"I'd like to say to everyone to be positive and know that people write things to be contrary and make trouble. Words hurt and there are some actresses that read things and are hurt. Computers are the pen of the 21st century and the pen is mightier than the sword, so think before you write things."

-Dean Cain


I like that small speech he made before leaving the MSN group chat. Well, that's the closest i've been to ever meeting the feller. Sometimes i wonder how people can be smart yet look good, or maybe all of these celebraties worship stuff were just the imagination of hopefuls who wish to think that their creations are reality. Afterall, actors are still human are they not?

Okay, that probably does not make any sense.

Well, Halloween is around the corner and i'm eager to go trick or treating. But i've never been cos no one wanted to go with me.
However, i found out that my brother and cousin were going trick or treating THIS SUNDAY together and i want to follow them!!!!!
My cousin is getting his costume and my bro has yet to find one.
But o well, i have to do project work.
Hopefully we'll end earlier so i can go with them.
But the costume is still a prob
Maybe i can kop some candies from my cous and bro.
WHAHAHAHA...
nvm

I've been sick these past few days.
Bleah.
Don't like it.
And PW is due on monday including he presentation.
I broke the news of my results to my parents and now..
I am not suppose to listen to music.
Talk to candice
And study for the sup papers.

WTH la. It is probably cos of these that i did so badly.
I did seldom touch my com
cos i studied on my bed.
I also STUDIED!!!
I actually did!

NVM, my new plan.
Prove that i am not stupid
do well
and study as hard as ah gong
hahahaha... that way i can enjoy my hols.

what'd ya'll think?

-Sara wrote here at 5.40 pm - What a coinkidink! I was here too.~ (lame) heee.. coinkidink. hmm, nice word.

Hush now, don't you cry
Wipe away the teardrop from your eye
You're lying safe in bed
It was all a bad dream
Spinning in your head
Your mind tricked you to feel the pain
Of someone close to you leaving the game of life
So here it is, another chance
Wide awake you face the day
Your dream is over...or has it just begun?


Lyrics from Silent Lucidity, Written by Chris
DeGarmo, Queensryche (c) 1990



This poem was from a LnC fanfic. I liked it so i decided on pasting it here. I am too upset about the exam results so i will not touch on what had happnened or what i have gotten.

Sometimes to look like nothing is wrong is not as hard as acting like nothing is wrong.
I just want to scream out how sad i am about the results.
Yet my mind just won't let me.
I try to convince myself this is not the end.
Decieving myself constantly.
losing hold of life.

When i got my results i realised i had lost all purpose of studying
I realised that what drove me to study last time, was not to lose
Not to be looked down upon.
Not to lose to my cousins.
I mean i probably already did on the average.
But i still needed to prove to myself that i can do it.

And i had forgotten about it.
Up till i got back my results.
The lack of motivation.
At first i thought it was cos i did not have the my good friends as silent motivators
But then i realise, it was not only that.
I realised that, i lost my will of not wanting to lose
To fight till the end
To never give up
To be competitive.

Now i have to find back that part which had slipped away oh so silently.
Maybe i am on the way to getting it back
Maybe, i am already who i was last year
Maybe, this was all a lesson.
One which i am highly grateful for
I still have a chance to do well
I still have a chance to prove myself
To understand who i am.
To have confidence again.

This time, i have learnt.

-Sara-

Your aura shines Red!


What Color Is Your Aura?
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Not really accurate.



You're the smirk,a frown-smile hybrid that's a
little bit cocky and usually associated with
evil or arrogant,but attractive people.You
probably just don't give a damn,but it's
everyone else's fault if you don't because
you're too awesome to have any real faults.


What Kind of Smile are You?
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Not very true either. haha..



Your an electric Dragon! Well, Well, Well, Speedy!
Electic dragons are just do darn quick, which
means you must be quick at something. Whether
its running, swimming, or answering questions,
you are super speed. But of course, you have a
craze for video games or computers. You can
play amazingly at any game or at least try to.
Go you!


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Er...

haha... anyway. too tired to update after today's trekking throught the Bukit Timah Nature Reserve area. So tiring!!!! and steep and slipery and did i mention tiring? Okok.. stopping here .

-SarA-

And here it is, yet another post.

Exams are officially over and now i see people studying away so hard. Well, all the best to those who are studying! Do well and don't dissapoint yourself.

Have you ever had an idol before?
I mean, not a celebraty or fictional character, rather, a human whom you know.
Well i have 2 idols. But shall not say who. One is so full of spunk that really makes me wish i could learn to be like her, not forgetting she is smart, and pretty and able to control a situation. But she ain't no bitch.
Nope, she is not a bimbo or a bitch or anything, she is just very frank and i like that.

Then there is this other person, really smart, decieving, cunning, able to manipulate well, and a really great pretender.
You never know what is real and can never believe a thing.
That is really good... as in, in life if you are able to trick ppl into thinking what you say is the truth, then well, it would be a whole lot easier doing business.

So an ultimate combination of both would mean, wow!
The best person, a real future CEO or president of a country. Now that's what i am talking bout.

Suppose to go and get a camera today but i did not cos i took a nap and then slept till 5.
I am also having a prob as to whether to get a cam or not, to spend that sort of money.
Plus my parents dun want to get a laptop for my bro and don't allow him to get one for himself with his money, so if i did buy a cam, would all hell break lose then?

Oh! i have 2 fictional idols. Lois Lane and Lex Luthor from LnC.
Lois is like feisty and hardworking and bites the head of anyone who disturbs her.
Yet she is so soulful and sentimental at the same time.
In short, there's a reason why she has the nick 'Mad-Dog-Lane'

Then there is this person who is a typical rags to riches.
Manipulationg again, etc etc. cept the killing part, i dun really like that part.

So Lois would be a mirror of the first human idol.
And Lex would be a mirror of the second human idol.

Life is like sitcom.
Don't you think so?

-SaRa-

I WANT A CAMERA!

okay.. i went to harvey norman today to see what cams then had. Wanted to buy one there and then, but i decided to come home first and see what other models there were.. yup, i am going camera crrraaaaaaaZeeE!

My mom will be back from taiwan tomorrow with duck tongueS! woohoo, and since today is her b'dae, tml then we will celebrate it.
So i can't go to meet the gong family. T_T
But not to fret, i am gonna see them on Sat.
Well, at least one or two of them. Hopefully Tawn and Marlz would be able to make it too.

Tomorrow is econs MCQ and it marks the end of the econs papers and the end of the exmas.
Hopefully,it does not mark the end of my life.

Back to the camera. I want to go and get this cannon cam today. HN was having a sale and selling it for $699. It is suppose to be good, and great for those who dun noe how to really use a cam but like to fool ard with one.
Then when i came back, i saw one and i loved it.
Cannon Powershot G6.
7.1 mega pixels.
4X optical zoom.
but it is pricey. est retail price is ard $1300
Wow. So i am having a dilema bout this now.

Then there is this Ferrari Laptop which looks supercool and super red.
but it means that if i share it with my bro... i would have to contribute 1800 bucks to get it just to get 12hrs a day. OMG!
I think i should stick with the cam.
Or buy nth at all.
But heartache la... dun buy means no cam.
Which then means no photos.
But buy already, means no money.
ARGH!

go figure.

Sigh. Whatever.

I guess the qn to ask is.
Is it worth iT?


Anyway, tml candy, charissa and dan are coming to my house.
Got to squeeze the four of us in the back.
haha... better go and hide my dC bunny b4 charissa takes it and high fives with it again... o_O

-Sara-

Christopher Reeve has died.

:_(

He was such a great superman with such a good presence. And now he has passed on before he even found the cure he had been working so hard for. May he rest in peace.


Okay, today was the PC exam and i think i am just as screwed for it as i was for everything else.
Well, charissa came to my house to study and i realised how little i actually know.
Well, no surprise there.
I hope that everything will turn out okay though.
There is no school tomorrow so that is good and all... but econs is on Wed and then all hell breaks lose all over again.

I think i will go and play basketball on Friday.
But i thought that i should bring the dinner that i owed candice since eons ago..
Which is better.. i think dinner comes first. But i did not go for aikido last week already.


I was suppose to help candice pay dan back the 5bucks, but forgot. lol..

Well,guess that's all for today. The "party" that i was looking forward to on thurs has been cancelled and i am quite upset cos i wanted to see the gong family so much.

Sigh. Well, till next time..

-Sara-

YoZa! Today was fun! candice came to pass me the stuff for Aikido and we sat by the pool to study. Ooo, did i mention there were 2 ang moh old man there? It really felt like we were in another country. Well, until all the chinese kids came down to swim.

Last night, i got scolded by my dad and it really made me pissed. I do not want to go into detail but, i would like to thank all my good friends!

I realised that they are the ones i can count on when i am down and out. I had decided that if my dad came back drunk and continue to scold me i would run away. I had packed my bag and put money inside and everything. The thing was, at first i though that no one would offer me a place to go if i did ran away. But then candice offered her place, so did tawn (she said she even had an extra bed. heehee.. thank you!!) and gong said she also invited me.
This really touched me, i guess even with the worst of things, i found that my friends are always there. No matter what. And i would really like to shout out to them.. a really, really, reallly big "THANK YOU!"
Thanks for being my friend. Thenaks for being there for me. Thank you for just being you.

Thank you all.

now, i feel so much better.

well, peace out... -ciao!-

Summary on the week. Everything is horrible. This is not a good week. Brain cannot think. More like could not. What would have once been so clear is now so foggy. Thus me doing worst in Exams. What is so simple and meant to use brain to think, now ends up a uncompleted question. The fact that it is so easy is killing me!!!!! THINK THINK THINK~! Why must things change? Wait, dun ans. I noe.

Okay. Now that that's off my chest. All i will do now is to work harder for the rest of my exams. Well.. that was just all i wanted to blog actually.



rest of the post taken off cos of slamming.

-sara-cheers!

MR = AR = DD = P

Free entry and exit of firms

Patents

Monopoly

Trade Unions

Crystal Jade

eh?? Now where did that come from.. *stomach grumble* heehee... i think i noe.

But really, all the econs. one after another. Today i plan on studying finish the WHOLE econs stuff. ^^;; sure die one. I mean, cram everything into ONE day. Tml will practice math. And etc etc. Damn, i wish i had not realise the great importance of exmas. Ever since i realised it this year, i have been worrying abt one exam after another, and it ain't doing me any good. Bleah.

Promos. That word. Oh boy. If i ever have to take it again, i will jump off the building. I nearly wanted to just now. Was thinking how great the atmostphere there'd be up on the roof... and if i decided to lose it, i can always jump off the roof. But i have realised smth new, IT is NOT the end of the world if i do not pass it! Like, duh! Why would i be so stupid to be worrying abt it so much. Worst come to worst stay back one year lor. I mean, come on, being a year older is not a big deal, esp since it is happening all over the world so often. Besides, gong would be a good eg. She stayed back a year and she Aced everything ever since. I guess, i'd rather do much better and get better grades by staying back a year than to just go on ahead barely making it.

But the scary thing is that if you fail you have to retake it in December. YUCK~! why can't they just leave it be and forget bout it man. Taking it once is enuf. I have to prepare for SATs. So... i better pass everything or i will die a horrible death.

ok, i am freezing my but off and i have just taken another break. Shall go back to mugging before i kana scolding by candice. LOL. " Oi Bonbon! NiggeR~!!!! Why you never call yet? You are suppose to make sure i study rite?!??!?!! " hahaha.....

Must finish the second half of the year econ notes before dinner. Have market structure and prodt and cost notes to go through again before i finish it. Which means i have done practically nth.

-sara-

Today there was aikido. It was fun. candice and me arrived late, and half way through went to get a drink and continued. I finally learnt how to roll properly on one side. well, half roll properly. Hehee... and saw alot of gays making out *winks*. J/k, it was just that there was this move that made ppl look like they were trying to rape one another and 2 pairs of guys were trying it out. Lol... very funny. Candice and i laughed so hard. It was quite a sight i assure you.

On the way home, i opened the moon roof (suppose to be bigger than the sun roof??) and then we(candice and i) stood up enjoying ourselves and having a blast. halfway through, candice hat flew off her head and we ended up running back chasing after the hat. Lol, then this car went over the hat, luckily it did not get flattened. LMAO, very very funny. *zoom*

so bored now. Sly got through to the next round of SI! Woohoo~ he did not get eliminated. I hope that my 2 votes help. Lol, but i am sure that Rach did alot more voting and simmie too, and maybe even tawn and marlz.

Well, been missing the gang these days, but since exams are ard the corner, can't afford to... i need to study hard! hard! hard!
tml! i am gonna sleeeeeeep late late late! so as to ensure i get the utmost amt of studying squueeeeeezed in. too poop to try that today. TmL is Crash econs course`

Well got to go... a plus tard~ (means c'ya later in french)

-sara-