blah blah blah blah blah.... bored.... the olympics is showing right now. I want to go to taka! damn... hmmm check THIS out! it is funny.... nyways, nth much to update bout.

Had aikido yesterday. Damn tiring sia. Can die. and now i am kinda aching all over. But not as bad as when we had PE.

-sara-

Its been quite some time since I updated eh? Well, I have been quote caught up with the Drama production which btw went quite well!

I am quite please with what was managed to be accomplish in the short time span we were given to be dealt with. A rollercoaster of emotions came to an end too during the time since sch started till now. The different feel of JC is starting to settle in, yes, I am sloooow, so what? And I feel that candice’s classmates are really “on” too, perhaps that is what made it so easy for her to fit in. That and the fact that there is another KC person in her class so she does not seem as alienated as I may have felt at first.

Birds fly together right? Somewhat like the way clans are formed and cliques too. But do these images make up for the lack of personality? I highly doubt that is possible. It is a wonder how many new things can be discovered when you sit down to listen and to observe what is going on around you instead of what is in front of you.

“ I have a dream, a dream that one day my four little children grow up in a nation where they will be judge not by the color of their skin, but for the content of they character. I have a dream today! “ Martin Luther King Jr. I memorized it. In abt a minute during GP when that quote came up. I think I may have gotten the name wrong and a couple of parts wrong, but the basic essence is still evident. Why judge by how one appears to be on the outside? Why not judge by how one is in the inside? How many of us want to walk about saying “ oh we do not judge a book by its cover. We see the inner person “ But how many of us *constantly* fall for the cover of the book? How many of us actually believe what another was saying just because you think you can trust them even if they had not presented anything substantial to say that? I think all of us at one point or another.

I wonder how many of us walk around upset on certain days and happy on others? Imagine, to a person who just so happen to have caught you on a happy day they would be thinking… ‘boy they will think you are a cheerful person. Not a worry at all’ Now imagine what a person who have caught you on a day where you were low and out. ‘ this person is worrying too much. They should learn to live happily’ We make our stands before we know who they really are. Sure, on the outside people may seem happy. But in the inside they may have lost it all.

Eyes are the windows to the soul. I agree, thus my love to wear sunglasses even if I am in a shopping center, or even if I am at a restaurant. Why? Because I do not want people to know how upset I am , or how angry I am. Sometimes, it helps you bottle up yourself. You feel like you can see everyone, but everyone else can’t see you. It makes me feel safe. Weird and stupid right? Maybe to others, I may be a mental unstable person. But I at that point of time, I don’t care how it may seem to others. I just feel, like I am the only one and no matter what is going on around me, I have control over myself and no one will know what I am thinking and what I am feeling. It makes me feel stronger.

Still, here I am writing my life away in a computer “diary” which may one day just disappear. With each post, a day is wasted along with it. We only have *so* many days in our lifetime. We may die any minute. We may die when we are 100 years old. The truth is, we don’t ever know. I shall quote from a song “ Stones they taught me to fly. Love it taught me to lie. Life it taught me to die.”

In everything we do, there is a purpose. Even if it is so small that we ourselves don’t know.

I have originally planned on a short post But are you can see it seemed to have “expanded”

Anyways, I am going to learn Aikido with Candice and HJ. Jonathan may join too, the more the merrier. First lesson is on Friday. And I need money to pay!!! Ahh!!!.. shit. O well. I want to get a new BIGGER pencil box. Mine is really old. But it is still holding up well… ( KIPLING ROCKS!)

One last thing…

A giant pat on the shoulder for all drama members for making the production a success. I think we all did a great job as a team!

-Sara-

Ok. I am going to take back what I had said yesterday.
Actually, I feel that it was stupid being pissed or angry over smth so minor. And besides, I was probably just in some weird limbo due to the lack of sleep
Tomorrow is the DAY. THE day. Haha, at least the day where our class will make a fool or ourselves in front of everyone. I just, sacrifices have to be made. Yup. Gtg now. I have said my peace. Oh, and I finally passed 2.4km. Yes~ I am a real bad runner. But I dun care… Hmmm, I think I ate too much, need to lose weight. But how?~!!? There are so many kinds of chocolates and food stuff on the earth. Damn.

Oh well. Ciao~

I have not updated in quite some time. I am sure you are able to see that. However, i am not here to write about how long i have not updated, but to tell you what i feel right now.

I feel weird. Thats all. Weird. I am angry, numb, lost, happy(very small bit) and i am really really lost. I will not say over what, because i myself do not know.
What i know is that i am very pissed over the whole drama production. Haha, go figure. I am angry because of the lack of talent, okay, talent can be natured, but seriously, not enough time people!!!! Sesh. I want to knock their heads. You know? Ask 2 ppl to act lovey to dovey and when they give me "their so called best shot" i feel like i would pay them the 2 dollars just to make it stop. It makes me hurt man! Excruciating pain. Very very terrible. The mothers, fathers, sisters, and others are okay. The 2 lead and the friends(of donna e gal) is the problem.
I guess i wun care about the stress they are going to have, i am going to make sure they get it right. No laughing. No talking. They listen or i am just going to shout like fucking hell.

Another thing, i miss my friends. Really, miss the natural initiative, even those who do not have initiative have more than the ppl i noe these days. So dull man. Like, where is the "on!" sort of thing? the, lets make a fool out of ourselves and laugh over it next time? Where has it gone too? I mean, there are of course those who are "on" but there are more of those who are as cold as the winter season in Alaska.

Hmm, have to sing a song for national day... i applaude James and Jeremy for their High sportsman ship! WoohOO~ you guys can do it!

There is a phrase from the song : " These are the days we're living, these are the years worth giving... these are the moments, these are the times, lets make the best out of our lives."

Or smth like that. But, i would shout to the ppl (if i were part of the audience) "I DONT SEE THE WORTHINESS MAN!!!! COMEON! WHERE's the engergy!?!? Where is the thing that would say . TAKE THIS! THIS IS WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR ALLLLL YOUR LIFE. THIS IS *THE* MOMENT. Man, if you behaved like that in *the* moment, i wonder how you behave in real life. Bleah, must be stone status dude"

I know they are giving their best shot. Or suppose to be giving la. SHOUT! SCREAM! Out of tune NVM! just continue. Let them laugh. As long as you laugh with them can liao.

If you dun like or resent what i say, dun bomb my tag board. Go and write it in YOUR own blog.

-Sara-

I have not updated in quite some time. I am sure you are able to see that. However, i am not here to write about how long i have not updated, but to tell you what i feel right now.

I feel weird. Thats all. Weird. I am angry, numb, lost, happy(very small bit) and i am really really lost. I will not say over what, because i myself do not know.
What i know is that i am very pissed over the whole drama production. Haha, go figure. I am angry because of the lack of talent, okay, talent can be natured, but seriously, not enough time people!!!! Sesh. I want to knock their heads. You know? Ask 2 ppl to act lovey to dovey and when they give me "their so called best shot" i feel like i would pay them the 2 dollars just to make it stop. It makes me hurt man! Excruciating pain. Very very terrible. The mothers, fathers, sisters, and others are okay. The 2 lead and the friends(of donna e gal) is the problem.
I guess i wun care about the stress they are going to have, i am going to make sure they get it right. No laughing. No talking. They listen or i am just going to shout like fucking hell.

Another thing, i miss my friends. Really, miss the natural initiative, even those who do not have initiative have more than the ppl i noe these days. So dull man. Like, where is the "on!" sort of thing? the, lets make a fool out of ourselves and laugh over it next time? Where has it gone too? I mean, there are of course those who are "on" but there are more of those who are as cold as the winter season in Alaska.

Hmm, have to sing a song for national day... i applaude James and Jeremy for their High sportsman ship! WoohOO~ you guys can do it!

There is a phrase from the song : " These are the days we're living, these are the years worth giving... these are the moments, these are the times, lets make the best out of our lives."

Or smth like that. But, i would shout to the ppl (if i were part of the audience) "I DONT SEE THE WORTHINESS MAN!!!! COMEON! WHERE's the engergy!?!? Where is the thing that would say . TAKE THIS! THIS IS WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR ALLLLL YOUR LIFE. THIS IS *THE* MOMENT. Man, if you behaved like that in *the* moment, i wonder how you behave in real life. Bleah, must be stone status dude"

I know they are giving their best shot. Or suppose to be giving la. SHOUT! SCREAM! Out of tune NVM! just continue. Let them laugh. As long as you laugh with them can liao.

If you dun like or resent what i say, dun bomb my tag board. Go and write it in YOUR own blog.

-Sara-