever. =)

I hope you will dream the greatest dream.
I pray you will feel what i mean.
I want you to touch the sky
And make your dreams all mine.
So i can keep them close
And return it when you need it most.
To let it be your blanket
When you feel like you are in dept.
So one day,
You will soar through the sky.
And fly,
Across the bay.

I know it is not good, but i hope at least you got what i meant.
cya.

-dC-

You are guided by the wind. You obey your impulses.
You are the kind of person that is always comng
up with ideas that would be fun, yet somewhat
destructive. (Rate my test)


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You're just the happy go-lucky type. You might have
your pet peeves, but other than that, you're
mainly calm. Blending in with your
surroundings, you're the type of person who
everyone likes. Usually it's you who cracks
jokes at social gatherings - after all,
laughter is the best medicine. Sometimes you
pretend to be stupid, but in all actuality, you
could be the next Einstein.


What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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I dun agree with the everyone likes. But if i like them, i am sure they will like me. BwhaHaHa. So if you dun like me, well i never said i liked you either. Ha!


Lonliness dominates you. You can hide it well, but
its there, and your friends can see it. You
constantly feel alone, and need to do things to
fill your time. Your afraid to tell people
this, but sooner or later it gets out in a bad
way, and you think you screwed up everything.
And when you are in love is when you are sad
the most. (Please Vote)


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Ya, feel especially lonely now adays. No one to talk crap to and ignore the crap i say without caring. No one to say what i want to. No one to be my friend. At least as far as i know, i am just well, just that, nothing. No idea, go to school, see ppl, go home, see noone.


schizotypal


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Haha, weird.

See this... Funny Video

LoL...very cute. Anyways, school was fun and terrible. Depends on the beginning or the end of the school day. *sigh*

PW was boring as usual. Thanks Jeremy for helping me burn the cd! Hmm, the class was singing away towards the end of the day. And well, nth much happen la. I talked to Cherie during PW and we walked ard. tt's bout it.

I ask you , is 20k to go to USA to study in NYU (new york Uni) cheap?
I dun think that is the price. But, if it is. Is it cheap? especially compared to 16k to study in Aussie.

-dC-awaiting a reply to the qn

First up, i would like to apologise to the 'tenners' cos i did not tell them i am not going to school, thus i guess James probably thought i was going to collect the keys but i din. Sorry ya'll.
I did not go to school today. My leg hurts. I know saying that my leg hurts is a lame excuse, but that's the truth. Maybe that and that fact that i am too tired to wake up. Going to see the doctor later, and i have to get an MC cos Nathan will kill me if i dun get one. Hope doc. goh will issue an MC for me.


My back aches too. I wonder what is everyone doing for PE later?

Secondly,Will we get the Othello results back? I'm sure i will fail it. I am wondering...

Is there a life after death? What is truth, and what is real? I know that the what is truth what ia real thing is copied from the Fires, but i really wonder, what is really the truth, what is really real. Is what you are feeling real? is it the truth? Or just another figment of our imaginations? Is what you see really what others see?

I did wonder before, is the blue you see is their red and the purple you see was their blue, maybe everyone really likes the same color, just different eyes see them with different names. I know i am reaching, but it does cross my mind. Maybe everyone is not that different after all, only the names differentiate all of us.

Who really knows what is the truth. I can tell you i am Sara. But do you really know that for sure? Some people change their names (i did not) so i guess all we have to go on is what we see and hear. and to us we think it is the truth. But no one really knows what is going on.

*gone to doc*
*back*

Apparently i have a sprained Knee. No wonder it hurts. I got an MC for today and excuse frm PE for tuesday. Woohoo.... well... gtg eat soon, ciao.

Sorry for waking you up just now MoRi3.





Which Royalty Are You? Find out! By Nishi.


-dC-

I am about to sleep, and i wanted to ask smth.

Do you remember helmi?! When do you want him to trest us? hmm, preferbly sooon...haha

Do you remember the charades that we played? and then we act out like for eg

Helmi: Fame

-all run to do the jumping jack look alike thingy- or the ballet thingy-

H: Chinese Ochestra

*pretend to play the instruments*

****

those were teh great times. Haha, then the 'hulk' thing that i did that did not look like hulk at all. O, and the fact that miss low was seeing and mrs leong. Then Helmi asked us to act as Miss low as well. Haha..... lol.... oh, the great memories. I rememeber these were done as "warm ups" before teh performance. The best warms ups ever man.

-dC-

I am screwed. Have NOT VOTED yet. dAMN! i came home, found the website i was suppose to log onto. But guess what? That website only opens for sch computers! f**k. any idea what i should do?

OMG! Velocity is on tonight. Velocity = smallville episode = Ryan Merriman

YAY!!!! A good reason to watch smallville tonight. And no, i am not insane to watch Smallville. I am just watching it for RM.

Anyhoz, guess what? TNS was here today. The performance was brillant, smart as well. Really touching, my eyes teared up. The part where the girl "died" 3 times and all and later she said "just keep swimming" eventhough there was no swimming in the whole story at all was the best part.


Dudes! Guess what?! Remember the cow print dress/thingy you all wore for the FWF? the main actress was wearing it! Hmm, think there might be a significance behind it? I think i feel there is, but for those who never see FWF would not have known? I don't think it is intentional.


I miss watching those TNS type of plays, something deeper behind it rather then what you see at face value. Cos in life, nth is at face value.


Well, got the leadership camp on 7th of June. Hmmm cosplay on 6th eh? I dun have any costume yet Simmie! Well, we'll see how it goes, when you get ur costume tell me, i might join you all, but i need a rough estimation of the $$.


School was great and all, PE was better. Hmmm, this reminds me, i have to vote 4 the council. Who to vote. I know who i wanna vote for the SC but i do not know abt the CAC at all! die, how to vote. NVM, shall eeny meeny mineey mo! Xp Tomorrow i get to leave at 11am, to help with the Drama SYF. I also skipped the lit extra lessons today. Hope miss rajan does not take it out of the class cos i think half the class was gone. If i a not wrong.


Hmm, just ate, and boy am i full. My parents are in Bangkok now. they'll be coming on friday.

Ciao for now
-dC-

Guess what!?!?!?!?!? TNS IS COMING TO SCH TML!!!! OH MY GOD!!!! WOOOH!!! i am estatic, i mean, i cant wait to see the performance. Hmm, must be good. Hope that i can get a glimse of some familar faces. Hmm, dun think Sean will be there, how about nathalie? O well, no matter. I forgot i need to interview Serena, do you think she will mind? I got to ask her some qns abt the ARts Scene in S'pore.


I have a feeling by the time i get back tml, i will have written an essay of the 'good times' or another poem. I have actually written 2 more already, but i don't know whether i should post it, they are not good, but i am trying to write what i feel. So, bear with me.


Before i post the poem shall just say alittle more bout my day. I got the math test result back 13/20 :cry: should have studied. Did quite bad. *Sigh*. it is 65/100 when converted and that is okay. But the main thing is that when it is not converted it is really bad. It is like barely passing. Had to do chinese essay today and i realise all the chinese shows i have been watching and gluing myself to in the previous months has come to no use. May have even gotten worse. Econs test was shit. i screwed up the diagrams cos i did not read it properlY!!! ARgH! Oh boy. okay, here goes nothing.... ppl who do not want to read can dun read. Cos it is like irrelevant........


The smell of fresh bread,
Filled my mind,
As i remember those times.

No need for tears,
No need for hate.
They would all fade away,
When we saw the bay.

The margate river,
Remember the bite
How tears flowed from her eyes,
And we 'wiped' it all away.

11th November
I fell to the ground.
Along the slipery walks,
of just 'The Gap'

'Ouch' We shouted,
Blood spilled out.
Cuts on arms,
But deepest in mind.

Those wire 'cages',
Or so we named.
The ones that showed us,
And made the joy and pain.

'Neverending' green there was,
In the chapel with laughter.
The stations of the cross,
And the poor desolated cow.

Graduation, a night long awaited.
But, a night it was not.
The light shown bright,
And day it was.

We gracefully walked in,
Taking in everything.
Our hair held stiff,
Sprayed with 'glue'.

We laughted
We cheered
We walked out of there.

Speeches were made,
as we jumped in the arcade.
Shouts of laughter,
Tears of sadness.

Remember the cruise,
The picturisque sunrise.
The tai chi mornings,
Miss Soo turning.

Remember the pink elephant?
The dancing ah gong?
The painted walls?
The magic trucks?

All these stolen,
Away from us.
But one still remains
That cannot be touched(stolen by time).

Our Hearts.

The light of hope still burns bright,
As we remember those times with our might.

The end!

peace out folks! -dc-

The dinner last night was superb. The young china gymnasts are really good. alot of leg power and arm strengh. The girls legs had alot of muscles. The people who do gymnastics are usually 'short"(direct quote frm my mum's friend), and they are apparently able to grow fat easily if they do not work out. That is what my mum's friend says. I agree, i saw these kids and they were all really petite. The guys however were not short, which was weird, cos how can it work only one sided? Hmm, but the guys were really strong and the girls were very graceful.


Had partially cooked cold goose(duck) liver. Suppose to be goose liver, but the singapore goverment do not allow goose to be imported in, thus singapore use Ducks and conviniently call it goose liver cos it taste bout the same, goose liver taste better though. Saw alot of Ferraris and sports cars, fell in love with the cars, the noise of the engine can put me to sleep, lound but very elagant and it was just nice. Though to others it is 'lound, noisy and irritating'.


There was an auction going on as well. Can you imagine bidding 700bucks for a normal ferrari shirt? but the money goes to MILK charity (Mainly I Love Kids Charity) The Lee foundation donated 100,000 smackaroos. The dessert was the best parT! Got itallian dessert and chinese dessert. Din like the chines one, but the 2 itallian ones were nice. And the sorbet was really cool, chrysanthemum flavour. Then the tea pot was coming out smoke cos got dry ice really funny. I will be posting the pictures on a diff link soon. Uncle Ben spent ard 2500 dollars on raffles tickets my dad spent 500 dollars. Uncle Ben was the one who invited us cos he bought a table, one table costs 1,200 dollar for ferrari owners and 1,500 for non owners. My dad said he did not mind getting a table, but has no one to invite. Afterall it is for a good cause.


Tag board got erase got to go and get it back, but must wait till tag-board.com is up and running again.
Got econs to study and lit to do. Econs is doomed. Sigh.

Going to add some icons to this page.

-dC-

Lalalala, today school was horrible, actually it was okay, till math test came and i probably flunked. then Ms Nathan was a pain in the a**, honestly feel like smacking some sense into her sometimes, but she can be okay at times too. I think there was a slight implication of sex in it. Cant remember already.


Went to Parkway! I spent 200++ bucks of my mothers money. MuahahHaHaHa, i wonder if she still dare say i am kiam siap. Haha, but i mean, 200 bucks is okay, considering the fact that i do not buy clothes. I cant believe that i went shopping. Met Michelle and Rebecca. Told some stupid jokes and chilled for awhile. Skipped dinner for shopping and then went to watch Van Helsing!


Van Helsing ROCKS!
Hugh Jackman looks good in it, damn! hahaha........ but the show was *powerful!* really great effects. Got a little headache suddenly though. Nachos was my dinner. Ate during the movie. I cannot believe i changed my attitude so much. Used to hate Nachos cos they were terrible tasteless stuff covered with cheese. And last time i would not even shop. After going to LV, came back liking nachos and not minding to eat Tofu oso. Haha.....


The show is really great. Oh, and if anyone wants to know something.... MaMaMia is coming to S'pore. Go catch it!!! Very funny, can lighten up ur day. you will have a good time, provided you are not sulking or forcing urself to pin point all the mistakes.

quote :
" When you have eliminated the impossible, however improbably the answer, must be the truth. " - Sherlock Holmes.

-dC-

I am so happy! PE for the week is finally over. And guess what!? I can barely walk properly, my legs threaten to give way each time i try to take a step. Learnt bout Poems today. Ms Nathan made a normal Jack and Jill poem, and inserted SEX into it. Mad.


Anyways, lalala. no idea what to type in here. I bought the blueberry drink that last time while sitting at MPH and "studying" or reading books we would share and drink. Heehee. O well.


Lit was screwed up. Flunked it, first time in so long i am scared abt my results again. I mean last year i was also like that. But first time in so long that i am really scared cos i never really study. *sigh*


Hmmmm, on sat is the Ferrari dinner. Hmmm, wonder if i still can fit into the dress that i tried earlier in the week. Not even sure which one i wanna wear. My mum wants me to wear this really weird dress, which is like, erm , so old fashion. Actually no la, just really hmm, mature i shall say. But dun care what i wear, as long as the food there is GOOD! Which i am sure it is. OOO, hmmm, western or chinese.... hmm, hope it is western, i mean french. Then can eat goose/duck liver (different restaurants diff name) , and got snails. Heehee..... hungry liao


Tonight going to order KFC..... lalalalala.......


LOIS AND CLARK ROX!!! Such a warm and lovely show.
THE PRETENDER ROX!!! Such a smart show. I love smart and warm and loving shows. Sigh, damn.


Well, gtg.
-dC-out

Today had PE, cheated alittle, suppose to run 10 rounds (10 rounds = 5km or 4++km) but ran 7 rounds i think. Tiring, then ran here and there, now my tail bone hurts. Think i injured it, which means, PE = bad health. I also hurt my back lor, at least i strained it while doing the god-know-what it is.


I have a question to ask. D.E.N.T, what is with the Coconut treeS?! Each time i think coconut, i think monkey in the KingKong game on a coconut tree, or something like that. Some game with a monkey on the tree. :S


Today at chinese, we all went onto each others blog and looked ard. Smth bout coconut trees again. Hmmmm...... maybe should put a fake tree in the classroom. Nathan is not in school today! WooHoo!!!! I have had it up to *here* -puts hand close to the top of head- with her. Someone help her!


I need help, i heard the song on the radio, 2 good songs, i forgot the name! one of them is the in the new advert for perfect10. Can anyone help? Thanks!


O, did you wonder how come when you get a cut you see ppl saying "ouch". But in the movies, when you get stab or shot and you are dying, they have all the "look after my family. I love them. Tell them i love them. Look after my dog. " Stuff like that. But you don't hear a person say. *bang* "ouch!!!!! AHH!!! IT HURTS!" or hear them "AHH!!! if this shot does not kill me, the pain will." They only act 'in pain' when they are going to live cos the shot is in the leg or shoulder. Not when it is a vital shot or stab. Just wondering


-dC-

8.30 pm

eeeeee!!!! Winter Sonata is so terrible. I mean, Yuck! Sad ending. 2 lover who love each other in the end do not end up together, then later on when they meet again, the girl i married and the guy is blind, and eventhough by right they should not be together, They kissed!! What rubbish, i mean, ArGH! if it was in the US i would not be saying anything, it is cos it is in Korea and ppl do not kiss as a hello. SesH! "......." What rubbish!!!!! AH!!!! how come like that! no happy ending, instead a terrible one. Dun get what's so good bout it. It is long winded oso. If it was a happy ending i would not mind watching. But it is a sad one, so i shall not rewatch it. :(


Lavender and At The Dolphin Bay still is better, ATDB has a happy ending, Lav has a sad one cos she died but at least they ended up together. Lois and Clark(LnC) is still the beST! WooHooo!!!!!haha, soulmates who end up together and live happily ever after. What a nice story. And besides, it is not all sweet, they had their fair share of trouble, break up here and there near marriages, kidnapping, cloning, the non-wedding arc. EcK! haha, but true love conquers all.......


*****

5pm

Okay, today was fun,Lalala, sort of dun remember what happened, but something cool i remember! Daniel said he used to watch LnC, hahah which is WAY COOL! WooHooo! so i am not the only weirdo who watched it eh? No biggies, cos i am still the only weirdo who watch it now, and download the eps that i can find...lalalala,


MISS NATHAN IS ABSENT!!!! haha, hope this is so for tml as well. Suppose to be bathing now, but i wanna update the blog before i go and shower. Lala, feel so good! I mean, it is great without merlion!! haha, i may want to buy a Discman, cos mine is not playing well, it sort of stops here and there and does not want to read properly, or not play the cd, eversince i dropped it in school. I forgot to bring the Anime/ drawings that simmie did to show Jeremy. so, shall remember to bring it tml. Tonight got alaska crab to eat, my mother bought and she will cook some seafood porridge. must start to practice now... "it is nice" "it is nice" must practice cos when my mother ask, i have to say "it is nice".


Oh one more thing, i will be going to a 'Ferrari Dinner' YAY! coco will be there.....

Following is for anyone who is bored and to the gong family!

Sitting here in my chair, *my* chair I realize this was probably all I have to say these days…. “This is mine! Mine this, mine that” Where is the ‘ours’ that I used to say once so frequently. The bitterness still stains my mouth. I just do not want to accept that it is all over, but then again, it is not, it is only the beginning. I am starting to see this process as a life lesson, the ultimate test. Sure, we were once so close, but this will make us closer, if we survive this, we will be closer than ever. I realized something, when I had them in Sec 4 I never really thought about them this much, snicker to myself in public as I have flashbacks. Entertaining myself with what Simmie would have said or how Marlz would have reacted, the way Tawn would be against some issues. It just makes it all better. I remember them all way better than I did when I saw them. When I saw them, I just took them, never really having them.

The smell of the fresh lavenders in the fields would fill my mind with peace, the laughter echoed in my hollow mind, the happiness felt in my heart. The lamas and the way we plotted on how to put Simmie’s face on the lama’s body and present it to the whole school, even though we never plucked up enough courage to see it through. I am sitting here with a smile plaster on my face, like a grinning joker from batman. I remember the slip I took when I was on the gap, I landed with a slat. The concern that was in their laughter was really heart warming. The bull ant that snacked on Tawn. The tears that fell from her face, as she sniffed in pain. I fell a sense of achievement when Tawn’s arm felt better. I know I did not do much, but the fact I tired made it all better for me. I guess that is how close I am to all of them. When they feel better, so do I.

I remember the time where we were in a quarrel, with one or another. The SS debate, the debate with Vic, the loooong argument with Simmie,grace and others on the issue of religion. I remember the dedication we sent out. The fresh tears are stinging my eyes as I think back. I guess I really do miss them all a whole lot, miss YOU all a whole lot. I mean, it is once in a life time that I would find such a great group of friends. I know we may grow apart, but I feel that even if we do, we will still be close. Not because of the fact we are friends, but the fact that we have cried and laugh through all. Not many will be able to say, :” we cried our hearts out together when something we put our hearts into was striped to it’s bones” but we can. It is not everytime you can say:” We had a great time together in Perth, or that we had a Helluva time in the cruise.” I can proudly say all these.

But as I go to school everyday, I think back on the gang. It saddens me to see that I cannot enjoy our stupidity and terrible singing in school anymore. I cannot deny that it was fun to have a teacher siding with us, correction, teachers. Haha, to state a few :” Miss Soo, Mrs Leong, Miss Davie” etc.

I can feel the tears drop, but they are tears of joy, if you believe me. I feel that this story probably means a lot more than the poem, cos when I had written the poem, I did not put as much thought into it. I mean, I used my mind to think back, but I did not really use my heart to write but my mind.

Well, gtg, ciao~!

HeLLo aLL! haha, i am in a gooooooooooooooooooooood mood today, MuaaHaHHAa, cos i love sundays! It is the slowest day of the week!! WoohOO! I want to shout out a 'thank you' to MoRi3 my nigga, darling Marlz;), and TAWN!!!! haha, well, thanks for sticking by me, but no worries ya?

Btw, look at my previous post, the one with the poem, the first letter of each verse spells out.... THE END. yup, like a story book. Like a disney show, where things end with a happily-ever-after scenerio. Thats what i think abt our friendship, a beautiful story, with its ups and down, times when we do not even talk to one another, and times where we would cry together.



Look
and See
Listen
and Hear
Feel
and Experience
Maybe you'll know
you'll realise then
eyes open
what and who
am I


This quote was something i picked up a long time ago, along with the rest of the quotes that i would jot down for fun. How such simple words like these, can mean so much more than the surface.

-dC-

OOO, guess what?!?!? i got smth funny for you to see. LMAO, real funny: click here

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I know i am not good at writing poems, but this is to my friends in KC.

T he passing year of hope and wonder,
had met its end when JC came.
The emptiness came back haunting,
Killing slowly with its loneliness.

Hollowness took its place,
and sitting here I'm feeling the pain.
How friends i loved once before,
can dissapear when life came in.

Ending that chapter,
a new one starts.
The imprints can still be seen,
a mark left never to be erased.

Everlasting sweet tears flow through my veins,
can you smell the lavender in the fields?
The moo-ing of the self made cow?
The tears shed when we tore it apart.

Neverending hapiness we may claim,
together forever we always write.
But the thing about bitter life is that it's never true,
to have your wish come true.

Dare I say we'll be forever friends?
be it only once a year we meet.
Forget not those deals and meetings,
for example 14:02:04

Yuying, Famo, Twins, Rach, Vic,
PJ, Sharon, Grace, Charmaine
Remeber the deal
And see it through!!!
Or forever I'll haunt you,
I'll see that through!



I know it is really terrible, but i really mean it, hope we will be friends, cos it would kill me to lose that all. See la, i am talking in poem mode now, *snaps out of it*. Okay, now i am back to myself. But like i say, this poem is to anyone who is my friend. So, candice this is to you too and fiona and the previous animal farm. HeehEee.

'Gang', do you remember this song? haha the one we always sang and seranated(sp?) loads of ppl with...well...this is a tribute to you, ( i can't sing so just post the lyrics can liao okies?):

Only You - The Platters

Only you can make oh this world seem right
Only you can make the darkness bright
Only you and you alone
Can thrill me like you do
And fill my heart with love for only you

Only you can make oh this change in me
For it's true you are my destiny
When you hold my hand I understand
The magic that you do
You're my dream come true
My one and only you

Only you can make this change in me
For it's true you are my destiny
When you hold my hand I understand
The magic that you do
You're my dream come true
My one and only you


I know we never did get past the first paragraph(i think). Haha, but o well....

btw, i know who is the one pretending to be me, if i am not wrong But i am not going to say who, cos dun care. And thanks rt, marlz and morie, but its okay. Dun bother bout it. All i want to know is how am I irritating that person. Anyways, love ya'll.

-Saranaufogus-Pelican-