The Pretender

A nOrMal DaiLy LifE

Tuesday, November 30, 2004

Everything is falling neatly into place.
Well, at least i need not worry that much for now.

I manage to get promoted.
Donn is coming with us on the trip to Europe.
This would mean a not SO boring trip.
There would be someone to crap to.

Anyway, the europe trip is ex.
Each person has to have at least 500 pounds.
This excludes shopping.

The trip there itself would cost my dad god knows how many K.
The renovation for the house would cost my dad ard 80k.

Sigh, everything is getting so expensive.
I guess this is life.
The SATS are of Sat, and i have yet to practice a single thing.
My brain does not want to acknowledge that it is important
Though i know it is.
Too lazy maybe.
But more towards the cant be bothered anymore side
After all, how can i?
The main reason and motivation to do well for the SATs was to
be able to go overseas.
Now that my dad is saying cant
And my mom is saying the same too
So what the SATs stand for it now just another exam.

Okay, forget about all this.
Life goes on.
Study hard and do your best right?

I am wondering now
Without my friends
I doubt i would have been able to pass this sup papers at all.
Thank you my dear dear dear friends.

-Sara-

Sunday, November 28, 2004

Okok... time to update ppl!!!!

Well, the sup papers are over. I hope i can get promoted, but i rather not speak of examinations right now.

Just got back from the cruise. It was really fun. I brought my guitar along, though i did not exactly played it alot. My mom had to leave the ship due to an emergency. Dun ask why. Its too weird to say. Lol.

On board, i met Shaun, Kevin and no one else that i knew. Oh ya, this family from my block were there. Anyway, played guitar freaks. Was horrible at it. Played alittle basketball, but for some weird reason, i just lost interest at playing it the past 2 days. And that is REALLY weird. Perhaps it is a sign that i am going nuts? Anyways, I also learnt to play mahjong. Quite fun actually... cept the fact that My bro and Kevin always win. So it kinda started to become boring.

Anyway, I did play alittle basketball. The wind was very strong and all, so it was very shiok. lol, and i beat Kevin at ABC !!!! YEA! I also brought my zen touch along, but it was alittle too noisy to be able to listen to music at most areas, and since i do not wish to spoil my ear drums by blasting it to make it louder than the surrounding sound, i decided not to listen to it as much.

Okay, then last night was walking on the top deck with kev and did you know that one side of the ship is totally windy and the other side is like not windy? Oh, and i found one more brillant spot to be at now on the ship. Right beside the basketball court, there is this slope which is actually the top of the ship and if you actually lay there, you can see the stars, enjoy the peace and night and it is really nice.

There were alot of stars last night and the previous night and ahh... there are just ALOT of stars everynight. Too bad singapore is too bring and polluted to see that many stars, it was really very nice. And the lightning was nice too. The sea, just everything. Kinda makes one feel like you are bondind with the sky. haha, really weird but nice.

The whole trip was more fun than i had expected it to be when i left the house on friday.

Oh, and i am gonna go to Europe for the hols on the 7th of Dec. Rather go to America though, i'd be so much more fun. Freedom. Company. And just nice. I just think that America is nicer than Europe, but who knows, afterall, i've never been to Europe yet. Maybe this trip will prove me wrong, or maybe it would make me hate Europe just as much as i hate Korea.

Argh. I wanna go to AMERICA!!!!! Staying in Singapore is not that bad either. Can play PF and watch movies and hand out with my friends. That'd be great. Hmmm, shall see what happens.

OOOO, i remember the last time i wanted to stay in Singapore was cos they were showing LnC and i did not want to miss a single ep, so i did not want to go overseas.
Hehe. Maybe i could write a letter saying how much i love LnC and wished that they would air it again. Who knows, they may just do that. Afterall, the last time i wrote i won a 20 bucks Hardrock cafe F&B voucher. Din collect it though, but they did repeat the whole Season 4 over again. I just wished they had repeated season one two or three, those are the seasons i dun have on tape.

Nevermind, soon enough, hopefully WB does not change it's mind, LnC would be out on DVD by next year. But, that'd be season one only, nvm, it beats nothing at all. So... SUPPORT LNC ON DVD!!!! I'll put the link to the petition for LnC on DVD in my next post, too lazy to find it now. Afterall, even if WB did issue an official statement that id be out next year, it's better to continue to petition until it really is out.

-Sara- this is one looong post

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

Saccharine Smile
by Donots

Album : Amplify The Good Times



She plays boys like a game of cards
And dances to the beat of breaking hearts but
She ain´t no beauty queen to me
She´s all wrapped up in plastic skin
Her bad disguise won´t take me in cause
She ain´t no beauty queen to me
I see through her smile
I don´t trust these eyes
She´s a walking lie
I see through her smile
She´s as cold as ice
I´ll stay away from
The girl with the saccharine smile
I don´t believe a word from her dead lips
Don´t like the way she moves her hips, no!
She ain´t no sugarcube to me
And she knows she´s better than the rest
Well, arrogance is godliness but
She ain´t no beauty queen to me
She ain´t no beauty queen to me - yeah!
I see through her smile
I don´t trust these eyes
She´s a walking lie
I see through her smile
She´s not worth my while
And she don´t touch me
The girl with the saccharine (smile)


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NICE!!!!! GREAT SONG!!! you guys should hear it!!! If only i can figure out the code to put a song on my blog i would put it man!

-sara-fingers pain from playing guitar after not touching it for so long-

Thursday, November 11, 2004

I am 17!! ok...

Yesterday i went out with Gong, Uncle, Tawn, Simmie, Sis and Vic.
We took photos and went to watch The Forgotten.
It was smth diff. Quite strange..

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I can't believe that there was this part with the ailens and all!!!! haha... damn cool sia. Alittle weird and funny. I mean, who knows, there maybe aliens out there just like in the show. Maybe we actuallly have a brother or sis that we can't remember. Maybe our memories were erased. Who knows. Maybe life is just a coverup.

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Ok, these were the presents i got from the gong family.

1) Gong , Stepgrandma, Uncle and Grandma
It was a 3 part pressie
- A inflatable pen. Very cute
- This purple feathery string thingy
- Red underwear. (okok, i'll remember to wear it if i ever want to play superman. LOL)

2) Sis
- 2 cute Famous Amous Lollicoo (lol, smth me and simmie came up with. Cookies on a stick made to look like a lollipop)

3) Twins
- Superman MUG!!!!!

4) Vic
- Glow in the dark star thingys. Quite cool. I Love stars..

5) Simmie
- This turtle toy.. Got flower one.. hahaha... flowery turtle.. very cute

6)My parents
- My mom gave me 80 bucks in the chen(tan) angbao. I love that angbao. Apparently Auntie Deborah had it specially made. I think 100 peices with our surname in chinese on it in gold color.

7) Auntie Fe
- T-shirt.. Nice!!!!!!!

8) May
- A 3 quarts pants. haha.. love them. Can wear it at home. So comfy.

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That's all. I'll put the photos up soon when i transfer them onto my com.
I want to get this bag that looks cool... but.. o well.. hmm...
Well, gtg study now.

Ciao!! -Sara-

Sunday, November 07, 2004

Is everyone out to shape everyone else?

Okay, so you go through the aches and pains
And finally gave birth to a child.
But does that put you in charge of their lives?

Maybe parents feel that their kids are clays,
Meant to be moulded.
If you left a child in the wilderness
Without tell it what to do
Or what to eat
I bet it would turn out very differently from the way we bring kids up these days.

Take for instance my aunt.
My cousin (my aunt's kid) is not allowed to speak singlish.
Ya,i know singlish is not exactly correct
With all the lahs and and mahs everywhere.
But how can you make a person NOT speak a language where the enviroment he is being brought up in is using it all the time.

I remember my cousin always got scolded when he did not use "proper" english.
Even the maids were not allowed to say lah and leh and stuff like that
So now, my cousin,6, is very smart and has a great command of his english
When he does something wrong or if he did not hear what you had just said he would say, "pardon me". For crying out loud! this kid is 6!!!

Pardon ME?!?!
This is becoming nuts.
But that's not the main topic of today.
Today's topic of discussion is....
drumroll please...
*dum dum dum dum dum dum*
Should Homosexuality be tolerated?

ooo, touchy topic.
My stand is with YES! It should be tolerated.
And NO! i am NOT homo so don't anyone think that.

Why do people discriminate again these people?
Are they different from us "normal" people?
What do *you* call love?

To love a person, as in really love a person and not those shallow crushes would mean to see their soul and like themselves fully.
So why must it be a guy for a girl
Or a girl for a guy?

Why can't you like someone from of same gender?
I mean, if you like a person for who s/he really is then that's true love.
Who cares if it's a dog or a cat or a monkey.
End of the day, That's what love is about

I think society has instilled too too many rules in us.
Trying to keep us "in line" with what they percieve is right for us
I feel that the only reason why the gov sides with girl guy relationships and not girlgirl or guyguy ones would be cos
Girl + Guy + Sex = More kids
Where as
Girl + Girl + Sex = ??? Pleasure?

I mean, with all the birth problems singapore is facing
I'm sure they would not want another one where girls are with girls and guys are with guys.

Imagine being brought up in a society where it is right to date a person of the same gender and wrong to date a person of a diff gender.
We would all be discriminating against diff gender relationships.
So is this not the same for us now?

Thus, i say, Let homos be homos and let everyone be.
As long as no one is hurt and true love prevails, alls okay.

I know god created "adam and eve not adam and steve" as i quote from a friend's speech that time. But God could have easily created Adam and Steve as easy as he could have created Adam and Eve.
How about the virgin Mary? Does it mean that girls should stay away from guys and remain virgins? Or that without a sperm donar you are able to concieve? Nah, Adam and Eve are miracles and part of a story of god just like the |Virgin Mary is. After all , if there was only Adam and Steve instead, where did the rest of the population come from? We need someone to help get the ball rolling right?
Why must people in this country be against these stuff?
It'd be mature of them to just let bygones be bygones and stop discriminating.

If we continue this way
With non stop hatered for one another over nothing,
It will never end.
People will alway find something else
If not create something
To make sure they'd win.

This is the end of what i have to say regarding this issue.

Lalalala.... Now that i am done with some weird babbling, i am bored.
=_= zZzZZ

Gotta study.
Rest over.

Ciao!

Vertical horizon - Best I ever had

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

Chorus
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

Chorus
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

Chorus
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever
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My cousin has just gone home.
Home is cold again.
Back to the previous lifestyle.
Me and my brother never talking to one another
Alone at home
Nothing to do.

I realise that when my cousin was here.
We were like a family.
My brother and i actualy spoke to one another
We played till late and all.

I guess
Sometimes having a family is what one needs to feel better
But then again.
NAH!

My b'dae is on thursday!!!!!
I want to go out with my friends to eat lunch!!
But i've not asked anyone of them yet.
Maybe go to american club?
Maybe just go and see a movie?
No idea.

Haha,
In the last 2 years,
the only presents i have gotten were from my friends
and from my maid.
None from my family
Hell, they barely even remember it

So b'daes are now only an excuse to spend time with my friends
To just hang out
And a reminder that you do have friends
haha.. to joke around
And get presents!!!!!
Not really,
But being with my friends would be great presents.

I wonder whether my parents will give me presents this year?
I mean i hinted that my bdae was coming.
Hinted, but all i got was a blank look
And not a single word.

Sigh.
Guess thats what it's gonna be

Lalala, one things good bout bdaeS!!!!
Its an excuse!
An excuse to get my cousin to stay over at my house
To go out and have fun
To feel that it's the only day to be.. i dont know older

But i kinda hate bdays.
People treat you differently
You know?
They think "oh bday" so it's a big deal kinda thing
Like you won't get scolded.
It's a good feeling and all.
But not what i want.
I just want a day with my friends
all together again

How i wish this year could be like last year.
My friends coming over at 9am and waking me up!!!
hhahahaha... thanks guys! But quite shocking to open my eyes and see you all there.
Then went to eat pizza.
The only bday cake i had was the one the gang and candice chipped in to buy me one.
And that dress!!! Oh boy.
I can't believe i wore it to grad lunch. haha..

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I want to eat lunch and go to kino and get a superman comic.

SHIT!!! why am i writing all these.
Guess have too much time on my hands.
gonna delete it.
done
lalala.. gonna go now. ciao