YOYO ALL~!!!

I finally got the chance to listen to the Liu Guang Sheng Lin OST yesterday!
And for hte first time in months Megaupload allowed me to download a file from it's site yesterday with no problems!!!
Oh and before i go onto what happened yesterday etc i shall post the lyrics to Hao Ai Ta Hao Xiang Ta with the parts of who is singing what.. here it is :

好爱她 好想他
(刚)天应该亮了 你应该睡了 守一整夜的他应该走了
(恩)你应该哭了 他应该醒了 想一整夜的我该死心了

(道+伟)我们都没有错 只是爱上同一个
(恩+乔+道+伟) 只怪爱是独自占有 非要拼得你死我活

(恩) 好爱她 好想她 再这样下去 我只会更牵挂
(恩+伟+道)爱到最後我们还是改变不了 Ho
(刚) 祝福她 拥有他 所有的有情人终成眷属啊
(恩+乔+道+伟)你给过的美好 留在没有人到得了的地方 看你微笑

(洁)天应该亮了 你应该睡了 守一整夜的他应该走了
(荣)(天怎麼亮了 我无法睡呢 ………... 怎能放手)
(洁)你应该哭了 他应该醒了 想一整夜的我该死心了
(荣)(我怎麼哭了 你不该忘了 ………… 太过折磨)

(如+乔) 我们都没有错 只是爱上同一个
(书+荣)只怪爱是独自占有 非要拼得你死我活

(洁) 好爱她 好想她 再这样下去 我只会更牵挂
(荣) (好爱她 好想她 再这样下去 也不是个办法)
(合唱)爱到最後我们还是改变不了 Ho
祝福她 拥有他 所有的有情人终成眷属啊
(洁) 所有的美好
(刚) 留在没人到得了
(恩)试著把你 慢慢遗忘
(刚) (如何把你 慢慢忘掉)
(刚) 我好爱她 我好想她
(荣)好爱她 好想她

(恩)好爱他 好想他 再这样下去 我只会更牵挂
(恩+刚) 爱到最後我们还是改变不了 Ho
(荣)祝福她 拥有他 所有的有情人终成眷属啊
(荣+如)你给过的美好 留在没有人到得了的地方 看你微笑

(合唱)好爱她 好想她 再这样下去 我只会更牵挂
爱到最後我们还是改变不了 Ho
祝福她 拥有他 所有的有情人终成眷属啊
(恩+道)所有的美好
(如+刚) 留在没人到得了
(恩+如+刚) 试著把你 慢慢忘掉



Ok, yesterday i had GP exams. Horrible but yea. Then went to meet candice and we went to Holland V for lunch. Went to NYDC to eat. Not nice. At least that is what i personally thought of the food there.
Then we headed for her house and over there we watched Variety shows and laughed and laughed sooo sooo much!!! Yu Rong is so funny as a ah pek. And i will never see the words "gan kuai xing xing, kuai zhang kai ni de yan jing" again.. LOL
Hmm, before i went home i opened the pressie she gave me.
OMG!! IT WAS SOOO COOL!!!
(candice: You copied my idea, but nvm. I still love it!!!)
The box was an american flag box and the first thing that i pulled out of the box was... *drumroll* a DVD! And guess what dvd was it? THE PERFECT HUSBAND - The Laci Peterson Story. OMG!!! DEAN CAIN MAN!! WOOT!! So happy!! (i watched it when i got home and kudos to Dean Cain's acting! The Scott Peterson disgusted me, he is sooo creepy and scary, but somehow i think that he is innocent. Well, guess we all have to wait for the verdict as to whether he killed his wife and kid to come out. But i really think he did not do it. Somehow. His actions seemed suspicious but not murderous.)
Then there was a phone pouch inside, (which is am using alreay) and then there is a pair of earrings. Nice! and then.. the game!!! Wahahaha!!! THE GAME!
She pasted like 6 cards onto the box and asked me to pick one at a time.
OMG!!!
There were 2 cards of Leon Jay Williams.
3 Cards of Ming Dao
And 1 183 club card!!
OMG!!!!
Hehe, she also pasted notes on the box. Candice: I am so touched that you actually went to find picts of Lamborghinis and printed them out.
LOVE YOU LOADS!

Ok, then got home and my mom gave me 188 bucks. Hmmm.. ok. Whatever.
Anyway, it was their anniversary too and i did not get them anything. I mean, whats there to get. They were at each others throats during dinner. Sesh!
WE went to this nice place to eat and the food was ok. The standard dropped ALOT.
The beef that my dad ordered for spose to be Medium rare but they gave me like medium well. And the beef was not those young beef, the texture was rough, which meant that the cow was an old one. My dad took one bite and did not eat it.
But the lobster pasta (white wine base) that he ordered was nice! But i still prefer my tomato paste one!!
The duck liver that i ordered was.. over cooked. The slices were so thin and there were only 3. 2 of them was like well done kinda cooked. And the middle one was nice. The pieces were like, i could stuff all 3 in my mouth and my mouth at the same time.
sigh.
Then my mom and dad argued abit blah blah blah.

Then went home.
Talked to candice.
And watched Kang Xi Lai Le!!
HEHEHEHEHEHE!!!

TomorroW!! Oh Tomorrow!! (copies what Lex Luthor did in Season 1's House of Luthor ep.)
Liu Guang Sheng Lin. Liu Guang Sheng Lin. Liu Guang Sheng Lin. Liu Guang Sheng Lin. Liu Guang Sheng Lin. Liu Guang Sheng Lin. Liu Guang Sheng Lin. Liu Guang Sheng Lin.

HAHAHAHA!!! CIAO!
I am 18.. sob.. so old..

I am waiting for the dang OST of Liu Guang Shen Lin to come out in Singapore. Today is the official launch date of the OST in Taiwan, dang, do you think Singapore will start selling it today too? Nah. Doubt it. I mean, this *is* Singapore right?
Sigh, owell, well until i get a hold of those songs i would just have to replay the 1 min versions of those songs. LoL.

Okay, here are the lyrics to Hao Ai Ta Hao Xiang Ta sang by 183 Club and 7Flowers. Nice song and really sad.


好愛她 好想他 演唱:7F+183Club
詞:柯呈雄 曲:呂紹淳

製作人:柯呈雄/祝鏘博(VJ-James)
演唱:7朵花-喬恩/小潔/薇如/小喬 183Club-祝釩剛/黃玉榮/明道/王紹偉/顏行書
合聲編寫:陳秀珠 合聲編寫:陳秀珠 合聲:陳秀珠/蕭蔓萱/James
編曲:呂紹淳 吉他:Mike Mclaughlin 錄音師/室:陳志翔(強力) 混音師/室:黃欽勝(強力)

183 天應該亮了 你應該睡了 守一整夜的他應該走了
7 你應該哭了 他應該醒了 想一整夜的我該死心了

183 我們都沒有錯 只是愛上同一個
7+183 只怪愛是獨自佔有 非要拼得你死我活

7 好愛她 好想她 再這樣下去 我只會更牽掛
7+183 愛到最後我們還是改變不了 Ho
183 祝福她 擁有他 所有的有情人終成眷屬啊
7+183 你給過的美好 留在沒有人到得了的地方 看你微笑

7 天應該亮了 你應該睡了 守一整夜的他應該走了
183 (天怎麼亮了 我無法睡呢 ………... 怎能放手)
7 你應該哭了 他應該醒了 想一整夜的我該死心了
183 (我怎麼哭了 你不該忘了 ………… 太過折磨)

7 我們都沒有錯 只是愛上同一個
183 只怪愛是獨自佔有 非要拼得你死我活

7 好愛她 好想她 再這樣下去 我只會更牽掛
183 (好愛她 好想她 再這樣下去 也不是個辦法)
7+183 愛到最後我們還是改變不了 Ho
7+183 祝福她 擁有他 所有的有情人終成眷屬啊
7 所有的美好
183 留在沒人到得了
7 試著把你 慢慢遺忘
183 (如何把你 慢慢忘掉)


183 我好愛她 我好想她
183 好愛她 好想她

7 好愛他 好想他 再這樣下去 我只會更牽掛
7+183 愛到最後我們還是改變不了 Ho
183 祝福她 擁有他 所有的有情人終成眷屬啊
7+183 你給過的美好 留在沒有人到得了的地方 看你微笑

7+183 好愛她 好想她 再這樣下去 我只會更牽掛
7+183 愛到最後我們還是改變不了 Ho
7+183 祝福她 擁有他 所有的有情人終成眷屬啊
183+7 所有的美好
183+7 留在沒人到得了
7+183 試著把你 慢慢忘掉

Hmm, gonna go bathe now. Been waiting to get so many shows man! Cant wait for friday!! I will meet candice and i can pass her all the shows. Wahaha, then we can watch it together and laugh our socks off. Super cute and funny. LoL. O well.. hahahaha..

Well, til next time. Ciao~

Hey all! Gonna put a short post before i leave for Econs tuition.

To all those watching Green Green Forest My Home e taiwan series aka 綠光森林 (well to one in particulat, candice)

SPOILER
SPACE

the story is apparently gonna be a sad sad one at least that is what esther and william said during a talkshow interview. T_T It was read somewhere that Esther will die in the end cos William could not trust her(or smht like that). Another said that Esther will get an illness after William finds out that Sophie is actually his "Susuan" not Susan. ^^ . Either ways the show is gonna be a sad one. I wonder how many eps it will be though, argh!! So long more to wait. T_T . However everyone is certain, the phrase " you must trust her or she will lose everything, including her life" is significant so Sophie will either die cos William did not trust her or somthing like that. Sob. No happily ever after!! T_T NOO!!! Thus the reason behind why i like WangZi so much. Fairytale!!!

Ok, late already
Gotta Go.
I've got 10mins to bathe and leave the house.
Ciao!
Type more later!
Tml is CLB exam!!
And the official starting of the A's.
Wahahahahhaa!! Somehow i am really happy.
As in maybe here and there i will feel alittle pressure, other than that, i feel like i am on a holiday. @_@ die already.

I want to die.
I have no idea at which point of time i felt that way but suddenly i just think death is the best silence life has to offer.

My dad scolded again tonight.
He did not scold but was pissed.
He lectured on how come we (my bro, i, my couz and shaun) ordered macs so late at night.
He kept saying that me and my bro were fat already and still wanted to order.
He kept talking about how girls should not be fat.
I wanted to kill myself right then and there or else i would kill my dad if i did not do that.
He kept saying how we dont follow what he says. We order even though he did not allow.
My couz's parents all them to order, shaun's parents allows too so why cant my dad?!
One minute he says enjoy yourself the next minute he is angry.
f**k man.
what sort of crap is this?
I know, wanting to die cos of food is stupid.
But it is not the food that is the problem, it is the fact that i can barely breathe already.
I cant do things without lying.
I am like this prisoner who seems to be free but is far from that.

When my dad comes home at night, i will be so afraid, i will tip toe around the room.
Slow my movements down till i am like a snail.
Watch every noise i make.
Hide under the blanket.
Or inside the toilet so i will not make any noise.
I am even too scared to breathe in fear that it would be too loud.
I pratically live in fear in the night and entrapped at home, and while i dont live in fear in the day and have more fredom than at night i still feel like i am squahed into a tiny box.

I want to cry.
Hell i am already tearing up.
I would say i wish a prince could save me but i know that in life only you can save yourself.
And that is what i fear the most.
What the world is now
The fear we live in that is caused by ourselves and not but others.
Humans hurt humans.
If i could, i would live in a dream.
And eventhough that is not reality at least i am happy.

You know what made me so pissed tonight?
Not the whole you cant or you shouldnt do certain things issue.
It is the whole "just enjoy yousef", "just be happy" that makes me so pissed.
Hahahahahaha
The only happiness my dad wants us to feel is his idea of happiness.
True happiness cannot be defined.

My mom is worst.
Just that day we were sitting down talking and she said "you should study hard and go to a singapore university." then she "asked" me : "you also want to go to a singapore university right?"
What is she stupid or something!? Must be something. Maybe a wall.
I have talked all day about how i want to go overseas to study since i was sec 3 and which part of I HATE SINGAPORE does she not understand?
Me and her friend(whom she lovesss) we talking about singapore that time and saying how bad it is all the way till 1-2 am (or somewhere aroudn there)
I think i must really be in an invisible box
And a sound proof one for that matter.

Death.
Seems foolish yet smart.
Life
The only choice i have.
And the only choice that i want.
I want to live, but if i only have 2 choices and i keep getting forced to die then the choice to live seems unreachable, at least right now.

I hate depending on others.
And i dont ever want to turn into someone who does.
But i already am.
To depend on my parents is already too much.
I want to spend money because i deserved the money not because my dad gave me some cash to use even if it was just 2 bucks or 2 cents.
But i have no idea what i am going to do
I am so freaking lost that i am so freaking scared.
Every night i am thinking of what opportunities are there THAT I WOULD LIKE AND ENJOY that would allow me to survive.

What is family?
A convinice.
I sound cruel but that is the way i feel.
When they make use of you all your life or want to mould you into something that you cant be all your life you end up being trash.
Trash is unwanted.
And to that piece of trash, family is a convinice.
Its a rather cruel world.
You make use of me and i'll make use of you.

argh!
*fustrated*
I have so much i want to say but i cant put it down.
Too much.
Too stupid
Too real.
Too personal.
Too... happy.

Too happy for me to put it what i want down, what i really feel.
Just being able to dream of the impossible and imagine it to be real makes me so happy even if reality is all that is offered to me.
Too pathetic and too painful and too raw and too real that it ends up being Happiness. Although false. It is a better alternative to sadness.

I want to go skateboarding now.
Time right now.. : 1.30am
My dad will scold.
Adn i know what he would say.
And i know what i would want to answer back.
Why cant i just do what i want since i am able to.
So what if it is 1am it is no different than it being 1pm
Just becuase of the belief that you have that night IS night and day IS day and everything there is a time and place for it does not mean that the world is square and that you cant go through a wall.
It makes no difference.
I am just as awake as i am at 1pm soo what is stopping my dad from allowing me to go skateboarding or from eating?

People say dont eat after 9 pm.
Say i eat at 8 and sleep at 11
Is taht fine?
Then why is it not fine to eat at 1 and sleep at 5?
It would be the same!!!!!
SOMEBODY TELL ME!!?!?!?!?!?
Is my dad's vision so limited only~?!

Hell my dad is smart. He can analyse stuff real well.
And he can think ALOT and say alot of great stuff that makes sense.
But he is stubborn and so is my mom and so am i and so is my brother.
How can 4 stubborn and strong will people live under the same roof?!
We cannot understad one another.
We dont agree all the time.
And we end up hating each other.
What am i to do!?
Correction.
What is my dad and mom to do!?
They should sell the house.
Should get each person a HDB unit and let us live on our own.
But i dont want that too happen.
Too much trouble.
Too much fear.
Too lost.

I dont know that i want.

Imagine, staying alone means that i would have to work my butt off to pay for the bills. No more happy time to myself. No more slacking. I would lose the burden and fear brought about by my family but then i would inheret a whole new set of troubles.
HOW!?

Note to self:

Focus : Happiness