Someone help me sleep early!

As in, not in the morning (which is what i am doing now, slept at 6+am yesterday) but rather when it is still night!
ahhhh... sigh... life is so... i dont know... empty right now.

Nothing to do

Nothing to look forward to

No motivation for anything

Aimless

One Big Question Mark.

?

Well, on saturday I am going to be meeting the fans of Joe Cheng Yuan Chang (actor from the show er zhuo ju zhi wen (it started with a kiss)) then we are going to flim a video saying happy birthday and sending our well wishes to the guy etc etc. They are getting fans from all over the world to do it. Europe, Canada, America, Asia etc.

Wanna know the funny thing? I just think that that guy is interesting, i am not even like a big fan of the guy.
So you wonder why i am going?
BOREDOM.
Simple as A B C. Repeat afterme (see, i am so kind to give you smth to do)
Say
A
B
C
there you go!

Well then, i have no idea what to do now.

I have been sitting from midnight till now doing nothing having no idea what to do.
Time now, 4.20am.
Watched finished the show i bought yesterday.

I want to get the Simple Plan Live in HardRock Cafe - MegaFan pack edition DVD.
Consist their songs sang live and a video of their live performances. Plus a color book and some patch and some other things.

Ladeeda.. can someone talk to me?
SOMEONE TALK TO ME ON MSN! PLEEEEEEEASEEEE??

awell, that is if you have the time.
Everyone is busy these days.
Oh, i even wrote a song just now.
As in the lyrics.
Wanted to put some guitar chords to it but since i have zero music talent i could not come up with anything nice.
Besides, i cant sing, so then it would be pointless trying to sing the song to see whether it sounds nice if i cant sing right? ladeedum ladeeda. haha o well.

Take care my friends!

Oh, and a GOOD MORNING TO ya'll!

heyall!

Yesterday was totally fun!
Well, not really, but it was pretty fun.

Woke up, went with Nick and Kevin to American Club, played pool, table tennis, ate pizza, bowled (i learned how to bowl! lol) and then drank choco milkshake! It was great! Oh, and but before buying the milkshake, we went to the squash courts. There, we saw this good looking guy, actually, he was above average but not say very good looking or anything like that. Did i mention he is caucasian? haha, the guy was probably 6 feet 2 or smth like that, he played a warm up round with Kevin and Kevin was up to his shoulder only. The guy's body was really nicely shaped. haha, totally hot guy! Tall, and handsome. Oh and friendly!
Nick and i were sitting down and he asked us whether we had a lighter or a sissors (he wanted to take the pricetag off his new sports shoes) he told us he got it from isetan for 50+bucks.. "ok la, not bad" <-- that was what he said in reference to the price. he spoke in a Singlish tone ^^! o.O!
I think he must have stayed in Singapore for quite some time already. His accent was fluctuating.
Anyway, the squash courts was the best thing of the afternoon.

at night..

Went with my mom to BRIX club at Hyatt. The band there totally rocked!!!!! OMG! They were great! they were so cool and funny! and their singing was good too.

The band name - absence of colors (so cool)

Artistes they sang their songs from - Boyz II Men, Craig David, Nelly, Ciara, Eric Clapton, Usher etc. etc.

Who they are - A group consisting of approx. 7 african americans. (that is why i think their band name is cool) .

I highly recommend people to go there. But they are only in Singapore for 3 mths before they leave for another country. so sad..

ok, TODAY.

went to parkway, bought 'sad love story' vcd and Eminem's curtain call. nice.).
Then yuying and sharon came by to pass me my vcds that sharon borrowed.
Yuying drove her mazda here, so cool man! haha, then she also let me drive the car. NICE!! we drove the car opened top. wahahahhaa. After that they stayed awhile longer to watch final destination and ate ice cream. ^^ after that they went home and i went to bathe and here i am blogging. bored. listening to Eminem. going to watch show soon, maybe.

Something i thought about today :

What is the meaing of our existence.

Plants gives life to us by providing oxygen.
Animals are a source of food for humans and they help control the plant growth etc.
What do we do?
We help one another that is true.
But do we provide something neccessary to other species?
Do we really?
If not, then what is the value of existence?
to live just to live?
is it/
is that it?
maybe
i hope not.
someone tell me.
thanks.

-sara out-

heyall~!!!!!!!

ok, well, lets see.

current state - bored and feel like puking
reason - bored cos i am bored. feel like puking cos i must have at least seen 100 GIRLS profile and so many of them of girls with braces. I feel like a gay pervert.
Reason behind action - helping 2 people find 'Time' the girl with no name and shall thus remained nicknamed time.

Well, today i bought a Jay Chow DVD, contains 13 of his MVs and a 20+min highlight of his Hong Kong concert. I do not like Jay Chow, but neither do i hate him.
Positive -He can produce nice songs and he can sing.
Negative - He mumbles(drives me nuts) and he is not goodlooking (average looking)

I also bought Final Destination 1 vcd. ^^

I am contemplating whether to buy an ipod vid. But it is expensive and i am almost broke.
I want to go overseas to study. Melbourne. Monash Uni. If i go i would end up in Clayton Campus (i think that is what the lady said)

Ok, my timetable till i go overseas. (or if i go)

TIMETABLE

Help my mom start up her shop and her her at the shop.
Then apply to teach at KC or KCP.
Complete and obtain driving license before going overseas.
STAY HAPPY!

ok, end of post.

I for one cant understand how anyone can make a timetable of their life.
Its not really possible. Cos if that is teh case then we would be predicting the future right?

Well, night all and ciao!!!!! take care my dear butties!

Why is the world filled with so much rubbish?
BolaBola or however it is 'spose to be spelt.
It means rubbish right? Utter trash.
Useless.
Hopeless.
I just want to throw myself into a hole right now and just forget.
Forget about what life is
Forget what i am being reminded everyday
Forget the worries
Forget it all
Just stay in a dream
Leave the world for the strong and rubbish filled people to hold it up.
Afterall, if you are not filled with rubbish, you probably would not be alive.
Forget what i just said. All rubbish.

Why?
Why cant life just be perfect?
Worries free?
Happy.
I feel like crying.
I just want to scream and run away.
Just hide.
I dont mind hiding my head in a hole like an animal with my body sticking out. As long as i dont have to face the world face the pain.
Sounds over dramatic right?
Maybe that is what life is, a big huge drama.

I want things to be simple.
To eat, to feel, to live, and then be happy.
To just be happy.
Maybe it is too much to ask for.
We all want to be happy.
We can't.

Right.
One thing right.
At the very least.

Might as well stab me.
At least when i am dead the pain will dissapear.
At least i hope.

So many people have lost their direction as to what is right to do and what is wrong.
Well, there is no right or wrong, just whether we hurt people in the process.
I dont know.

The only reason i am writing in here is cos i have no one to talk to right now.
I just want to write everything. But i cant.
I might not even finish what i write if i write.

Who cares whether things are broken.
As in the pieces can still fit together.
But to miss one piece,
that is..
i dont know what it is!
i dont know!!
I DONT!
i freaking dont know what i am trying to say.
The pieces are all broken, they still fit, they dont fit, they what the f**k man!

3 things that i pray for all the time.
3 same things i wish for all the time.
3 things that i consider most important in life.

Happiness
Love
Good Health

It can all be summarised into what i think is most important. Happiness.
As long as the people around us are happy we tend to end up feeling happy too.
As long as everything is ok, thats fine.

H.A.P.P.I.N.E.S.S

Not just happiness for myself.
But happiness for everyone.
How can anyone feel happy if there are people around you who are sad?
Is it even possible?

I just want to hide.
To forget.
I DONT KNOW ANYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

h . i . d . e . . . . . . . . . . .....
in a hole of happines only.. dreaming.. maybe that is why i look forward to sleep everytime. At least the happiness felt in dreams may feel real for that moment even if i have to wake up at the end of it

Everytime i blog i am forced to realise how futile my day has been.
So when my friend asked why i dont blog so often, this is the reply.

Ok, what mth is it...march..
the month for closure and new beginnings
A chance to start a new and realise that what the hell is going on around here.

I think this month is the month for dreams
to think
to sleep
to free

Ok, went to the cruise over the weekend.
Was quite fun. I learnt a new game - bridge.
The trip was interesting, alot of stuff happening.
But, one thing that i regret is that i did not take the time.
I regret not spending time just staring at the stars, and enjoying the wind. I think the best part of the cruise is to be able to feel free. To feel like there are no boundaries.
I like to stare at the sky, look at the stars, enjoy the wind.
But i totally forgot this time, nvm, at least i had fun.

A note to mr. myles : u should really watch ur drinking or u might end up getting addicted to it.

Oh, one interesting thing happened today, donn and kevin suddenly went chasing after time. Do you feel lost? Well i did at first until i found out 'Time' was a girl. haha, a girl who always asked for the time. But unfortunately, we ran out of time to find out who time is. So they are now searching friendster for that girl. Goodluck!

Candice is watching Full House, i personally dont really fancy rain but this is just my opinion.
Nicholas is watch It Started With A Kiss, it is a nice show. Funny and interesting.
Yuying just got back from Ubin after taking so much nice picts. goodjob!
JeyJey is in Aussie looking for mail order brides so till he comes back with one i am left without a crapping partner. note to jeyjey: season 4 and 5 is the last season of viva la bam!! T_T oh and ashley, take pictures of any hot guys on the campus there!

As for me, i may go to melbourne to study.
I will try to apply for NTU ADM and then for Parsons, they sent me a email saying that application is not closed yet. So i am going to give it a shot for fun. You never know till u try. Dont want to regret.

well, thats about it, take care my dear fools!